the answer isnt clear
this entry is directed at one person in particular and they know who they are...i could tell everyone else not to read it and some of u may respect that but some of u wont so im not gonna bother read it if u want but please dont comment unless u are the person this is directed at or u feel u have something helpful to over or u want to tell me something completely unrelated ok that said here goes
dear you
u want me to give u an answer but its not that easy. i want to say yes but i cant. i want to say no but i cant.i love u and i cant deny that but ur hurt me and its a hutrt that will last a life time. u say u know uve been a cunt and an asshole to me and thats great that u finally realise that but its not enough for u too just say these things theyve all been said before. if i say yes to u i risk everything i have everything ive ever wanted and i dont know if its worth it. if i say yes i risk the relationship i have with my family i would lose any chance of ever coming back here and i dont know if i can. u have alot to prove to me and lilly and the baby and other people before i can decide. its not just me uve hurt. i know u l love me but uve said that before. i cant handle being hurt again i have to put my foot down at some point. i know i have problems and im trying to get better but u have problems too and u need to get help too. we have a long way to go before i can give u an answer. i know i can stay where i am as long as i need too and it wont be long until were closer. but u have to give me time please dont rush me . in the mean time all u have to do is prove to me that this time is different that this time is for good
love always me
dear you
u want me to give u an answer but its not that easy. i want to say yes but i cant. i want to say no but i cant.i love u and i cant deny that but ur hurt me and its a hutrt that will last a life time. u say u know uve been a cunt and an asshole to me and thats great that u finally realise that but its not enough for u too just say these things theyve all been said before. if i say yes to u i risk everything i have everything ive ever wanted and i dont know if its worth it. if i say yes i risk the relationship i have with my family i would lose any chance of ever coming back here and i dont know if i can. u have alot to prove to me and lilly and the baby and other people before i can decide. its not just me uve hurt. i know u l love me but uve said that before. i cant handle being hurt again i have to put my foot down at some point. i know i have problems and im trying to get better but u have problems too and u need to get help too. we have a long way to go before i can give u an answer. i know i can stay where i am as long as i need too and it wont be long until were closer. but u have to give me time please dont rush me . in the mean time all u have to do is prove to me that this time is different that this time is for good
love always me