Indecisiveness and Dance Concert
Dance Concert was tonight, which is why I started all my homework at around 10:30. The show itself was good and very entertaining. Everyone worked really hard on their parts, and it showed. I have to give credit to Talona for being in so many acts and to Marghee for choreographing so many great acts.
Also, Jasmine? I love her. Seriously. Singing “My Immortal” in Talent Show and now Sarah McLachlan’s “Angel”? If she doesn’t do something about that beautiful voice of hers like auditioning for American Idol, I’ll hunt her down. Also, a big pat on the back to Julian and Anthony for their MC’ing skills. Very, very funny especially towards the end there (“According to my calculations…I can’t dance! And I can’t write poems!” “Stop tickling my monkey!”). Good job to everyone who participated.
And on to my ongoing struggle to pick between UCSD and UCI.
Ugh. It’s just so damn frustrating. My mom keeps telling me to pick what I want-and I agree, but I want a few things that neither school has all of (woah, that was grammatically odd). Oh, and please excuse the following few sentences where I use the phrase “I want” a few hundred times.
I want to go to a school for which I feel CAMS has pushed me to prepare. I want to go to a school that has that friendly, homey environment I love. I want to be close enough to my family to be able to go home whenever they need me. I want to be able to go out and see my best friends every weekend or more frequently if need be. (God, I feel so selfish.)
UCSD has the first two of my wants. Now, I’m not saying Irvine is a bad school. It isn’t. I just feel that San Diego was a little more selective in their process, and being accepted there feels a little more prestigious. Also, when I visited the SD campus, I immediately fell in love with the whole environment.
Irvine, on the other hand, has that closeness to family and friends that I literally need. No, this isn’t me being clingy or me being afraid to be on my own. There is a certain extenuating circumstance involving my immediate family that is a little too personal for me to share here (and that, really, only one person outside of my family knows about). I have a feeling that if I separate myself from my family, I’ll live to regret the time I spent away from them if only for the fact that I won’t be there for my sister because I’m sure the “extenuating circumstance” I mentioned has not and will continue to not be easy for her. We don’t have the most open relationship, but I like to think that I at least offer my strength by just being around her.
So here I am, stuck between a rock and a hard place. Do I go with my head and UCSD or go with my heart and UCI? This is the question that will have to be answered some time this weekend. Yes, money is a factor here, but it’s just about even between the two schools, so that really doesn’t help my decision. There’s a lot more floating through my head right now, but I’m too tired and too busy to get it all down.
If anybody has stuck through my babble, could you please put in your two cents? Any suggestion would probably be a big help at this point.
Also, Jasmine? I love her. Seriously. Singing “My Immortal” in Talent Show and now Sarah McLachlan’s “Angel”? If she doesn’t do something about that beautiful voice of hers like auditioning for American Idol, I’ll hunt her down. Also, a big pat on the back to Julian and Anthony for their MC’ing skills. Very, very funny especially towards the end there (“According to my calculations…I can’t dance! And I can’t write poems!” “Stop tickling my monkey!”). Good job to everyone who participated.
And on to my ongoing struggle to pick between UCSD and UCI.
Ugh. It’s just so damn frustrating. My mom keeps telling me to pick what I want-and I agree, but I want a few things that neither school has all of (woah, that was grammatically odd). Oh, and please excuse the following few sentences where I use the phrase “I want” a few hundred times.
I want to go to a school for which I feel CAMS has pushed me to prepare. I want to go to a school that has that friendly, homey environment I love. I want to be close enough to my family to be able to go home whenever they need me. I want to be able to go out and see my best friends every weekend or more frequently if need be. (God, I feel so selfish.)
UCSD has the first two of my wants. Now, I’m not saying Irvine is a bad school. It isn’t. I just feel that San Diego was a little more selective in their process, and being accepted there feels a little more prestigious. Also, when I visited the SD campus, I immediately fell in love with the whole environment.
Irvine, on the other hand, has that closeness to family and friends that I literally need. No, this isn’t me being clingy or me being afraid to be on my own. There is a certain extenuating circumstance involving my immediate family that is a little too personal for me to share here (and that, really, only one person outside of my family knows about). I have a feeling that if I separate myself from my family, I’ll live to regret the time I spent away from them if only for the fact that I won’t be there for my sister because I’m sure the “extenuating circumstance” I mentioned has not and will continue to not be easy for her. We don’t have the most open relationship, but I like to think that I at least offer my strength by just being around her.
So here I am, stuck between a rock and a hard place. Do I go with my head and UCSD or go with my heart and UCI? This is the question that will have to be answered some time this weekend. Yes, money is a factor here, but it’s just about even between the two schools, so that really doesn’t help my decision. There’s a lot more floating through my head right now, but I’m too tired and too busy to get it all down.
If anybody has stuck through my babble, could you please put in your two cents? Any suggestion would probably be a big help at this point.