I'm always so tired
The year 2010 is almost over. It's really weird how time is flying so quickly, and it feels like a lifetime ago that I was a student living in SD.
Lately (or, just more often than usual) I've been feeling like I'm trudging along. I keep going back and forth between "I'm making progress with my life," and "I'm going absolutely nowhere." And this feeling comes at a juxtaposition of events: I wrapped on a short just yesterday, worked a half-shift with for a gig with my dad today, and tutored two of my students tonight. I'm pretty exhausted at the moment. Of course, the hodgepodge of odd jobs are somewhat necessary for my career goal until I'm getting "paid" for my design work, however infrequently it gets credited as such, but it makes me think I'm not gonna make it.
Keep on keeping on; it'll pay off someday. Stay focused. As long as my spirit can carry me, I will try. Just not feeling it right now though.
It's almost been a year since I've started working on short films. I've learned so much from the experiences (I kind of want to write a list of things I've learned that nobody really tells you!). I've met a lot of people, some of whom I'd like to think I've become close to. Eleven films this year, soon to be twelve after the first week of December. I don't dream about becoming rich. I just want to be able to live comfortably while helping make art. And believe me,... I can live cheaply. But I wouldn't mind having a few luxuries, you know, like a stable place to live.
Right now though, I'm tired. I'm frustrated. I feel unaccomplished and worthless. I feel stifled and unappreciated.
I just want to sleep forever.
Lately (or, just more often than usual) I've been feeling like I'm trudging along. I keep going back and forth between "I'm making progress with my life," and "I'm going absolutely nowhere." And this feeling comes at a juxtaposition of events: I wrapped on a short just yesterday, worked a half-shift with for a gig with my dad today, and tutored two of my students tonight. I'm pretty exhausted at the moment. Of course, the hodgepodge of odd jobs are somewhat necessary for my career goal until I'm getting "paid" for my design work, however infrequently it gets credited as such, but it makes me think I'm not gonna make it.
Keep on keeping on; it'll pay off someday. Stay focused. As long as my spirit can carry me, I will try. Just not feeling it right now though.
It's almost been a year since I've started working on short films. I've learned so much from the experiences (I kind of want to write a list of things I've learned that nobody really tells you!). I've met a lot of people, some of whom I'd like to think I've become close to. Eleven films this year, soon to be twelve after the first week of December. I don't dream about becoming rich. I just want to be able to live comfortably while helping make art. And believe me,... I can live cheaply. But I wouldn't mind having a few luxuries, you know, like a stable place to live.
Right now though, I'm tired. I'm frustrated. I feel unaccomplished and worthless. I feel stifled and unappreciated.
I just want to sleep forever.