Am I selfish?
Alright, I don't want to sound like a bad person but I really want to gag myself on a spoon! Back when my mom wasdating Alex it was like I never heard about him until he did something selfish or stupid. Which happened alot, but not enough to pass my annoyance level enough to full rant about. Now that she broke up with him and has been going out with Mike it's like all she has time for is work and Mike. All I EVER hear is how he is so great, how he likes to do this or that, how he is different from Alex cause he does this... It's grating on my last nerve! When I almost killed myself with cleaner she just looked at me and laughed saying well that was a stupid thing to do, oh you'll never guess what Mike said! I've heard about how bad it can be for that and yes I think I burnt some of my lining in my throat from the fumes. I actually think I have a blister in my throat, it would explain the feeling that there is something lodged in my throat and why the one spot hurts SO DAMN BAD when my throat dries out and what not. I told mom and she actually looked sorta worried and told me that I should see our family doctor, but right then Mike called and she was like My Phone! Then she talked to Mike, went onto her love-struck cloud nine, and completely forgot about it. Then I was going to work on Sunday and mom stopped me right as I was walking out of the door and told me that she bought a house. It supposably has a tire swing and a tree big enough to build a tree house. When I asked her when do I get to see it, she was like Oh I already bought it, Mike went with me to look at it. And I looked at her and was like, Uhm...I kinda want to know where I'm gonna be living and how the house looks. It looked like it took her a moment to comprehend that I would want to see it and not just trust her judgement. It's not that I have a problem with Mike, it's that I have an issue with my mom! She's acting like she's trying to make up for lost time crom her divorce and trying to make him out to be like a great father figure to me. She even told me that Mike would be more than willing to try and act like a father for me if I ever needed on. Not in those exact words but that was the meaning. I am sorry, but if I haven't had a father in 20 years, I don't really see why I need one now?!! Am I just being selfish at the fact that my mom is happy or am I spoilt cause I'm just so used to my mom being single and having plenty of time to worry over me and my brother?