R.I.P. my dear fics~
Hello there,
first of all, I am sorry for my...unannounced hiatus. It wasn't planned and due to my computer problems. My old computer stopped working. I got a new one and my writing program crashed on it. I already thought of myself as a very lucky person by then, but my luck reached its peak as I deleted accidentally all my fics because my mouse has the tendency to jump to sudden places on the screen when I try to use it. I really love notepads! They work perfectly for me. Note the sarcasm?
To make matters short, the fics I wrote on for the past months/years are gone.
There were actually some I wrote on for a long time. A Ryopi Au I wrote on for a year and is now completely gone (I am not sure I will ever properly comprehend that it is really gone. This fic? Never!). Two other fics that were about 30 pages each are gone as well. In all honesty, I feel stupid for only saving them on my flash drive which doesn't have a recycle bin. I usually doesn't use it for anything else but these fics, but since my other flash drive doesn't work either anymore, I had to use it to transfer files from my old computer to my new one.
And before someone tells me, yes, I know files can be restored with certain programs. I used five of those and they did save some fics...but because I am such a lucky girl...only the ones I already posted. Don't ask me why, but that's how it happened.
Therefore I have been paralyzed for some time already and don't know how to start writing again.
There are now two possibilities how this drama ends. Either I get a grip on myself and start from scratch. I forget those written ideas (because I really can't rewrite them) and start anew. That's the first possibility.
Or I stop all together.
For now I don't know. It depends a lot on how much optimism I can build up.
I was a little shocked how emotionally attached I was to some words I wrote, since really, that is all this is. It's no human life, no draft to save the world nor something equally important, but I sobbed like a little child that had gotten lost in the zoo...or something like that. (Seriously, I prefer to humor myself than think back to the wreck I was).
Anyway, I wanted to let you know that I won't post anything soon...except maybe the fics I already sent to my beta and therefore still exist.
That would be a chapter of Lost heart (Does anyone still remember this fic?)
A Ryopi one-shot
A Kitafuji one-shot
And a one-shot I posted for the Anon kink meme. I could get that one as well.
Do you want any of this? Otherwise I won't bother^^
I hope you are all well? I kind of really miss you.
PS. I am a melodramatic person. Did you notice?
first of all, I am sorry for my...unannounced hiatus. It wasn't planned and due to my computer problems. My old computer stopped working. I got a new one and my writing program crashed on it. I already thought of myself as a very lucky person by then, but my luck reached its peak as I deleted accidentally all my fics because my mouse has the tendency to jump to sudden places on the screen when I try to use it. I really love notepads! They work perfectly for me. Note the sarcasm?
To make matters short, the fics I wrote on for the past months/years are gone.
There were actually some I wrote on for a long time. A Ryopi Au I wrote on for a year and is now completely gone (I am not sure I will ever properly comprehend that it is really gone. This fic? Never!). Two other fics that were about 30 pages each are gone as well. In all honesty, I feel stupid for only saving them on my flash drive which doesn't have a recycle bin. I usually doesn't use it for anything else but these fics, but since my other flash drive doesn't work either anymore, I had to use it to transfer files from my old computer to my new one.
And before someone tells me, yes, I know files can be restored with certain programs. I used five of those and they did save some fics...but because I am such a lucky girl...only the ones I already posted. Don't ask me why, but that's how it happened.
Therefore I have been paralyzed for some time already and don't know how to start writing again.
There are now two possibilities how this drama ends. Either I get a grip on myself and start from scratch. I forget those written ideas (because I really can't rewrite them) and start anew. That's the first possibility.
Or I stop all together.
For now I don't know. It depends a lot on how much optimism I can build up.
I was a little shocked how emotionally attached I was to some words I wrote, since really, that is all this is. It's no human life, no draft to save the world nor something equally important, but I sobbed like a little child that had gotten lost in the zoo...or something like that. (Seriously, I prefer to humor myself than think back to the wreck I was).
Anyway, I wanted to let you know that I won't post anything soon...except maybe the fics I already sent to my beta and therefore still exist.
That would be a chapter of Lost heart (Does anyone still remember this fic?)
A Ryopi one-shot
A Kitafuji one-shot
And a one-shot I posted for the Anon kink meme. I could get that one as well.
Do you want any of this? Otherwise I won't bother^^
I hope you are all well? I kind of really miss you.
PS. I am a melodramatic person. Did you notice?