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So things are finally slowing down again. My life has been such a series of ups and downs these past couple months. I feel like I live for my job...too much so at times. I've been holding my breath since August to get a full time SM job and now that I've finally got it, and gotten over the depression of it being a job SMing over a show I didn't want, I'm ok.
I worked this week at the show...it's Blue Horizons, the dolphin show. I've worked there before...I know the show like the back of my hand...but the issue is simply being there. The impending doom of at least a year stuck in this one venue. It was sad when my partner SM looked at me before a show and said "Well, this will be the 978th performance I'll be calling." OMG. Are you fucking kidding me? The same thing over and over? Now...I really want a touring SM job...that's my dream. And yes, it's the same show over and over, but I feel like the hassle of taking a show from venue to venue, meeting new people, dealing with all of that will break up the monotony of doing the same show. Plus it's going to be a huge show that will rock people's socks off. Like the Lion King, Wicked or Les Miserables. Something famous :) One day...
Luckily, with this new job, I'm getting a little more money too. I think, minus my monthly expenses and general day-to-day or surprise monetary expenses (eating, oil changes, clothing/toiletries), I can save about $800 a month. Which is awesome. Thanks to my amazing last paycheck (which was 80hrs of straight time, plus another 41hrs of time and a half...yay Christmas week hell), I've already saved $750 this month. I still have one more paycheck this month, so I'll probably be able to get a bit more than $800 this month. Woohoo! The faster I save, the faster I get on a touring show.
It's been frustrating lately. I feel like I don't have a best friend anymore. I'm not demoting my life long best friend, but I never see him anymore...and the last time I saw him, I felt like I was so preoccupied and just generally stressed out that I didn't get to connect with him for the short amount of time I saw him. My SeaWorld friends are close...but I can't just call them up and hang out and spill all of my innermost secrets and feelings to them. We're not like that. I've obviously lost touch with my Stetson crowd because I'm a putz. And my other "home friends"...the old high school group...well...how do I say this. I adore them. But...we don't see each other that often. And when we do see each other, they just want to sit on the living room sofa and watch anime. I'd rather go out...not even out to do something expensive. The movies are roughly $8...darts are about $5-10 if you get drinks, bowling is about $8...I don't know...something where we're not sitting there watching anime. I could even bring board games over and we could have a game night. FREE. I like anime...but in moderation. I hate being caught up on stuff...and I hate being shown an anime that someone else has seen and then try to explain that I don't like it. Like I hate the really childish ones...don't make me explain that any more than that, but my friend loves the cutsey kid animes and I don't. So she wants me to watch all of these and I hate them.
Bottom line to all of that is that I need someone. I need a best friend again. Hell, I need a boyfriend that is my best friend. Now where the hell do you find one? I don't know how/where to meet guys...if I go out to a club or something, I end up going with my SeaWorld friends. Within the group, there's too many guys--which prevents other guys from approaching the group. And there's a couple hott chicks...so when guys do approach, they're not coming after me. So I need something that I can do by myself. I wish I could do what Lisa did and find my guy in the shoe aisle trying on ugly shoes and make fun of him. It's cute. Sigh.
I think I've ranted long enough...I have to be at work at 8:30am tomorrow. Woohoo. And my New Years Resolution is to actually get up early enough in the morning to actually get a healthy breakfast and do my hair and makeup...not just throw my hair in a ponytail, run out the door, do my makeup while in traffic and grab a McDonald's mcgriddle on the way to work.
We'll see how long this lasts.
I worked this week at the show...it's Blue Horizons, the dolphin show. I've worked there before...I know the show like the back of my hand...but the issue is simply being there. The impending doom of at least a year stuck in this one venue. It was sad when my partner SM looked at me before a show and said "Well, this will be the 978th performance I'll be calling." OMG. Are you fucking kidding me? The same thing over and over? Now...I really want a touring SM job...that's my dream. And yes, it's the same show over and over, but I feel like the hassle of taking a show from venue to venue, meeting new people, dealing with all of that will break up the monotony of doing the same show. Plus it's going to be a huge show that will rock people's socks off. Like the Lion King, Wicked or Les Miserables. Something famous :) One day...
Luckily, with this new job, I'm getting a little more money too. I think, minus my monthly expenses and general day-to-day or surprise monetary expenses (eating, oil changes, clothing/toiletries), I can save about $800 a month. Which is awesome. Thanks to my amazing last paycheck (which was 80hrs of straight time, plus another 41hrs of time and a half...yay Christmas week hell), I've already saved $750 this month. I still have one more paycheck this month, so I'll probably be able to get a bit more than $800 this month. Woohoo! The faster I save, the faster I get on a touring show.
It's been frustrating lately. I feel like I don't have a best friend anymore. I'm not demoting my life long best friend, but I never see him anymore...and the last time I saw him, I felt like I was so preoccupied and just generally stressed out that I didn't get to connect with him for the short amount of time I saw him. My SeaWorld friends are close...but I can't just call them up and hang out and spill all of my innermost secrets and feelings to them. We're not like that. I've obviously lost touch with my Stetson crowd because I'm a putz. And my other "home friends"...the old high school group...well...how do I say this. I adore them. But...we don't see each other that often. And when we do see each other, they just want to sit on the living room sofa and watch anime. I'd rather go out...not even out to do something expensive. The movies are roughly $8...darts are about $5-10 if you get drinks, bowling is about $8...I don't know...something where we're not sitting there watching anime. I could even bring board games over and we could have a game night. FREE. I like anime...but in moderation. I hate being caught up on stuff...and I hate being shown an anime that someone else has seen and then try to explain that I don't like it. Like I hate the really childish ones...don't make me explain that any more than that, but my friend loves the cutsey kid animes and I don't. So she wants me to watch all of these and I hate them.
Bottom line to all of that is that I need someone. I need a best friend again. Hell, I need a boyfriend that is my best friend. Now where the hell do you find one? I don't know how/where to meet guys...if I go out to a club or something, I end up going with my SeaWorld friends. Within the group, there's too many guys--which prevents other guys from approaching the group. And there's a couple hott chicks...so when guys do approach, they're not coming after me. So I need something that I can do by myself. I wish I could do what Lisa did and find my guy in the shoe aisle trying on ugly shoes and make fun of him. It's cute. Sigh.
I think I've ranted long enough...I have to be at work at 8:30am tomorrow. Woohoo. And my New Years Resolution is to actually get up early enough in the morning to actually get a healthy breakfast and do my hair and makeup...not just throw my hair in a ponytail, run out the door, do my makeup while in traffic and grab a McDonald's mcgriddle on the way to work.
We'll see how long this lasts.