Moonlight to kill tonight but drowned like rabbits in a hole.

[yummytree]

Okay hello there. Things are new now so time for an update. My friend got out of the hospital this week. He is doing much much better and hes on less meds as well so double plus. I've been hanging out with him since he got out. In seperate news the name of the band is the darkhorse society. That one is courtesy of me so. WE practice this weekend supposedly i'm starting to think paul doesn't want to take this as seriopiusly as me cause he never wants to practice.. Time will tell. I had another dissociation thius morning and missed program. Their talking about nme going back inpatient which i really don't want to yet i would rather wait and see if it gets worse. Because i know how my body is and these things come and go. And the last two haven't been viiolent at all(that i know of). So why rush with the inpatient when we could try other methods. Side notes i also am losing my hair and having chronic night nose bleeds so i saw the doctor (psych) and he says ssee an md. Seperate news Bronwen was supposed to cut myu hair tommorow but she can't so we have to resechudle and stuff so that sucks but its cool cause i understand tthinbgs come up. At the diner tonight i finished allyssa poem nuber too so i'm gonna post it even though i was gonna take a break from posting them. The alyssa seris really comes from my heart and has alot of meaning so there different than the rest and have more meaning and she be read more passionately if that makes sense.

its good when you love me.
its good when you care.
its good when your sober.
its good when your not there.
you raped away my inocence
you hit and hit and hit and hit
you drunk like a race horse
and cried out names while fucking me.
know my name now fucker
know it now
Alyssa
Alyssa
Alyssa
Alyssa
Alyssa
i showed you didn't i
now you can't hurt me any more
any more any more any more any more
i know they"ll blame you
they"ll blame you
they will blame you
and i wll be gone i'll be gone
so i can be young again
i can be me again
i can be free again
its good when your not there
this rope and tre
this will be my end
this will be my end
this will be my end
this will be my end
i can be free again
at my end
and you will burn
at my end
this will be my end

thats alllysa 2its hard to understand the point but i assure you theresa something beutiful in there i put it there. leave comments hopeffulkly this will be the last in a while.