wow
kyle keeps calling. i dont want to answer. i dont want to talk to him. i just want to be alone.
things are so fucked up right now and i dont even know why.. not fucked up with other people, just within myself. everyday i see pregnant ppl or people with babies and i have to be constantly reminded that i killed the one thing that would have kept blaine alive... his child.
i cant do this anymore. i have friends and family who care more about me than anything else.. and all i can do is be sad. life is not easy. it never was.. but cant for once it just.. be easy? no one dying.. no one hurting.. no one.. anything.
man. where did i go wrong.
things are so fucked up right now and i dont even know why.. not fucked up with other people, just within myself. everyday i see pregnant ppl or people with babies and i have to be constantly reminded that i killed the one thing that would have kept blaine alive... his child.
i cant do this anymore. i have friends and family who care more about me than anything else.. and all i can do is be sad. life is not easy. it never was.. but cant for once it just.. be easy? no one dying.. no one hurting.. no one.. anything.
man. where did i go wrong.