I have the best boyfriend in the world
Note: This is an open entry, because I want everyone to know, not just Terry.
I had to drive in and say this:
Terry made me a CD of all of the songs he knows how to play on the violin.
I cried when I opened it. Like, alot. Like, real crying.
I'm so fucking lucky.
I'm also such an idiot. What was I thinking, this past year, giving a rat's ass about shit that's all in the past, that's dead and buried and decayed, when I have the most precious gift of all right in front of me?! He's been patient, loving, and so, so understanding, and I definitely didn't earn it this year.
To quote: "The past is dead, and now...I have more important things to do."
The person who matters the most to me has been in front of me all along, when I needed him the most. The ones that weren't there are in the past. What matters is what is here and now. And, now, Terry is my present, and, I hope, my future.
And fuck all who stand in the way. Including myself. I'm done playing that game. No more selfish shit. No more idiotic shit. No more outsider-influenced shit. I'm through second-guessing and being doubtful and wondering senseless "what ifs".
When I look into his eyes, I see no doubt.
God, what an idiot I've been. I'm never, ever going to be that stupid again.
Terry, you are the best gift that anyone can ever have. And I'm lucky that you've chosen me.
I'm in, baby. I'm finally all in. No more bullshit.
I love you so much, Terry.
THANK YOU.
I had to drive in and say this:
Terry made me a CD of all of the songs he knows how to play on the violin.
I cried when I opened it. Like, alot. Like, real crying.
I'm so fucking lucky.
I'm also such an idiot. What was I thinking, this past year, giving a rat's ass about shit that's all in the past, that's dead and buried and decayed, when I have the most precious gift of all right in front of me?! He's been patient, loving, and so, so understanding, and I definitely didn't earn it this year.
To quote: "The past is dead, and now...I have more important things to do."
The person who matters the most to me has been in front of me all along, when I needed him the most. The ones that weren't there are in the past. What matters is what is here and now. And, now, Terry is my present, and, I hope, my future.
And fuck all who stand in the way. Including myself. I'm done playing that game. No more selfish shit. No more idiotic shit. No more outsider-influenced shit. I'm through second-guessing and being doubtful and wondering senseless "what ifs".
When I look into his eyes, I see no doubt.
God, what an idiot I've been. I'm never, ever going to be that stupid again.
Terry, you are the best gift that anyone can ever have. And I'm lucky that you've chosen me.
I'm in, baby. I'm finally all in. No more bullshit.
I love you so much, Terry.
THANK YOU.