im strong enough
I guess I have to be strong willed all over again. I quit playing hard to get sortof. Josh showed up and I went to mush. Not that I quit thinking for myself, and I didnt let him run over me. He hasnt hurt me since we've been talking, and I hope I havent hurt him either. But, I cant keep sitting here waiting for him to come online, to repond to emails, and hoping he will just call me oneday and tell me he wants me back. Its not fair to me. I dont know whats going on with him, if he has a REAL girlfriend or what, and I dont deserve to be the outsider who he can come to when she isnt around. He owes me a real explanation. YES or NO. I need reality. Whether it be good or bad.
On the other hand.. I should be getting a new layout soon. Something to look forward to. ;)
*After all you put me through, you'd think I'd despise you, but in the end, I wanna thank you, cause you made me that much stronger*