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Well, if my internet stopped acting all shitty I would most definently be updating more frequently. Well, what can I say. I'm going to visit Mike on the 7th through the 9th. I'm really happy. It's been awhile since I last got to see him and the last time I saw he doesn't really count considering it was only for a few hours. He wants to take me to all his hip and cool hang out spots which I suppose will be ok. I miss him so much sometimes. Just as long as he doesn't just keep saying word all the time. =P
Things with Jon are going well I suppose. I'm trying to relax more and I think that's turning into an overall success. Well at least in the fact that I don't always go off and tell him everytime something bothers me. I only half mask it when I want him to question me and know. I doubt he relizes how much I can hide if I really want to. I guess it seems kind of weird to try and be shy when in fact you desperately want to tell him everything on your mind. I guess I'm just a freak in that sense. One truly amazing thing about Jon is that he finnaly makes me relize my potential and how much I can actually get accomplished if I only make the effort to try. I almost got my room completely spotless. I got kind of bored and tired so I stopped for a bit. . . well. . . a few hours. >.< But at least I made a reall freakin' huge dent in it. I don't have that much more to take out. Only little things. I need a CD/DVD/Video Game holder. I just decided that because it's true. I must go and buy one from Bed Bath and Beyond tommorow after I cash my paycheck. I have lots of monies saved up too. That's more than I can say about Jon though. Instead of going home the past few days and working for his Dad for $10/hr he insists on pissing around outside of work, spending a few hours with me at the park. . . well that's not to terrible but he should have spent more dammit =P, and staying at work longer than needed AND going to a movie. He knows my displeasure though so I guess I can let it rest. Or I'll just stash it in my memory for the net time he has the nerve to bitch at me about not having any money to take me out on a date. You know in the time we have been dating he has never once taken me out on a date by his standards.
On a more different note, I'm a little apprehensive about going over to visit mike but only in the sense that I'm afraid I might not come home. In all honesty I'm getting so fed up with this shit. Between work and home I don't think I can take much more of this. I'm going to stay in his friends apartment and his friend kinda scares me a bit but what can I say? I'm easily intimidated. You guys can't even begin to fathom how much I have begun to look foward to this. I would be absolutely devastated if I couldn't go. This is the best thing that has happened to me in the longest time. I think it ranks right up there with meeting Jon, although he does seem to claim it was carefully calculated on his part and if James Miller hadn't pushed it he would have made his move. In some strange sick way though, I don't think it would have worked had it not been for James Miller. One thing I miss though is how when i first met Jon he was a different sort of person. More passionate and fun and a heck of a lot more carefree than he is now. It seems that in the short amount of time I've known him he's changed but not necesarily for the worst. I don't think I could deal with the fun, passionate Jon all the time. He was a piece of work that way.
I just wish i got to see him a bit more than I do. I should try to steal him away sometime in the near future for some fun filled activities. Luckily spring break is coming up soon so that should give me a little bit of room to work with. It will be most excellent.
Things with Jon are going well I suppose. I'm trying to relax more and I think that's turning into an overall success. Well at least in the fact that I don't always go off and tell him everytime something bothers me. I only half mask it when I want him to question me and know. I doubt he relizes how much I can hide if I really want to. I guess it seems kind of weird to try and be shy when in fact you desperately want to tell him everything on your mind. I guess I'm just a freak in that sense. One truly amazing thing about Jon is that he finnaly makes me relize my potential and how much I can actually get accomplished if I only make the effort to try. I almost got my room completely spotless. I got kind of bored and tired so I stopped for a bit. . . well. . . a few hours. >.< But at least I made a reall freakin' huge dent in it. I don't have that much more to take out. Only little things. I need a CD/DVD/Video Game holder. I just decided that because it's true. I must go and buy one from Bed Bath and Beyond tommorow after I cash my paycheck. I have lots of monies saved up too. That's more than I can say about Jon though. Instead of going home the past few days and working for his Dad for $10/hr he insists on pissing around outside of work, spending a few hours with me at the park. . . well that's not to terrible but he should have spent more dammit =P, and staying at work longer than needed AND going to a movie. He knows my displeasure though so I guess I can let it rest. Or I'll just stash it in my memory for the net time he has the nerve to bitch at me about not having any money to take me out on a date. You know in the time we have been dating he has never once taken me out on a date by his standards.
On a more different note, I'm a little apprehensive about going over to visit mike but only in the sense that I'm afraid I might not come home. In all honesty I'm getting so fed up with this shit. Between work and home I don't think I can take much more of this. I'm going to stay in his friends apartment and his friend kinda scares me a bit but what can I say? I'm easily intimidated. You guys can't even begin to fathom how much I have begun to look foward to this. I would be absolutely devastated if I couldn't go. This is the best thing that has happened to me in the longest time. I think it ranks right up there with meeting Jon, although he does seem to claim it was carefully calculated on his part and if James Miller hadn't pushed it he would have made his move. In some strange sick way though, I don't think it would have worked had it not been for James Miller. One thing I miss though is how when i first met Jon he was a different sort of person. More passionate and fun and a heck of a lot more carefree than he is now. It seems that in the short amount of time I've known him he's changed but not necesarily for the worst. I don't think I could deal with the fun, passionate Jon all the time. He was a piece of work that way.
I just wish i got to see him a bit more than I do. I should try to steal him away sometime in the near future for some fun filled activities. Luckily spring break is coming up soon so that should give me a little bit of room to work with. It will be most excellent.