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I'm so confussed at just everything right now. There's so much stuff going on and my head just can't think about it all. Taylor, Kelli, School, Parents, Other friends, it all just sucks sooo bad.
Taylor and i have talked a lot about high school and what's going to happen. I talked to him on the phone for a while when i was at leslie's the other night. I called him wanting to break up because i thought that he was going to break my heart at the beggininng of the year and i wasnt going to go into high school with no social life because of my boyfriend. I came out of the conversation just loving him more and i dont know why. When i talk to him I freeze up. like in the conversation i can like say in my head what i really want to say to him but when the time actually comes... all i can think about is him and how much he means to me. I know that some of my friends don't like him but when i think about it, that's not going to make me not love him as much. like at first i really did not want to go into high school with him because i thought that he was going to hold me down. but if he does then that's when we'll know it's not working. but it's working now. So i dont want to let that go just yet. Taylor will always be with me. whether it be my friend or something more... what we have and have had is too special to let me just leave behind because i'm going to a different school. Wow... sry i talk a lot about nothing..
Today I went to Pinehurst with Kelli, Leslie, Hannah, Liz Hart, and Jazzy. It was fun but i was just in the worst mood i think i have ever been in. Well actually just when everyone was like playing tennis and swimming and all i wanted to do was go sleep, but maybe because i only 4 HOURS OF SLEEP THANKS TO KELLI AND LESLIE. I actually had fun while we were eating lunch for like 2 hours but kelli was hungry and so was i but she was just pissing me off... she was stealing my god damn food.... LAY OFF BITCH. just kidding i love u... but i do think that u need to know that u ... yes kelli mckenna are sssooooo emo.
Well I'm stanky... well not really because i took a shower last night but i feel like another one.