Forbidden Love *Epilogue*
Title: Forbidden Love *Epilogue*
Author: yume16
Beta:
blursakana
Disclaimer: Wouldn't it be slavery, if people belonged to me? Scary.
Pairing(s): Ryopi
Summary: Pi and Ryo get to act in the same drama...
Rating: -Epilogue: NC-17, nothing explict though
- Complete Fanfic: NC-17
Author Notes: Oh my, I can't believe it...This is seriously the end.
The sunlight was shining through the curtains of their shared bedroom and Ryo stretched his arms over his head. It was a calm morning and they could stay in bed till the afternoon if they wanted. He rolled on his side and looked at his sleeping lover. The other still slept through the morning if not being woken up. That hadn’t changed over the years.
Gently, he pushed some of his black hair behind his ear. There were some grey strands in between the black ones’ and it made him smile.
He still remembered lively the day he had discovered the first grey hair in between his own hair. It had been such a shock and it had seriously freaked him out.
“AHHHHHHHHHHHH!”
“Ryo? What’s the matter?” Pi ran into the bathroom when he heard the sudden scream of his lover.
“Momo, look! Do you see this?”
“Ehhh…your hair?”
“Look closer!”
“I still don’t get it.” Pi looked closely at the other’s hair but there was nothing unusual.
“There is a grey hair!”
“…” Pi looked at him with an ‘are you serious look’
“Ryo-chan, this is not your first grey hair. I have seen some before.”
“Are you serious? Why didn’t you tell me about it?”
“Well, I didn’t think it was such a big deal…and I have them, too.”
“You do?” Immediately the other examined his lover’s hair.
“I can’t see any…”
“Of course not, because they are dyed.”
“I want prove!”
“Seriously?”
”Seriously!”
That was the reason why his lover for once had his natural hair colour and he could see some of his grey hair. It had taken some time for the colour to grow out, but he was satisfied with the result. Not only because he was not the only one with grey hair, but also because Pi looked really sexy with black hair. He wondered if he could convince him to keep it a little longer…Moreover, it had a nice length and he could easily tangle his fingers in it. Pi’s hair had always been one of his favourite toys, to the other’s annoyance.
There were some slight laugh lines around the other’s eyes and he was really proud of them. He had made it his mission to make the other smile and laugh as much as possible since more often than not, his lover had had a serious look in his eyes. Pi had sometimes called him a clown but he could live with that. It was definitely worth it.
Another memorable incident had been at Pi’s birthday. It had been is 30th and he had done his best to make it special for the other. Breakfast in bed, a massage, lunch in their favourite restaurant, a walk under the cherry blossoms and a small and calm dinner at home. All the time, they had shared little kisses and smiles. For the night he had planned something really, really special. Pi’s face when finding out had been priceless.
He had stretched out on the bed spreading his legs and Pi had sat speechlessly next to him for at least five minutes. Only very slowly the other had started to move and gotten out their lube.
“Are you sure Ryo-chan?”
“Yes, I am very sure.”
“But…”
“Momo, I wouldn’t do this if I wasn’t okay with it.”
The other had shifted nervously and reluctantly put some lube on his fingers. His hand had been shaking slightly when he had moved it between his legs. He on the other hand had tried to show the other a somewhat reassuring smile. A slick finger had prodded is entrance gently, before the other had suddenly pulled back, cleaned the lube off his fingers and hugged him tightly.
“Tomohisa?”
“I love you so much.”
Ryo chuckled and caressed gently the other’s nape.
“I love you, too. That’s why I want to give you a special birthday.”
“You already made this day very special…and I can’t believe what you would do for me, but I know you are not comfortable with it.”
“No, I…”
“Don’t lie to me!”
“…”
“The gesture is more than enough for me. I don’t feel like wanting to top you. You never made me feel uncomfortable or like you always dominated me. I just have to ask and you let me lead all I want. You even proposed to me to cuff you to the bed once…after I made a pinky promise with you that I wouldn’t hurt myself.”
“At that time, I actually expected you to make a move on my butt already.”
“That didn’t even cross my mind with all the possibilities to drive you crazy with lust. It doesn’t hurt my pride to bottom for you because of the way you treat me and I have come to really like it. Already after our first time, I loved the feeling of having you inside me. I like it and I know you don’t. Can’t we keep our roles?”
“You are not only doing this for me, are you?”
“Well, partly I am, but I didn’t lie just now either. I have my own way to take the lead. There is no need for me to be the top for that.”
“And I already feared I would have to bottom for you regularly now.”
“This means a lot to me, Ryo-chan, but no, you won’t.”
“You want to stay my cute sexy bottom?”
“Yeah, I want to be the one who gets pampered.”
“Pampered?”
“Make me go crazy tonight, make me black out because of pleasure.” Pi whispered hoarsely into his ear.
“I guess I can do that.” Ryo rolled on top of his lover and immediately nibbled at the other’s bottom lip asking for entrance.
He had been more than relieved when Pi had said he wanted to stay the bottom. It had taken weeks to prepare himself mentally to not freak out when the other would start preparing him. Moreover, it had cost him quite an effort to get himself to accept his idea. Deep down, he knew that Pi had mostly done it for him, but the other always showed him just how much he enjoyed it to be taken by him so he had given in. He had made clear though that the offer was still valid and Pi could ask him to be the bottom. He knew that love was about giving and taking and he would do a lot just to make the other happy.
But they not only had had happy times. There had been times when they had been close to giving up and the fight they had where Pi had punched him had not even been the worst. Or at least not the most painful and the other really knew how to throw punches he had to admit. He had smelled perfume on the other’s clothes several times and believed he cheated on him. Pi had gotten really mad and asked why he had no faith in him. They had called each other ugly names like in preschool and in the end Pi had punched him. He still didn’t know why the word had slipped out of his mouth. He had never thought of the other like that, but in the spurt of the moment he had called him a whore. Still now he regretted it. It had a big impact on the other and he hated how insecure Pi had been after it and sometimes still was. In that night the younger one had cried so much and he had felt like the biggest bastard in the whole wide world. It had taken a lot of begging and apologizing from his side to make the other forgive him. They didn’t find out for several weeks where the sweet woman scent came from till Pi caught a co-star of his hugging his jacket. She had been some crazy fan of his and they couldn’t believe that they had such a big argument because of something as trivial as this. He had learned his lesson nevertheless. It had not been the worst or most dangerous time for them though.
When they had gotten older and had already spent several years as a couple the reality had sunken in that they would never have children together. This had been a very critical time for them. Ryo had seen his lover stand in front of shops with baby clothes several times and when he couldn’t act like everything was okay anymore he had approached the topic.
Only then he had found out that the other actually blamed himself.
“If I was a woman…”
“Tomohisa…”
“No really, if I was a woman it would be no problem and we could have children.”
“You know that isn’t true.”
“Of course it is.”
“No, if you were a woman I still would be a Johnny and wouldn’t be allowed to have children.”
“But…”
“Moreover, our relationship wouldn’t even exist if you weren’t a man. Only because we are both men we met each other at Johnny’s Entertainment. And don’t forget, you are not only my lover but also my best friend.”
“I know…it’s just…even if we got the allowance to get children it wouldn’t be possible.”
“Tomohisa, I chose to be with you.”
“But will you be happy with this decision? No please, don’t answer now. I know what you would say, but think about it. I know you are a family-person. You love children and you once told me yourself you wanted to play with your son soccer. I can’t give you all that, neither can we adopt. We are happy now, but how will you feel when you see fathers play with their children? When you realize you want a wife that can give birth?”
After that talk their relationship had changed drastically. As much as he had tried to convince the other it seemed to be impossible. The idea that he would break up with him because they couldn’t have children had been fixed in the younger one’s head.
“I want to be able to give you children.”
They had drifted apart and the silence around them had been deafening. They had slept in the same bed, but there were no caresses nor kisses anymore. It wouldn’t even have made a difference if they had slept in two different rooms.
It had even gotten that far that they couldn’t take it anymore.
“I think I need a break.”
“Do you want me to leave?”
“I’m sorry, Ryo.”
He had gone to Jin and for the first time realized where Pi’s desperate thoughts had come from. Jin’s wife had been pregnant and Jin had been dotting on her like crazy. He remembered Pi visiting them some weeks ago and suddenly everything made awful lot sense. Months later he had seen Pi again and that in Jin’s flat and their best friend had even been the one to save their relationship.
Pi had been holding the fresh born baby in his arms and had avoided his eyes at all cost.
“I want you two to be the godparents of our baby.”
“What?” Pi looked shock at Jin and then down at the little bundle in his arms.
“Yeah, we need someone reliable and who loves children. You two are made for this job.”
For the first time in month their eyes had met from across the room and Pi felt how Jin took the baby from him and nudged him towards Ryo.
He still remembered how they had stared at each other for long minutes. Carefully taking in the other appearance, he had hated how Pi’s cheekbones had been much more visible and the other had looked at his messy hair and well, yeah he had to admit his clothes had been a mess, too. He had not felt the need to look good without his lover around.
“I still love you.” Pi had lowered his head by his words, but he needed the younger one to know.
“And I can’t live without you, at least not happily.”
That had been more than enough for him and he had pulled the other in for a kiss. Pi had wrapped his arms tightly around his neck and pressed his body flush against his. Even when their lungs had screamed for oxygen they had not stopped, only separating their lips for a few fleeting seconds before locking them again.
“Corrupting my baby-girl at such a young age, seriously…”
Jin had muttered in the background and only then they had realized that they were half sitting and half kneeing on the floor and they had eventually stopped kissing.
The rest of the evening had been nice and relaxed and Pi’s laugh had ringed his ears gentle and beautiful.
He had had to ask Jin though when Pi was gone for a few minutes.
“How did you know?”
“There is not much that could possibly tear you two apart and I saw it in his eyes when he visited.”
“Thank you. It means a lot to him to be a godparent.”
“Well, I’m just scared that you two will spoil her too much.”
“I can’t guarantee for anything.”
“Well, just don’t make her love you more than me, but you really own me.”
“I know, we always do.”
“Let’s just say when I am in trouble I want you to get over to where I am the second I call and save my ass. Even if you two are doing naughty things.” Jin waggled his eyebrows
“Careful Ryo, don’t promise things we can’t kept.” Pi said as he returned and let himself fall next to his lover.
“Hey!” Jin glared and made the other two laugh.
The following night he had entered their flat again. It had been strange to enter it and see that nothing had changed at all. Their pictures were still on the wall and even his plectrum was lying on the living room table as if he had just put it there some minutes ago. Pi had followed his gaze and blushed.
This night they had laid in bed together just looking and touching gently. He had moved his hand over Pi’s cheek and neck and the happiness he had felt had been strangely familiar and new at the same time and after waking up in the morning he had made sweet love to the other. Taking his time to discover every new aspect of the other’s body, every little change.
The second time it had gotten that critical had been some months after they had made up again. A photographer had managed to take a picture of them kissing. The next day it had been all over the media and the world around them had gone crazy. They had both been filled with dread and when their phone had rung and Ryo had answered with a shaking voice, they knew it could be the end for them. Johnny wanted to see them in his office.
Whatever their relationship was had to be ended and they had to deny everything on a press conference. That was what they had been told. Johnny hadn’t asked for any details neither had he left any room for discussion. The order was clear: They were supposed to break up.
They couldn’t talk; they couldn’t even look at each other. Uncomfortably, they had been shifting on their chairs. The press conference was right after their meeting with Johnny. It had been as if he had not wanted them to have the chance to communicate.
They had gotten bombarded with questions and their tongues had been numbed by fear, but he had suddenly realized something. He knew how life was with out his Momo by his side and he had to decide now what was more important: His career or his lover.
He had cleared his throat nervously and had immediately the attention of all the reporters. Before speaking up he had looked at his lover and smiled at him.
“Yamashita Tomohisa and I have been a couple since the romance drama we did together. That’s soon ten years ago and I still love him.”
Declaring his love in front of so many people had not been something he liked to do. Feelings only concerned the people feeling them and maybe close friends, but he had to do what needed to be done.
And if the flashes of the cameras’ hadn’t been already blinding, they had gotten even worse when Pi had slipped onto his lap and given him a short kiss.
What had saved them, had been the fans they still had from that one drama, which supported them as a couple and they hadn’t been young idols anymore. Johnny had been not amused though and been close to kicking them out, but after he had become several requests to let ‘Ryopi’ have their own TV show he had given in. Money was always good.
He thought it was pretty hilarious how he was now allowed to be lovey-dovey with Pi whenever he wanted and even in public. It was even expected of him! All the teasing he did when Pi could do nothing but blush, helped to create a pretty heated atmosphere later at home. The moments when Pi thought he had to punish him for being a tease, were the sweetest. Sweet torture and intimate love making afterwards, he seriously couldn’t complain.
But they also had their nice ‘fights’. He looked at the ring on his ring finger and smiled. It was the matching one he had gotten as a kid when he had bought one for Pi’s birthday. He still remembered how embarrassed Pi had gotten when receiving it. They had been kids and he didn’t know why he had gotten a ring of all things, but the other had worn it and he had felt incredible happy. When thinking of a matching item on their 5th anniversary Pi had brought them up again.
“How about the ring you got for my birthday? I know you got the matching one for yourself.”
“Huh? I can’t remember…”
“It’s already years ago. It might have been my 15th birthday. I don’t remember anymore.”
“OH! You mean that ring. Well yeah, I have the matching one, but…they are not special. They weren’t even very expensive…and they are silver. You prefer gold, don’t you?”
“Don’t be an idiot! Of course they are special! This is the first ring I ever received and didn’t you say when you gave it to me that it is big on propose so I can still wear it when I am older?”
“Uhm yeah…”
“Moreover, it’s a sign of our long friendship. Why not make it a sign of our love, too? And I don’t mind that it’s silver or not very fancy. It’s simple and I like it.”
”If it’s that special to you I can’t say anything. It still surprises me though that you still have it.”
“Of course I do. I believe I blushed to the roots of my hair when I got it and my sister teased me to no end, but I still wore it because it was from you. I might loose a lot of things, but the ones with a special meaning I keep safe.”
“Oh Tomohisa…”
They had not discussed it anymore and each of them had gotten their ring and put it on.
“As if you planned it.” Pi said as he saw how perfect it was fitting on his ring finger. Ryo’s ring was fitting as well.
“Well, I’m a genius.”
The other only snorted.
He took the hand of his lover on which he was wearing their ring. Turning the hand gently, the light of the sun reflected on it and created a white line on the ceiling.
“Playing around again?” Pi asked with closed eyes.
“Hmm, maybe a little? But mostly, I am just thinking.”
“About what?”
“About you…”
“Sap…” But the smile was evident in the other’s voice. “You just want sex…” Pi rolled on his side and pulled the blanket a little up.
Ryo grinned as he looked into the other’s now open eyes.
“Well, I would never say no to sex with you, but I was thinking about our past…”
“Oh you mean for example the incident, where you called all our friends because you thought I was missing and in reality I was just putting some things away in the guestroom and didn’t hear your calling because of my ear buds?”
“I purposely forgot about that incident.” Ryo said with a dry smile.
“But why? It was so cute.” The amusement was clear in the other’s voice and Ryo pulled a face when he saw the other’s broad grin.
“You are making fun of me…”
The younger one’s grin got only broader.
“Oh come on Ryo-chan, who gets that desperate just because he can’t find his lover for a few minutes.”
“I do! Because something could have happened to you.” Ryo looked defiant at him. Pi’s face softened and he crawled closer to the other, cuddling up to him and looking at him with puppy eyes.
“First you make fun of me and then you want to cuddle? Geez, seriously.” Ryo wrapped an arm around the other nevertheless.
“Well…” Pi started to kiss the other’s chest. “It was you who said you’ll pamper me on our day off. So…”
“Was that a hint?”
Pi chuckled and let a hand wander down Ryo’s chest and under the cover where it was covering his hip. Ryo breathed in sharply.
“It’s only a suggestion…I’m all yours…”
“You have really gotten naughty over the years.” Ryo said before flipping them over and leaning over the other.
“Well, I learned from the naughtiest person ever.”
“Hey! I am not naughty!”
“Open the drawer of your bedside table and we can talk again.”
Ryo smiled sheepishly when he remembered all the toys he had stored in there.
“Well…”
“Admit it and I’ll let you use some of them…but not the handcuffs. I want to touch you, too.”
“I’m the naughtiest person ever!”
Pi laughed happily when Ryo readily admitted it because of his proposal.
Ryo licked his lips in anticipation and didn’t mind at all that he had given in that easily. It was rare that Pi let him use some of his precious toys and his smile was worth it anyway. He leaned down and caught Pi’s lips in an intimate and passionate kiss and soon the room as filled with happy moans and sighs.
Note: *glomps you all* Okay sorry, but I'm pretty emotional at the moment. I just put the document on my computer with this fic in the file where I put all my finished stuff. I'm not only emotional, but bouncy, too^^. I hope it was good and sorry that I gave Jin a wife. I know that because of recent event it might be...difficult? I don't know how many Jin fans read this, but I had a wife for him in mind before he got married for real. I thought he suffered enough in my fic and deserved some happiness, so yeah...sorry about that.
Hugs to all my readers!
Author: yume16
Beta:
blursakana
Disclaimer: Wouldn't it be slavery, if people belonged to me? Scary.
Pairing(s): Ryopi
Summary: Pi and Ryo get to act in the same drama...
Rating: -Epilogue: NC-17, nothing explict though
- Complete Fanfic: NC-17
Author Notes: Oh my, I can't believe it...This is seriously the end.
The sunlight was shining through the curtains of their shared bedroom and Ryo stretched his arms over his head. It was a calm morning and they could stay in bed till the afternoon if they wanted. He rolled on his side and looked at his sleeping lover. The other still slept through the morning if not being woken up. That hadn’t changed over the years.
Gently, he pushed some of his black hair behind his ear. There were some grey strands in between the black ones’ and it made him smile.
He still remembered lively the day he had discovered the first grey hair in between his own hair. It had been such a shock and it had seriously freaked him out.
“AHHHHHHHHHHHH!”
“Ryo? What’s the matter?” Pi ran into the bathroom when he heard the sudden scream of his lover.
“Momo, look! Do you see this?”
“Ehhh…your hair?”
“Look closer!”
“I still don’t get it.” Pi looked closely at the other’s hair but there was nothing unusual.
“There is a grey hair!”
“…” Pi looked at him with an ‘are you serious look’
“Ryo-chan, this is not your first grey hair. I have seen some before.”
“Are you serious? Why didn’t you tell me about it?”
“Well, I didn’t think it was such a big deal…and I have them, too.”
“You do?” Immediately the other examined his lover’s hair.
“I can’t see any…”
“Of course not, because they are dyed.”
“I want prove!”
“Seriously?”
”Seriously!”
That was the reason why his lover for once had his natural hair colour and he could see some of his grey hair. It had taken some time for the colour to grow out, but he was satisfied with the result. Not only because he was not the only one with grey hair, but also because Pi looked really sexy with black hair. He wondered if he could convince him to keep it a little longer…Moreover, it had a nice length and he could easily tangle his fingers in it. Pi’s hair had always been one of his favourite toys, to the other’s annoyance.
There were some slight laugh lines around the other’s eyes and he was really proud of them. He had made it his mission to make the other smile and laugh as much as possible since more often than not, his lover had had a serious look in his eyes. Pi had sometimes called him a clown but he could live with that. It was definitely worth it.
Another memorable incident had been at Pi’s birthday. It had been is 30th and he had done his best to make it special for the other. Breakfast in bed, a massage, lunch in their favourite restaurant, a walk under the cherry blossoms and a small and calm dinner at home. All the time, they had shared little kisses and smiles. For the night he had planned something really, really special. Pi’s face when finding out had been priceless.
He had stretched out on the bed spreading his legs and Pi had sat speechlessly next to him for at least five minutes. Only very slowly the other had started to move and gotten out their lube.
“Are you sure Ryo-chan?”
“Yes, I am very sure.”
“But…”
“Momo, I wouldn’t do this if I wasn’t okay with it.”
The other had shifted nervously and reluctantly put some lube on his fingers. His hand had been shaking slightly when he had moved it between his legs. He on the other hand had tried to show the other a somewhat reassuring smile. A slick finger had prodded is entrance gently, before the other had suddenly pulled back, cleaned the lube off his fingers and hugged him tightly.
“Tomohisa?”
“I love you so much.”
Ryo chuckled and caressed gently the other’s nape.
“I love you, too. That’s why I want to give you a special birthday.”
“You already made this day very special…and I can’t believe what you would do for me, but I know you are not comfortable with it.”
“No, I…”
“Don’t lie to me!”
“…”
“The gesture is more than enough for me. I don’t feel like wanting to top you. You never made me feel uncomfortable or like you always dominated me. I just have to ask and you let me lead all I want. You even proposed to me to cuff you to the bed once…after I made a pinky promise with you that I wouldn’t hurt myself.”
“At that time, I actually expected you to make a move on my butt already.”
“That didn’t even cross my mind with all the possibilities to drive you crazy with lust. It doesn’t hurt my pride to bottom for you because of the way you treat me and I have come to really like it. Already after our first time, I loved the feeling of having you inside me. I like it and I know you don’t. Can’t we keep our roles?”
“You are not only doing this for me, are you?”
“Well, partly I am, but I didn’t lie just now either. I have my own way to take the lead. There is no need for me to be the top for that.”
“And I already feared I would have to bottom for you regularly now.”
“This means a lot to me, Ryo-chan, but no, you won’t.”
“You want to stay my cute sexy bottom?”
“Yeah, I want to be the one who gets pampered.”
“Pampered?”
“Make me go crazy tonight, make me black out because of pleasure.” Pi whispered hoarsely into his ear.
“I guess I can do that.” Ryo rolled on top of his lover and immediately nibbled at the other’s bottom lip asking for entrance.
He had been more than relieved when Pi had said he wanted to stay the bottom. It had taken weeks to prepare himself mentally to not freak out when the other would start preparing him. Moreover, it had cost him quite an effort to get himself to accept his idea. Deep down, he knew that Pi had mostly done it for him, but the other always showed him just how much he enjoyed it to be taken by him so he had given in. He had made clear though that the offer was still valid and Pi could ask him to be the bottom. He knew that love was about giving and taking and he would do a lot just to make the other happy.
But they not only had had happy times. There had been times when they had been close to giving up and the fight they had where Pi had punched him had not even been the worst. Or at least not the most painful and the other really knew how to throw punches he had to admit. He had smelled perfume on the other’s clothes several times and believed he cheated on him. Pi had gotten really mad and asked why he had no faith in him. They had called each other ugly names like in preschool and in the end Pi had punched him. He still didn’t know why the word had slipped out of his mouth. He had never thought of the other like that, but in the spurt of the moment he had called him a whore. Still now he regretted it. It had a big impact on the other and he hated how insecure Pi had been after it and sometimes still was. In that night the younger one had cried so much and he had felt like the biggest bastard in the whole wide world. It had taken a lot of begging and apologizing from his side to make the other forgive him. They didn’t find out for several weeks where the sweet woman scent came from till Pi caught a co-star of his hugging his jacket. She had been some crazy fan of his and they couldn’t believe that they had such a big argument because of something as trivial as this. He had learned his lesson nevertheless. It had not been the worst or most dangerous time for them though.
When they had gotten older and had already spent several years as a couple the reality had sunken in that they would never have children together. This had been a very critical time for them. Ryo had seen his lover stand in front of shops with baby clothes several times and when he couldn’t act like everything was okay anymore he had approached the topic.
Only then he had found out that the other actually blamed himself.
“If I was a woman…”
“Tomohisa…”
“No really, if I was a woman it would be no problem and we could have children.”
“You know that isn’t true.”
“Of course it is.”
“No, if you were a woman I still would be a Johnny and wouldn’t be allowed to have children.”
“But…”
“Moreover, our relationship wouldn’t even exist if you weren’t a man. Only because we are both men we met each other at Johnny’s Entertainment. And don’t forget, you are not only my lover but also my best friend.”
“I know…it’s just…even if we got the allowance to get children it wouldn’t be possible.”
“Tomohisa, I chose to be with you.”
“But will you be happy with this decision? No please, don’t answer now. I know what you would say, but think about it. I know you are a family-person. You love children and you once told me yourself you wanted to play with your son soccer. I can’t give you all that, neither can we adopt. We are happy now, but how will you feel when you see fathers play with their children? When you realize you want a wife that can give birth?”
After that talk their relationship had changed drastically. As much as he had tried to convince the other it seemed to be impossible. The idea that he would break up with him because they couldn’t have children had been fixed in the younger one’s head.
“I want to be able to give you children.”
They had drifted apart and the silence around them had been deafening. They had slept in the same bed, but there were no caresses nor kisses anymore. It wouldn’t even have made a difference if they had slept in two different rooms.
It had even gotten that far that they couldn’t take it anymore.
“I think I need a break.”
“Do you want me to leave?”
“I’m sorry, Ryo.”
He had gone to Jin and for the first time realized where Pi’s desperate thoughts had come from. Jin’s wife had been pregnant and Jin had been dotting on her like crazy. He remembered Pi visiting them some weeks ago and suddenly everything made awful lot sense. Months later he had seen Pi again and that in Jin’s flat and their best friend had even been the one to save their relationship.
Pi had been holding the fresh born baby in his arms and had avoided his eyes at all cost.
“I want you two to be the godparents of our baby.”
“What?” Pi looked shock at Jin and then down at the little bundle in his arms.
“Yeah, we need someone reliable and who loves children. You two are made for this job.”
For the first time in month their eyes had met from across the room and Pi felt how Jin took the baby from him and nudged him towards Ryo.
He still remembered how they had stared at each other for long minutes. Carefully taking in the other appearance, he had hated how Pi’s cheekbones had been much more visible and the other had looked at his messy hair and well, yeah he had to admit his clothes had been a mess, too. He had not felt the need to look good without his lover around.
“I still love you.” Pi had lowered his head by his words, but he needed the younger one to know.
“And I can’t live without you, at least not happily.”
That had been more than enough for him and he had pulled the other in for a kiss. Pi had wrapped his arms tightly around his neck and pressed his body flush against his. Even when their lungs had screamed for oxygen they had not stopped, only separating their lips for a few fleeting seconds before locking them again.
“Corrupting my baby-girl at such a young age, seriously…”
Jin had muttered in the background and only then they had realized that they were half sitting and half kneeing on the floor and they had eventually stopped kissing.
The rest of the evening had been nice and relaxed and Pi’s laugh had ringed his ears gentle and beautiful.
He had had to ask Jin though when Pi was gone for a few minutes.
“How did you know?”
“There is not much that could possibly tear you two apart and I saw it in his eyes when he visited.”
“Thank you. It means a lot to him to be a godparent.”
“Well, I’m just scared that you two will spoil her too much.”
“I can’t guarantee for anything.”
“Well, just don’t make her love you more than me, but you really own me.”
“I know, we always do.”
“Let’s just say when I am in trouble I want you to get over to where I am the second I call and save my ass. Even if you two are doing naughty things.” Jin waggled his eyebrows
“Careful Ryo, don’t promise things we can’t kept.” Pi said as he returned and let himself fall next to his lover.
“Hey!” Jin glared and made the other two laugh.
The following night he had entered their flat again. It had been strange to enter it and see that nothing had changed at all. Their pictures were still on the wall and even his plectrum was lying on the living room table as if he had just put it there some minutes ago. Pi had followed his gaze and blushed.
This night they had laid in bed together just looking and touching gently. He had moved his hand over Pi’s cheek and neck and the happiness he had felt had been strangely familiar and new at the same time and after waking up in the morning he had made sweet love to the other. Taking his time to discover every new aspect of the other’s body, every little change.
The second time it had gotten that critical had been some months after they had made up again. A photographer had managed to take a picture of them kissing. The next day it had been all over the media and the world around them had gone crazy. They had both been filled with dread and when their phone had rung and Ryo had answered with a shaking voice, they knew it could be the end for them. Johnny wanted to see them in his office.
Whatever their relationship was had to be ended and they had to deny everything on a press conference. That was what they had been told. Johnny hadn’t asked for any details neither had he left any room for discussion. The order was clear: They were supposed to break up.
They couldn’t talk; they couldn’t even look at each other. Uncomfortably, they had been shifting on their chairs. The press conference was right after their meeting with Johnny. It had been as if he had not wanted them to have the chance to communicate.
They had gotten bombarded with questions and their tongues had been numbed by fear, but he had suddenly realized something. He knew how life was with out his Momo by his side and he had to decide now what was more important: His career or his lover.
He had cleared his throat nervously and had immediately the attention of all the reporters. Before speaking up he had looked at his lover and smiled at him.
“Yamashita Tomohisa and I have been a couple since the romance drama we did together. That’s soon ten years ago and I still love him.”
Declaring his love in front of so many people had not been something he liked to do. Feelings only concerned the people feeling them and maybe close friends, but he had to do what needed to be done.
And if the flashes of the cameras’ hadn’t been already blinding, they had gotten even worse when Pi had slipped onto his lap and given him a short kiss.
What had saved them, had been the fans they still had from that one drama, which supported them as a couple and they hadn’t been young idols anymore. Johnny had been not amused though and been close to kicking them out, but after he had become several requests to let ‘Ryopi’ have their own TV show he had given in. Money was always good.
He thought it was pretty hilarious how he was now allowed to be lovey-dovey with Pi whenever he wanted and even in public. It was even expected of him! All the teasing he did when Pi could do nothing but blush, helped to create a pretty heated atmosphere later at home. The moments when Pi thought he had to punish him for being a tease, were the sweetest. Sweet torture and intimate love making afterwards, he seriously couldn’t complain.
But they also had their nice ‘fights’. He looked at the ring on his ring finger and smiled. It was the matching one he had gotten as a kid when he had bought one for Pi’s birthday. He still remembered how embarrassed Pi had gotten when receiving it. They had been kids and he didn’t know why he had gotten a ring of all things, but the other had worn it and he had felt incredible happy. When thinking of a matching item on their 5th anniversary Pi had brought them up again.
“How about the ring you got for my birthday? I know you got the matching one for yourself.”
“Huh? I can’t remember…”
“It’s already years ago. It might have been my 15th birthday. I don’t remember anymore.”
“OH! You mean that ring. Well yeah, I have the matching one, but…they are not special. They weren’t even very expensive…and they are silver. You prefer gold, don’t you?”
“Don’t be an idiot! Of course they are special! This is the first ring I ever received and didn’t you say when you gave it to me that it is big on propose so I can still wear it when I am older?”
“Uhm yeah…”
“Moreover, it’s a sign of our long friendship. Why not make it a sign of our love, too? And I don’t mind that it’s silver or not very fancy. It’s simple and I like it.”
”If it’s that special to you I can’t say anything. It still surprises me though that you still have it.”
“Of course I do. I believe I blushed to the roots of my hair when I got it and my sister teased me to no end, but I still wore it because it was from you. I might loose a lot of things, but the ones with a special meaning I keep safe.”
“Oh Tomohisa…”
They had not discussed it anymore and each of them had gotten their ring and put it on.
“As if you planned it.” Pi said as he saw how perfect it was fitting on his ring finger. Ryo’s ring was fitting as well.
“Well, I’m a genius.”
The other only snorted.
He took the hand of his lover on which he was wearing their ring. Turning the hand gently, the light of the sun reflected on it and created a white line on the ceiling.
“Playing around again?” Pi asked with closed eyes.
“Hmm, maybe a little? But mostly, I am just thinking.”
“About what?”
“About you…”
“Sap…” But the smile was evident in the other’s voice. “You just want sex…” Pi rolled on his side and pulled the blanket a little up.
Ryo grinned as he looked into the other’s now open eyes.
“Well, I would never say no to sex with you, but I was thinking about our past…”
“Oh you mean for example the incident, where you called all our friends because you thought I was missing and in reality I was just putting some things away in the guestroom and didn’t hear your calling because of my ear buds?”
“I purposely forgot about that incident.” Ryo said with a dry smile.
“But why? It was so cute.” The amusement was clear in the other’s voice and Ryo pulled a face when he saw the other’s broad grin.
“You are making fun of me…”
The younger one’s grin got only broader.
“Oh come on Ryo-chan, who gets that desperate just because he can’t find his lover for a few minutes.”
“I do! Because something could have happened to you.” Ryo looked defiant at him. Pi’s face softened and he crawled closer to the other, cuddling up to him and looking at him with puppy eyes.
“First you make fun of me and then you want to cuddle? Geez, seriously.” Ryo wrapped an arm around the other nevertheless.
“Well…” Pi started to kiss the other’s chest. “It was you who said you’ll pamper me on our day off. So…”
“Was that a hint?”
Pi chuckled and let a hand wander down Ryo’s chest and under the cover where it was covering his hip. Ryo breathed in sharply.
“It’s only a suggestion…I’m all yours…”
“You have really gotten naughty over the years.” Ryo said before flipping them over and leaning over the other.
“Well, I learned from the naughtiest person ever.”
“Hey! I am not naughty!”
“Open the drawer of your bedside table and we can talk again.”
Ryo smiled sheepishly when he remembered all the toys he had stored in there.
“Well…”
“Admit it and I’ll let you use some of them…but not the handcuffs. I want to touch you, too.”
“I’m the naughtiest person ever!”
Pi laughed happily when Ryo readily admitted it because of his proposal.
Ryo licked his lips in anticipation and didn’t mind at all that he had given in that easily. It was rare that Pi let him use some of his precious toys and his smile was worth it anyway. He leaned down and caught Pi’s lips in an intimate and passionate kiss and soon the room as filled with happy moans and sighs.
Note: *glomps you all* Okay sorry, but I'm pretty emotional at the moment. I just put the document on my computer with this fic in the file where I put all my finished stuff. I'm not only emotional, but bouncy, too^^. I hope it was good and sorry that I gave Jin a wife. I know that because of recent event it might be...difficult? I don't know how many Jin fans read this, but I had a wife for him in mind before he got married for real. I thought he suffered enough in my fic and deserved some happiness, so yeah...sorry about that.
Hugs to all my readers!