This should be my Sign
I will usually look at a lot of things going on in my life as signs about what I should be doing... Not the most sound way of living, I know, but some coincidences like to present themselves at the right moment. This one, however, I refuse to give into.
Being self-defeatist as usual, I just now gave up on trying to make the Rinoa duster for Halloween. It just ain't happening. For all the determination (or lack thereof...) I had to make it in time for the CV contest and/or "the unofficial," it eventually started wearing away into doubt. As much as I really want to remake this costume, I wanted it to be "perfect," and there's no way I'm going to make it the way I'd want it forever in a short night. It's not even the right type of fabric, but that's a whole other issue.
So if I were to be myself and assume things as signs, I could see this as being my sign to give up on costume designing. Even costume construction. Give up my hobby of cosplay. But I refuse to think that. I still have doubts, of course. But I'm not ready to throw up my hands and give up this aspiration all together.
Just as I thought about writing this short entry, I came up with a geeky alternative for the party.
I can take that as the universe's way of setting me back onto this path. It won't be an "accurate" Rinoa, but I hope it'll be fun either way :)
Being self-defeatist as usual, I just now gave up on trying to make the Rinoa duster for Halloween. It just ain't happening. For all the determination (or lack thereof...) I had to make it in time for the CV contest and/or "the unofficial," it eventually started wearing away into doubt. As much as I really want to remake this costume, I wanted it to be "perfect," and there's no way I'm going to make it the way I'd want it forever in a short night. It's not even the right type of fabric, but that's a whole other issue.
So if I were to be myself and assume things as signs, I could see this as being my sign to give up on costume designing. Even costume construction. Give up my hobby of cosplay. But I refuse to think that. I still have doubts, of course. But I'm not ready to throw up my hands and give up this aspiration all together.
Just as I thought about writing this short entry, I came up with a geeky alternative for the party.
I can take that as the universe's way of setting me back onto this path. It won't be an "accurate" Rinoa, but I hope it'll be fun either way :)