If only.
I'm begining to feel like it's a one-sided thing.
I wanted to talk to him, and it's just that we've been talking so much that going online and not messaging to each other seems weird. As long as I can remember, we've been talking since mid-last year. Going online every night, we'd end up talking. Nothing much of personal stuff at times, but we just somehow "connected". I really don't know what's the word for it. I mean, sometimes, we don't talk but we just go like "blah" or just using the emoticons, but it continues. Usually if it was other people, no one could be bothered, but yeah, even I find it rather surprising.
I know I'm probably just a friend, just someone whom one can just talk to and be oneself. But to me, being oneself is just as important. Just be yourselve, and I'll gladly obliged. To me, somehow, the longer a time I spend with someone, getting to know someone, the greater impact the person has on me. I know if it was some other people who does that to me as well, I'm sure they'll be a big part of my life.
Everyone's coming back this Sunday. I've been telling myself, whatever happens happens. I believe in my past few posts I've been saying that I'll move on. And yes, I have. All I'd have to do now is to make sure that I'd actually say no when asked. Otherwise, I can of course pretend as though nothing has happened and nothing has changed.
I've got a feeling that the signs are misdirecting me. I've got a feeling that there might be a 90% chance that he doesn't feel the same way. But why is he doing what he's doing. Sometimes I do wonder if he does that to all his other friends. Many times you would've thought that it's a direct hint, but sometimes, it's really different. I really can't tell either.
I can say that I've made up my mind and at least I'm sure about what I'd prefer or want instead. But really, who doesn't want someone who can just cheer u up most of the time, be there for you, and asks how was your day. It's really the simple pleasures in life that gains the most understanding and appreciation.
But being me, I don't think I can ask for any more. I'm happy as it is. I really don't want anything to ruin it. The friendships that I've built with all the people, with everyone around me, I really don't want to risk it. I don't want to ruin something so special just because of my selfishness.
Uni's starting soon, and I remember saying that I cannot afford any distractions last year. Hopefully that'll be the same for this year as well.
If only everything is so simple, and known without the doubts.
(But hey, what's life without these questions)
Have a good night.
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"If a boy likes a girl whom he doesn't know, he'll get close to her and want's to know everything about her.
If a boy meets a girl whom he doesn't know, he'll talk to her to get to know her.
If the boy shares his story with the girl, he either likes the girl and wants her to be part of his story or he just wants her to share his story and not part of it."
...
I wanted to talk to him, and it's just that we've been talking so much that going online and not messaging to each other seems weird. As long as I can remember, we've been talking since mid-last year. Going online every night, we'd end up talking. Nothing much of personal stuff at times, but we just somehow "connected". I really don't know what's the word for it. I mean, sometimes, we don't talk but we just go like "blah" or just using the emoticons, but it continues. Usually if it was other people, no one could be bothered, but yeah, even I find it rather surprising.
I know I'm probably just a friend, just someone whom one can just talk to and be oneself. But to me, being oneself is just as important. Just be yourselve, and I'll gladly obliged. To me, somehow, the longer a time I spend with someone, getting to know someone, the greater impact the person has on me. I know if it was some other people who does that to me as well, I'm sure they'll be a big part of my life.
Everyone's coming back this Sunday. I've been telling myself, whatever happens happens. I believe in my past few posts I've been saying that I'll move on. And yes, I have. All I'd have to do now is to make sure that I'd actually say no when asked. Otherwise, I can of course pretend as though nothing has happened and nothing has changed.
I've got a feeling that the signs are misdirecting me. I've got a feeling that there might be a 90% chance that he doesn't feel the same way. But why is he doing what he's doing. Sometimes I do wonder if he does that to all his other friends. Many times you would've thought that it's a direct hint, but sometimes, it's really different. I really can't tell either.
I can say that I've made up my mind and at least I'm sure about what I'd prefer or want instead. But really, who doesn't want someone who can just cheer u up most of the time, be there for you, and asks how was your day. It's really the simple pleasures in life that gains the most understanding and appreciation.
But being me, I don't think I can ask for any more. I'm happy as it is. I really don't want anything to ruin it. The friendships that I've built with all the people, with everyone around me, I really don't want to risk it. I don't want to ruin something so special just because of my selfishness.
Uni's starting soon, and I remember saying that I cannot afford any distractions last year. Hopefully that'll be the same for this year as well.
If only everything is so simple, and known without the doubts.
(But hey, what's life without these questions)
Have a good night.
---
"If a boy likes a girl whom he doesn't know, he'll get close to her and want's to know everything about her.
If a boy meets a girl whom he doesn't know, he'll talk to her to get to know her.
If the boy shares his story with the girl, he either likes the girl and wants her to be part of his story or he just wants her to share his story and not part of it."
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