forever and a day ♥
365 days. one year.
you guys stepped onto the debut stage on 2009, oct 16th. you were scared, nervous and excited and maybe all you could do before you went onstage was to repeat your lines, practice more of your dance moves. but you were together and you realized that having fun TOGETHER was more important. weeks passed and you smiled more, you grew more comfortable with the stage and your passion increased.
one year later and we never stopped seeing your smiles, tears and your passion. at times, we as fans get worried. were you sleeping well enough? did you guys have enough food to eat? seeing you rush from one place to another, one schedule to another, one country to another, our hearts ache a little and we frowned slightly. but we know you’re doing all these because you love us and so we try to support you in every other way.
yoon doojoon. i see you trying your hardest to be a good leader to your members. you try hard not because you want to be the best leader ever in kpop a title unfortunately already pegged to yunho but because you truly and genuinely cares for your members. you may be clueless at times but you know. you know when they need time for themselves and when they desperately need a hug, even though they're probably smiling and saying they're okay. you pile everything on yourself and i worry so much about you but i'm confident that your members hover around you to make sure that you will never fall. even if you do, you'll never fall alone because they are like the safety net that you never thought you will ever need in your life.
jang hyunseung. you're unforgettable, you know that? i wonder are there days when you sit there and feel overshadowed because you're surrounded by member that seem to be able to shine much brighter. but to me, you're the one shining the brightest. you sing and dance so effortlessly that i sometimes forget how much you fought and struggled behind the glamor. you picked yourself up after a crushing defeat, i admire you for that. but what makes me respect you so much more is the fact that you forgave and forgotten. you not only forgave the people that hurt you but also yourself; i see the way you stopped beating yourself over the "what ifs" and "could have beens". you have shown that it's possible to move on and be happy. maybe it is here that you truly find yourself and the ability to love yourself because you're constantly surrounded by people who love you, even if you sometimes think you don't deserve to be loved.
yong junhyung. you started out as the bamf that nags too much, cleans too much and sulks too much. you're amazing and distinctive as a rapper; i can never understand how people can call you "GDragon wannabe". your raps, littered with too many english words that never makes much sense when stringed together, amuses me but you're always able to pull them off and make them sound like slick and bad-ass pick-up lines. but what makes me love you even more is the fact that you're slowly changing. grunts are slowly changing to "hey, are you okay?", sulks are starting to change to genuine smiles lined at the side of puffy cheeks and hands that cleaned way too much are learning to leave comforting pats on your members' backs. you may never know the proper words to say to them when they're hurting but they know. (yoseob knows that it's okay for him to cling onto you even if you grunted too much. doojoon knows that you're melting inside at the fanchants even if your eyes are hidden behind the shades. hyunseung knows your hands will always find his even if you're not looking.) you meant to hide all these from them but being in this band has made you open and vulnerable. and you realized that it's only with them that you never minded your own vulnerability.
yang yoseob. the eternal sunshine of the group, have you ever been tired of being constantly happy? i believe you had. you get emotionally and physically tired, get your feelings hurt by the criticism and you wondered where you're going to get the strength to continue all this but you keep smiling because you don't want to see the people around you to stop smiling. it is with this heart and mentality that you sometimes put on a mask onstage while singing and hitting that perfect note. back in the dorm and practice rooms, that's when you frown, worry and cry. but slowly, you're starting to realize that your members don't really need you to constantly smile. even if you're still hesitant to shed this mask, you allowed yourself to breakdown in the comforting arms of your members. you then remember your members, the good times together, the song in your heart, the passion to continue singing and all these causes you to put on a genuine smile onstage. this is the time when you shine the brightest, like fire and light as described in your name.
lee kikwang. how do i describe you? you're cheerful, dorky and you win everybody over with your bright winsome smile and body rolls. it's impossible to find a reason to dislike you. it's weird but you just remind me of zhoumi; the big-heartedness and the ability to love everybody in this whole wide world. i know it's not possible that you're this innocent but maybe you are, you're just special and amazing like that. you're not dumb and i never liked when people say you are. but oh well, i'm pretty sure your members will never hesitate to punch the hell out of anybody who says it.
son dongwoon. you're like the jaejoong of beast: beautiful, talkative and FLAWLESS. how are you even human, omg. you may not be the best singer or dancer but you try and work so damn hard that maybe you're the real inspiration and motivation for your hyungs to work even harder. i'm really glad that you're the magnae because you're always able to put smiles on your hyungs' faces with just a little whining and "hyunggggg~". (or you just force them to finish a jigsaw puzzle to keep them from feeling too stressed.) you are so ready to believe in the good of people that you've never doubted your hyungs even though they may be intimidating and cold or clueless most of the time. gah, why are you so perfect? i will always ask myself and never be able to find an answer to this, for the rest of my life.
beast. you've been through ups and downs together but you've never given up. maybe individually, you have but it's each other that keeps you from giving up. sure, you've had your fights among yourselves, glares thrown at each other but these have never affected your love for each other and the tight grip you have on each other's wrist. "recycled idols" - a phrase that used to pierce your hearts but you never let it stop you from giving your all. you may disband, your name and your light might fade one day but you've created history in kpop: you've shown that it's okay to fall, as long as you stand up again with your head up high and your heart already slowly mending. one year on and you still have a long road ahead of you, rocks to kick away and hills to climb but don't ever give up because you have each other to hold on to when it gets too tough.
one year. and many more years to come, i'm sure.
you guys stepped onto the debut stage on 2009, oct 16th. you were scared, nervous and excited and maybe all you could do before you went onstage was to repeat your lines, practice more of your dance moves. but you were together and you realized that having fun TOGETHER was more important. weeks passed and you smiled more, you grew more comfortable with the stage and your passion increased.
one year later and we never stopped seeing your smiles, tears and your passion. at times, we as fans get worried. were you sleeping well enough? did you guys have enough food to eat? seeing you rush from one place to another, one schedule to another, one country to another, our hearts ache a little and we frowned slightly. but we know you’re doing all these because you love us and so we try to support you in every other way.
yoon doojoon. i see you trying your hardest to be a good leader to your members. you try hard not because you want to be the best leader ever in kpop a title unfortunately already pegged to yunho but because you truly and genuinely cares for your members. you may be clueless at times but you know. you know when they need time for themselves and when they desperately need a hug, even though they're probably smiling and saying they're okay. you pile everything on yourself and i worry so much about you but i'm confident that your members hover around you to make sure that you will never fall. even if you do, you'll never fall alone because they are like the safety net that you never thought you will ever need in your life.
jang hyunseung. you're unforgettable, you know that? i wonder are there days when you sit there and feel overshadowed because you're surrounded by member that seem to be able to shine much brighter. but to me, you're the one shining the brightest. you sing and dance so effortlessly that i sometimes forget how much you fought and struggled behind the glamor. you picked yourself up after a crushing defeat, i admire you for that. but what makes me respect you so much more is the fact that you forgave and forgotten. you not only forgave the people that hurt you but also yourself; i see the way you stopped beating yourself over the "what ifs" and "could have beens". you have shown that it's possible to move on and be happy. maybe it is here that you truly find yourself and the ability to love yourself because you're constantly surrounded by people who love you, even if you sometimes think you don't deserve to be loved.
yong junhyung. you started out as the bamf that nags too much, cleans too much and sulks too much. you're amazing and distinctive as a rapper; i can never understand how people can call you "GDragon wannabe". your raps, littered with too many english words that never makes much sense when stringed together, amuses me but you're always able to pull them off and make them sound like slick and bad-ass pick-up lines. but what makes me love you even more is the fact that you're slowly changing. grunts are slowly changing to "hey, are you okay?", sulks are starting to change to genuine smiles lined at the side of puffy cheeks and hands that cleaned way too much are learning to leave comforting pats on your members' backs. you may never know the proper words to say to them when they're hurting but they know. (yoseob knows that it's okay for him to cling onto you even if you grunted too much. doojoon knows that you're melting inside at the fanchants even if your eyes are hidden behind the shades. hyunseung knows your hands will always find his even if you're not looking.) you meant to hide all these from them but being in this band has made you open and vulnerable. and you realized that it's only with them that you never minded your own vulnerability.
yang yoseob. the eternal sunshine of the group, have you ever been tired of being constantly happy? i believe you had. you get emotionally and physically tired, get your feelings hurt by the criticism and you wondered where you're going to get the strength to continue all this but you keep smiling because you don't want to see the people around you to stop smiling. it is with this heart and mentality that you sometimes put on a mask onstage while singing and hitting that perfect note. back in the dorm and practice rooms, that's when you frown, worry and cry. but slowly, you're starting to realize that your members don't really need you to constantly smile. even if you're still hesitant to shed this mask, you allowed yourself to breakdown in the comforting arms of your members. you then remember your members, the good times together, the song in your heart, the passion to continue singing and all these causes you to put on a genuine smile onstage. this is the time when you shine the brightest, like fire and light as described in your name.
lee kikwang. how do i describe you? you're cheerful, dorky and you win everybody over with your bright winsome smile and body rolls. it's impossible to find a reason to dislike you. it's weird but you just remind me of zhoumi; the big-heartedness and the ability to love everybody in this whole wide world. i know it's not possible that you're this innocent but maybe you are, you're just special and amazing like that. you're not dumb and i never liked when people say you are. but oh well, i'm pretty sure your members will never hesitate to punch the hell out of anybody who says it.
son dongwoon. you're like the jaejoong of beast: beautiful, talkative and FLAWLESS. how are you even human, omg. you may not be the best singer or dancer but you try and work so damn hard that maybe you're the real inspiration and motivation for your hyungs to work even harder. i'm really glad that you're the magnae because you're always able to put smiles on your hyungs' faces with just a little whining and "hyunggggg~". (or you just force them to finish a jigsaw puzzle to keep them from feeling too stressed.) you are so ready to believe in the good of people that you've never doubted your hyungs even though they may be intimidating and cold or clueless most of the time. gah, why are you so perfect? i will always ask myself and never be able to find an answer to this, for the rest of my life.
beast. you've been through ups and downs together but you've never given up. maybe individually, you have but it's each other that keeps you from giving up. sure, you've had your fights among yourselves, glares thrown at each other but these have never affected your love for each other and the tight grip you have on each other's wrist. "recycled idols" - a phrase that used to pierce your hearts but you never let it stop you from giving your all. you may disband, your name and your light might fade one day but you've created history in kpop: you've shown that it's okay to fall, as long as you stand up again with your head up high and your heart already slowly mending. one year on and you still have a long road ahead of you, rocks to kick away and hills to climb but don't ever give up because you have each other to hold on to when it gets too tough.
one year. and many more years to come, i'm sure.