Spring in Autumn
Whew, synthesis was done!
Though it was only for a week, I honestly had fun searching for books and articles, listing topics, citing sources, speaking up and more. I felt... alive? Like I had some use for everyone. My group mates and I did all the tasks assigned to us and it was such a good feeling to accomplish it together with them. I even made friends with everyone, as it is rare for me to interact with my other batch mates. But the most wonderful feeling of all? I was told by the group leader that I did well during the presentation. It made my heart jump. Cheesy as it sounds hahahaha! The whole research was focused on the solutions and I presented our group's output to everyone. Though I sometimes paused to find the right words to say, I think I properly did it... even if it was spontaneous (I only had a few keywords on a sheet of paper). Remembering how I concluded it, I can't help but smile. And hearing the claps was music to my ears.
I feel good! :)
And before I forget, I actually feel glad that my thesis mentor expects great things from me (though she felt frustrated last time; see previous entry). I've been used to people not expecting anything from me since I transferred schools before. I was a person of low self-esteem and I felt like I disappointed my parents. But that was the old me. I'm breaking free! Always struggling to better myself! I owe it to myself to do better this time. I'm going to make the people who matter to me tall and proud! And of course, I'm doing this for myself. I deserve to be happy. My happiness will also be my family's happiness.
I'm going to get a distinction in oral and written comprehensives. Wait for me. I'll catch you!
A 2-year-old me doing an early sentai pose.
Though it was only for a week, I honestly had fun searching for books and articles, listing topics, citing sources, speaking up and more. I felt... alive? Like I had some use for everyone. My group mates and I did all the tasks assigned to us and it was such a good feeling to accomplish it together with them. I even made friends with everyone, as it is rare for me to interact with my other batch mates. But the most wonderful feeling of all? I was told by the group leader that I did well during the presentation. It made my heart jump. Cheesy as it sounds hahahaha! The whole research was focused on the solutions and I presented our group's output to everyone. Though I sometimes paused to find the right words to say, I think I properly did it... even if it was spontaneous (I only had a few keywords on a sheet of paper). Remembering how I concluded it, I can't help but smile. And hearing the claps was music to my ears.
I feel good! :)
And before I forget, I actually feel glad that my thesis mentor expects great things from me (though she felt frustrated last time; see previous entry). I've been used to people not expecting anything from me since I transferred schools before. I was a person of low self-esteem and I felt like I disappointed my parents. But that was the old me. I'm breaking free! Always struggling to better myself! I owe it to myself to do better this time. I'm going to make the people who matter to me tall and proud! And of course, I'm doing this for myself. I deserve to be happy. My happiness will also be my family's happiness.
I'm going to get a distinction in oral and written comprehensives. Wait for me. I'll catch you!
A 2-year-old me doing an early sentai pose.