Preview experience of Sunday June 14, 2009
Tonight was my last Circle K meeting as a member. I'd like to think it won't be my last meeting ever, but who's to say for sure?
I wanted to say a better farewell to the club but I guess I chickened out when Jeff gave his "awwwwww"-moment fink at the end of the meeting. I couldn't top that... So I ended up not saying a lot of what I meant to say, and I fucked up my chance. Sure it's just a meeting, and it's not like I was really close with everyone in the room... but I wanted to leave on a good note. Oh well, right?
I was hanging around after the meeting today to get people to sign the graduation dog who didn't go yesterday.
I was about to leave, and though I can't be sure, when I saw Mandy I thought she was crying. I wouldn't assume why, but when I had time to think about it at home, it started to hit me, even if on a small level: I knew Mandy for 3 years. She was my daughter in my families for 2 years, and I still retained the "Mommy" status. ha. Of all my "children," I spent the most time with her, getting to know her. And now she's my successor as secretary. And now I'm leaving. I started full-on crying. Why do I always realize when it's too late that these things are so important to me? Luckily that tearfest only lasted a minute or two.
I think of a quote my sister and I like to say from Scrubs:
"Get it together, Steve!"
Anyway...
People always ask the typical small-talk question, "what are you doing after college?" as in, what kind of work will you be pursuing, what kind of post-graduate degrees, where are you moving, blah blah blah they don't really care. I don't bother asking that question because I'm sure a million other people ask them that question and they are probably just as tired of hearing it and answering it as I am. But no one stops to wonder how you'll be emotionally after college. Something that for most people takes up four years of their lives. Something that, if they actually participated in their college activities outside of staying at home, watching TV, always studying, they'd be in some way attached to.
My consolation is that they say the friends you make in college are friends for life. I try to see that through my mom's example. I know three of her college friends (or I guess friends she made while in college or something) that she keeps in touch with. I sincerely hope that I'll be able to do the same with many more of my friends, but ah, time will tell.
Short-term reunion: Vegas, bayyybeeeee!
I wanted to say a better farewell to the club but I guess I chickened out when Jeff gave his "awwwwww"-moment fink at the end of the meeting. I couldn't top that... So I ended up not saying a lot of what I meant to say, and I fucked up my chance. Sure it's just a meeting, and it's not like I was really close with everyone in the room... but I wanted to leave on a good note. Oh well, right?
I was hanging around after the meeting today to get people to sign the graduation dog who didn't go yesterday.
I was about to leave, and though I can't be sure, when I saw Mandy I thought she was crying. I wouldn't assume why, but when I had time to think about it at home, it started to hit me, even if on a small level: I knew Mandy for 3 years. She was my daughter in my families for 2 years, and I still retained the "Mommy" status. ha. Of all my "children," I spent the most time with her, getting to know her. And now she's my successor as secretary. And now I'm leaving. I started full-on crying. Why do I always realize when it's too late that these things are so important to me? Luckily that tearfest only lasted a minute or two.
I think of a quote my sister and I like to say from Scrubs:
"Get it together, Steve!"
Anyway...
People always ask the typical small-talk question, "what are you doing after college?" as in, what kind of work will you be pursuing, what kind of post-graduate degrees, where are you moving, blah blah blah they don't really care. I don't bother asking that question because I'm sure a million other people ask them that question and they are probably just as tired of hearing it and answering it as I am. But no one stops to wonder how you'll be emotionally after college. Something that for most people takes up four years of their lives. Something that, if they actually participated in their college activities outside of staying at home, watching TV, always studying, they'd be in some way attached to.
My consolation is that they say the friends you make in college are friends for life. I try to see that through my mom's example. I know three of her college friends (or I guess friends she made while in college or something) that she keeps in touch with. I sincerely hope that I'll be able to do the same with many more of my friends, but ah, time will tell.
Short-term reunion: Vegas, bayyybeeeee!