last heartbreak
last heartbreak | Kyuhyun/Ryeowook | G | Angst | drabble
A/N: I actually didn't want to post this lol :< I wrote this weeks ago when I was too depressed haha. Have some KyuWook :3
"Why do you have to do this," he asks, feeling the lump form in his throat. He clears his voice, as he tries to get the other's full attention. "Is there a problem?"
Ryeowook suppresses his tears, ignoring Kyuhyun's interrogation. He continues to pack his things, walks past the other back and forth, and finally, dares to look at him in the eye. "There is none. And yes, I have to do this."
Kyuhyun feels mixed emotions of hurt, frustration, and maybe, anger too. This is the first time he sees Ryeowook act this way, and worse, it has come to the extent of him leaving. He moves closer, stopping him from what he is doing. "You're not leaving."
"Kyuhyun," he sits on the bed, burying his head in his hands. "Everything is settled. I have talked to the president, to the manager, to Leeteuk hyung, and to everyone else."
"But me. You know, if this is about those batshit insane fans who keep bashing you when we're together, I swear I would tell them to stop. I would even--"
"Stop it. This is not about us, neither is it about those who bash me. Listen, I have to do this, and you have to understand that-"
"I will never understand."
"Will you please let me finish?" he raises his voice, feeling a little annoyed. "I have to stay with my family, they need me. I feel guilty for not being with them, especially when they most need me." His tries not to look at the younger, because he knows, his heart would break if he sees Kyuhyun cry.
Kyuhyun kneels in front of him, holding both of his hands. "I need you too." His voice is shaking now, and his tears are spilling on his cheeks, but still he continues to speak his heart out. "I know I'm being selfish, but you know how much you mean to me. You're my bestfriend, my other half. I don't know what to do without you here, I don't even know if I can last a day without seeing you."
"I love you so much, don't forget that." Ryeowook starts to cry, wiping the other's tears before his own. He rises from his seat, and goes back to packing his things.
"Hyung, is there nothing that I can do to make you stay?"
Ryeowook opts to stay silent, because he knows for himself, that the mere existence of Kyuhyun is enough to make him stay. But then again, he has to do this. Not for his own sake, but for everyone's.
I was planning to make a sequel for this but I'm too lazy okay so here's a ~bonus~ n___n
Kyuhyun's letter
January 25, 2011
6:21am
Days have passed and we haven't talked like we used to. Are you that busy? I miss you, hyung. I wonder if you feel the same, but I bet you do. You love me that much, don't you, hyung? Anyway, I'm losing weight because I don't want to eat what Sungmin-hyung cooks everyday. It's your fault if I get sick, so it is imperative that you come back and cook for me! Heechul-hyung mopes at night, he misses you so much (but not as much as I do). He asks me to stay at the upper dorm so he has someone to talk to, and someone to watch dramas with. Everytime we watch together, at first, we keep on commenting on what's happening, but after a few minutes, we both fall into melancholic silence, wishing you were with us, watching those dramas. Sungmin-hyung keeps on singing your song, he won't stop till Heechul-hyung yells at him! He doesn't say how much he misses you, but I can tell. You are Sungmin's favorite dongsaeng, aren't you? There are times that I just find him crying while holding a bottle of soju, murmuring to himself how much he misses you. Hyukjae-hyung and Donghae-hyung would go to him, and comfort him. We miss you here, hyung. When are you coming back? It will never be the same without you. Sometimes, when I don't catch you anywhere in the dorms, I think that you were just on a taping or rehearsal. At night, when you don't get home, I think that you just slept in a friend's house, and would return in the morning. And then, in the morning, if I still don't see you around, I think that you just went off too early for another taping or rehearsal. And then, I repeat thinking, over and over, it's a cycle. Seems tiring, doesn't it, hyung? But I won't get tired. I will wait for that day when you go back here, and I promise, on that day, I would be the first to welcome you at the door. I will hug you, as tightly as I could. That's a promise, hyung. But for now, all I can do is to send you messages till you get fed up. Hmm, are you eating well, hyung? You should put on some meat on your cheeks, okay? Send my regards as well to your parents! Hmm, I'm sleepy already, I'll end it here and hit the sack! Keep safe, hyung~ Saranghae~
P.S. You miss me calling you "hyung", don't you? ^^
A/N: I actually didn't want to post this lol :< I wrote this weeks ago when I was too depressed haha. Have some KyuWook :3
"Why do you have to do this," he asks, feeling the lump form in his throat. He clears his voice, as he tries to get the other's full attention. "Is there a problem?"
Ryeowook suppresses his tears, ignoring Kyuhyun's interrogation. He continues to pack his things, walks past the other back and forth, and finally, dares to look at him in the eye. "There is none. And yes, I have to do this."
Kyuhyun feels mixed emotions of hurt, frustration, and maybe, anger too. This is the first time he sees Ryeowook act this way, and worse, it has come to the extent of him leaving. He moves closer, stopping him from what he is doing. "You're not leaving."
"Kyuhyun," he sits on the bed, burying his head in his hands. "Everything is settled. I have talked to the president, to the manager, to Leeteuk hyung, and to everyone else."
"But me. You know, if this is about those batshit insane fans who keep bashing you when we're together, I swear I would tell them to stop. I would even--"
"Stop it. This is not about us, neither is it about those who bash me. Listen, I have to do this, and you have to understand that-"
"I will never understand."
"Will you please let me finish?" he raises his voice, feeling a little annoyed. "I have to stay with my family, they need me. I feel guilty for not being with them, especially when they most need me." His tries not to look at the younger, because he knows, his heart would break if he sees Kyuhyun cry.
Kyuhyun kneels in front of him, holding both of his hands. "I need you too." His voice is shaking now, and his tears are spilling on his cheeks, but still he continues to speak his heart out. "I know I'm being selfish, but you know how much you mean to me. You're my bestfriend, my other half. I don't know what to do without you here, I don't even know if I can last a day without seeing you."
"I love you so much, don't forget that." Ryeowook starts to cry, wiping the other's tears before his own. He rises from his seat, and goes back to packing his things.
"Hyung, is there nothing that I can do to make you stay?"
Ryeowook opts to stay silent, because he knows for himself, that the mere existence of Kyuhyun is enough to make him stay. But then again, he has to do this. Not for his own sake, but for everyone's.
I was planning to make a sequel for this but I'm too lazy okay so here's a ~bonus~ n___n
Kyuhyun's letter
January 25, 2011
6:21am
Days have passed and we haven't talked like we used to. Are you that busy? I miss you, hyung. I wonder if you feel the same, but I bet you do. You love me that much, don't you, hyung? Anyway, I'm losing weight because I don't want to eat what Sungmin-hyung cooks everyday. It's your fault if I get sick, so it is imperative that you come back and cook for me! Heechul-hyung mopes at night, he misses you so much (but not as much as I do). He asks me to stay at the upper dorm so he has someone to talk to, and someone to watch dramas with. Everytime we watch together, at first, we keep on commenting on what's happening, but after a few minutes, we both fall into melancholic silence, wishing you were with us, watching those dramas. Sungmin-hyung keeps on singing your song, he won't stop till Heechul-hyung yells at him! He doesn't say how much he misses you, but I can tell. You are Sungmin's favorite dongsaeng, aren't you? There are times that I just find him crying while holding a bottle of soju, murmuring to himself how much he misses you. Hyukjae-hyung and Donghae-hyung would go to him, and comfort him. We miss you here, hyung. When are you coming back? It will never be the same without you. Sometimes, when I don't catch you anywhere in the dorms, I think that you were just on a taping or rehearsal. At night, when you don't get home, I think that you just slept in a friend's house, and would return in the morning. And then, in the morning, if I still don't see you around, I think that you just went off too early for another taping or rehearsal. And then, I repeat thinking, over and over, it's a cycle. Seems tiring, doesn't it, hyung? But I won't get tired. I will wait for that day when you go back here, and I promise, on that day, I would be the first to welcome you at the door. I will hug you, as tightly as I could. That's a promise, hyung. But for now, all I can do is to send you messages till you get fed up. Hmm, are you eating well, hyung? You should put on some meat on your cheeks, okay? Send my regards as well to your parents! Hmm, I'm sleepy already, I'll end it here and hit the sack! Keep safe, hyung~ Saranghae~
P.S. You miss me calling you "hyung", don't you? ^^