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i always get my hopes up so high...
i always think i can do the undoable...
i always want more than i have...
and i always get shot down...
and i always get stupefied...
and i'm always so bipolar about things...
selfish.selfish.SELFISH.
this is the only thing i can tell myself to get over myself.
you don't matter, jessica.
UGH. stop being such a negative nancy.
so i've noticed that i always have these little breakdowns in the middle of the night when i can't call on anyone to help me feel better 'cause they're sleeping and wouldn't be conscious enough to listen to me..not that they'd want to anyway.
or is God telling me to call on Him instead of on other humans?
I JUST WANT SOMETHING MORE THAN THE BARE MINIMUM, MOM!
='(
i always think i can do the undoable...
i always want more than i have...
and i always get shot down...
and i always get stupefied...
and i'm always so bipolar about things...
selfish.selfish.SELFISH.
this is the only thing i can tell myself to get over myself.
you don't matter, jessica.
UGH. stop being such a negative nancy.
so i've noticed that i always have these little breakdowns in the middle of the night when i can't call on anyone to help me feel better 'cause they're sleeping and wouldn't be conscious enough to listen to me..not that they'd want to anyway.
or is God telling me to call on Him instead of on other humans?
I JUST WANT SOMETHING MORE THAN THE BARE MINIMUM, MOM!
='(