Venting...wow...not ranting this time.
I keep thinking about him...and really...I shouldn't. He really isn't worth my time anymore. I think the fact that I do...is because it seems like unfinished business...and sooner or later hes going to think the saaame shit. The only reason he is not talking to me is because of his idiotic girlfriend. Before he wrote me that random text message out of bloody nowhere about how hes going to ignore me now...never once did it seem like he didn't like me, or my company. So, its not because its unrequited...ooor because I am weirdly obsessed with him and hes not or some shit. I think he really likes me and my company,and maybe probably wants it back(maybe he doesn't...I don't know whats going on in his head) but I know he did care about me, and felt strong feelings for me be it romantic or not.
So, it pisses me off that he would just throw that all away, and just ignore me like I am a complete piece of trash. I am not exactly sure what the fuck I did to deserve something so vile, and mean. But, I want to talk to him again...even if it is for him to tell me why hes acting like such a fucking jerk-off. And, that I still love him very much in every way possible, and I adore his company. It just...I guess I have crap luck...and, it just... I want to NOT think about him anymore because hes obviously not thinking about me, and it seems like he doesn't give two shits about me anymore, or something...ALL I know is that Dragons remind me of him, and other very very less attractive Asian men. XD Also, the game "Tales of Vesparia"...because it has Dragons in it, and the character Judith is a "Dragon Rider"...and I think that was my role in his life...or should be, or would be...I wish, I hope. I will always have hope and faith that he will talk to me again, and we can reconcile and be as thick as thieves once more