urgh!!~
i just dont know what to do anymore.
im seriously at rock bottom and NO ONE knows cuz i dont want to tell them why. ive done so much bad shit in the last year, the only thing i have to show for it is improvement at work.. and even thats suprising. my grades went down (( but still graduating tuesday )) and im lonelier than shit. theres a new old boy whos been pursuing me and its like.. my 10 year old crush coming true. but i love blaine. i see what the obvious choice would be. but its not so obvious when ur blind.
gr, i miss you sarah, i broke my phone and had to get a new one so i dont have ur number, i dont have ANYONES. call me we NEED to get together and talk. we def. need to catch up.
i miss blaine. more than anything. i miss my friends, i miss my life.. i just.. miss it. i miss it all. im such a retard. but its my fault, and im dealing with it as best i can.
work is the only thing that takes my mind off of things. which is good. but then when im home, its still surrounding me like a rain cloud. like the ones we had yesterday, IN NOVEMBER, with tornado warnings? :)
im seriously at rock bottom and NO ONE knows cuz i dont want to tell them why. ive done so much bad shit in the last year, the only thing i have to show for it is improvement at work.. and even thats suprising. my grades went down (( but still graduating tuesday )) and im lonelier than shit. theres a new old boy whos been pursuing me and its like.. my 10 year old crush coming true. but i love blaine. i see what the obvious choice would be. but its not so obvious when ur blind.
gr, i miss you sarah, i broke my phone and had to get a new one so i dont have ur number, i dont have ANYONES. call me we NEED to get together and talk. we def. need to catch up.
i miss blaine. more than anything. i miss my friends, i miss my life.. i just.. miss it. i miss it all. im such a retard. but its my fault, and im dealing with it as best i can.
work is the only thing that takes my mind off of things. which is good. but then when im home, its still surrounding me like a rain cloud. like the ones we had yesterday, IN NOVEMBER, with tornado warnings? :)