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I might, just for one moments, slip outside of my shell. Just to see the light. But I can't speak for what you'll see. I put on this protective coat almost seven years ago, and since then I don't know if anyone knows me. Not even myself. I know that I am a paradox of my own self-inflicted rules. I won't chance failure, can't admit I've lost. And won't risk my thus withstanding perfect record. In doing so I knowingly admit failure every time I see someone I like. Simply by not trying. Why? Because you can't say that I failed when I wasn't even trying. Anyone would know this to be only its own false-truth. That any conquest is won. And there is no such thing as an absolute. But rather a give and take. I, myself was raised to understand this concept. Yet, I still don't grasp the idea. I know a select group of things better than most. Those things that I have studied, that I have practiced. Love, Bussiness and War. Love is give and take, mutually beneficial. The evidence for that is in the kiss. If I kiss you and you kiss me, then we kissed. If you didn't kiss me, then I kissed you. GIVE AND TAKE. In bussiness, I work for two weeks and my employer pays me for it. GIVE AND TAKE. And in war to win ( to take) you must sacrifice some of your own people to the ravages of war( to give). I know these things to be true both in theory and practice. But in theory which I know far better, there is no risk. I kiss, you kiss. I work, you pay. I die, we win. Sales teaches us that to convince a person that the want something you simply tell them they want it. Sales negates the basic concept of free will, of chioce. In sales, theory works sometimes. In life, theory does still apply. But how? You can't force someone to love you by telling them they want to. And you can't kill your General and declare your own victory. Bussiness is the only one inforced by any higher official, But you still can't say "I worked" and get paid...
To stop for a moment and explain myself, that you understand my train of thought. There is a girl that I am slightly more than fond of. She has expressed a fondness for me. But I am very sure that her fondness is not to the level that I would hope for. You could say I'm barking up the wrong tree altogether. As such I practice much restraint around her. Past experience (Mandy, Megan, Shauna, Teny, Anna, Missy, Andrea ect ( All girls I would have dropped anything for at some point)) have taught me that surrendering is the only way to not admit defeat. ( I think thats a complete oxymoron myself) I guess, in all of this, I'm leading up to question that perplex's me for even asking it. But to remove doubt on the events that may take up some time in my life from here-in after. I'm may feel need to ask. Well, we've all heard it. "show me a man thats never failed And I'll show you a man that's never tried". I'm willing to admit to having never tried. So I pose this question to those that have tried and failed. Is it worth it? Cause honestly guys, I think I'm about to take a pretty big step here and actually try, But I have to admit, I already think I'm going to fail.
To stop for a moment and explain myself, that you understand my train of thought. There is a girl that I am slightly more than fond of. She has expressed a fondness for me. But I am very sure that her fondness is not to the level that I would hope for. You could say I'm barking up the wrong tree altogether. As such I practice much restraint around her. Past experience (Mandy, Megan, Shauna, Teny, Anna, Missy, Andrea ect ( All girls I would have dropped anything for at some point)) have taught me that surrendering is the only way to not admit defeat. ( I think thats a complete oxymoron myself) I guess, in all of this, I'm leading up to question that perplex's me for even asking it. But to remove doubt on the events that may take up some time in my life from here-in after. I'm may feel need to ask. Well, we've all heard it. "show me a man thats never failed And I'll show you a man that's never tried". I'm willing to admit to having never tried. So I pose this question to those that have tried and failed. Is it worth it? Cause honestly guys, I think I'm about to take a pretty big step here and actually try, But I have to admit, I already think I'm going to fail.