This is so shit.
kinwayuu is not feeling well, go donate a hug or a few kind words or both. She needs it and deserves it. ]:
I had dinner with my 'relatives' again. I put that context in inverted comas because relatives are supposed to make you feel like you belong and there'll always be a place for you. Somehow I don't feel this. With these certain ones at least.
I dunno~ maybe I'm wrong to be thinking so innovatively and therefore being selfish. I don't want to get married. I want to live single till I die, being good to my parents and the society.
Conventional role of women (especially with Asia) : serve your husband. serve your in-laws. give birth like rabbits to try help dominate the world with a surname that's not even yours. be quiet. be in the background.
Of course there're better merits but at this point I fail to see any that are positive. I'm pissed, I'm even pissed with female species who are SO dependent on men. [OMG am I a feminist? D:<]
All I hear when I visit them is how I should start thinking about marriage and husbands and I'm pretty much sick of it. AND YOU TELL ME NOT TO BE FEMINIST GOH! I can live perfectly capable and respectful WITHOUT a husband. If I ever do get married, then that's my problem but right now frankly, I don't give a shit.
So my dear relatives, SHUT THE HELL UP and let me live in peace. Since I'll never stop saying "I'm not interested".