meaning of LOVE?
Hello to my f-list. How are you? What are you doing? How's your day? Good? Bad? Moderate?
I wonder about certain thing. What is love? Why we fall in love? What is hate? Why we hate someone?
I know when we like someone, we will do anything for that person. We can't see/hear/read about something bad relate to that person. When people say bad things about that person, we will be mad or angry. I also know that those feeling are mystery. We can't force ourselves to like/hate/love/miss everyone in the world. It just happen. It comes w/o notice. It dissapear w/o trace. We said people are childish when they say bad things about person that we like. We said they have no manner. But are we different from them? Are you sure about that?
BUT...what happened when you also did that? FOR YOUR INFORMATION, not everyone in the world are like that (Blaming others. Make excuses)... We can't judge a big group with the same character. It doesn't mean when 10 people like a person, all of them share the same character. They are different. Manner, girl. Where is your manner?
For me, of course I'm sad when people say bad things about Ayumi. They compare Ayu with other artists. They say Namie is better. Utada can write good lyrics and make her own music. Koda Kumi is a good dancer. Who is Ayumi? NOBODY!!! Yes, I'm sad because of that. But it doesn't give me reason to bash over Namie, Koda Kumi or Utada. I believe each of them have their own speciality. It doesn't mean I'm a good girl. NO, that's not my point.
When it happened, should I use every chance I have to say bad things about Namie, Utada, Kuu? Should I do that? NO...I believe they say bad things about Ayu because they don't know Ayu. So, why don't I go to them and explain about it NICELY? I know they will ignore it but at least I can tell the truth. If I say bad things about those artists, I also like them. No manner. And can't you think about people who like all of them? They also be sad. They also like Utada, right? If you are Utada's fans, will you make your friend (Utada's fans) be sad? You dare to do that?If yes, Bravo to you
And one more thing, when you do that things, are you sure that person knows about that? Will that person happy with your behaviour? Will that person proud with it? Do you know that person very well? Does that person know you? Yes, I know that's one way to show your love to that person. But again, it doesn't give you reason to do more that than. We are human. Our God gives us Brain to think. Why don't we use it wisely? You are clever. You are genius. You are smart. Can't you think other things to tell the truth to people who say bad things about person that you like that they are wrong? Can't you think what to do so just that kind of group of people will relate? Not to the viewers. Hmm...If still happen, simple. I can make a conclusion that YOU ARE CHILDISH TOO. JUST LIKE THEM!!!! Yes, you can call me b****. You can mad at me. But dear, I DON'T CARE. You have feeling. Me too. Others too.
So enough with that annoying topic. Can we proceed with other things?
OMG!!!!!!!! Yesterday I went to a shopping complex near to my place with Intan. Haha...Guest what I bought? LOVE SONGS album. At last, after 3 months waiting for it to arrive to Malaysia, I saw that album. I saw it before but I don't want to buy it. It's all because album that I saw is Cd version. I want to buy the CD+DVD version. Hehe...So, Ayu...I LOVE IT. And I can't wait to watch that RnRC dvd Concert.
My love to Ayu still there. It is Endless Love. But I also listen to Utada Hikaru and now into Namie. Haha...it still hard to believe she make colab with Yamapi. Woah...Johnnys? *faint*
I just finish my common tests. T_T...I don't know the result. Mom, Sorry ne....Me as always. Haha...I can't be in tension mode, Why? I will be crazy me. What I did? I ordered Jin's dvd concert, went to watch movie, and bought jigsaw puzzle. Haha...when will I do that? Where I got the money? When I realize what I did, I don't think I'll change it back to normal. But the main point is HOW COME JIN WIN OVER AYUMI?????? LOL. Why I didn't order her Dvd concert instead of Jin's? Haha...Crazy Me. Sorry Ayu. It's doesn't mean my love to you not exist anymore. Hell NO!!! I still love you. Don't ask me why I do that, kay. Hahaha because I still wonder about it. *rolling on the floor*
So, Akanishi Jin!!!! My warning to you. I use my money to buy your dvd. So you better make sure it's worthy for me to buy it. Haha...And I wish I can get that Phone strap. Because nowaday I'm into phone straps. LOL...maybe I can use my phone strap as the pillow to sleep while talk with my mom. Haha
Hmm..what else I bought last time? *think*
1. ViVi (as usual) since I already addicted to that amazing magz.
2. Another Jdrama - it will increase because my hobby is collecting things.haha
3. Phone straps - until now my first phone has 4 phone straps on it while my second phone has only 3 phone straps. My third phone only has one. Sorry because I rarely use that phone, T_T
4. Three pairs of stoking. Haha...Yeah, I know it's random. LOL
What I want to buy in future:
1. All Ayu remix albums. Even I never buy it before. Even I never listen to her remix songs. But I can feel I will buy it in future. Why? Haha...simple. Because she is AYUMI HAMASAKI
2. ViVi (again?) haha...can't help. I will buy that magz until their company stop publishing that mag.
3. More phone straps. Hmm...I think It's a good thing I don't know how to buy online ortherwise I will use my saving to only buy Ayu's phone straps, album, single, dvd concerts. Haha....
4. If I get a chance, I want to buy Namie Amuro new album; Checkmate, Utada Hikaru dvd concert; Wild Life, and of course all Ayumi's relate things.
My priority is Ayu's (miss)understood, A Song For XX and My Story. That's my favourite albums from her. I love it but so sad I can't buy it in my country since my country only sale her album starts from 'Secret'. T_T...If only I know anyone who can help me to buy it...but it's okay. At least I still can hear she sings with passion.
Message to Ayu: You start post in English at TA, right? Thank you so much for your effort to be 'near and close' with your international fans. When I have enough money and know how to register into TA, Don't worry. I will be part of it. Because We UNITE under the same roof - YOU! And Good luck for your AT2011. Mannie will come? hehe...do you miss Mannie? *headdesk* Of course, right? Silly question.haha
~End of words~
~yui~