Taste of Perfection (GDYBaeRi)
“Ji Yong,” Seung Ri’s voice sounded from the other side of the wall, through the small gap between the door and the doorframe. His voice stopped my tears; calmed my heart. At the same time, it made me want to cry; to scream my heart out.
“You can come in, Ri,” I said softly and tried to smile for him.
He came into my room, a worried expression clear on his face. Just like me, he was attempting a cheery smile, but we were both failing at that.
“Are you feeling okay?” he asked and sat down on the edge of the bed. He was only inches away from me, yet it felt as if the whole world was keeping us apart.
I bowed my head, supposedly nodding, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t tell him that yes, I was feeling perfectly fine. I couldn’t tell him that yes, I was feeling much better with him by my side. I couldn’t tell him, simply because I would be lying.
“Ji Yong?” he called softly.
My lips twitched as I faked a smile. Sooner than I knew it, tears were streaming down my face again. Sooner than I could accept it, my heart was aching again. Sooner than I could let go, I was missing him again.
I heard Seung Ri gulp. I knew he was uncomfortable with how I was acting; with my tears; with the fact that even though I had him, I was still thinking of Young Bae.
I couldn’t thank Seung Ri enough for being my source of refuge when Young Bae disappeared. I couldn’t thank him enough for caring for me despite my heartaches. I couldn’t thank him enough for loving me, when he knew that the one I would willingly die for left ahead of me.
He was too kind-too thoughtful that I couldn’t bear to listen to my own thoughts. Young Bae had gone, and he had taken me under his wings. My world crashed upon me, and he raised me back up to the sky. I was losing my grip, but he would never let me go.
Who was I to depend on him? Who was I to deserve his care and affection? Who was I to say that I loved him, when my heart was still beating for someone else?
He crawled over to me and allowed me to rest my head on his lap.
“Seung Ri.”
“Ji Yong.”
“You know that I can’t love you as much as I did for Young Bae, right?”
“I know that very well.”
“Aren’t you… angry?”
“I love you too much to be angry. And I know that one day, as long as I wait, you’ll come to love me that same way.”
I stayed silent and closed my eyes. I tried to calm my heart and let the tears flow. I believed in Seung Ri’s words, but I knew it could never happen.
Comparisons are easily done once you’ve had a taste of perfection.
AN: I finally got to writing the requests. I'm so sorry it's late! Anyway, this is for xxdinojuliexx who requested for a GDYBaeRi fic, prompted by Katy Perry's Thinking of You.
I know it's really short, but I hope you liked it!
“You can come in, Ri,” I said softly and tried to smile for him.
He came into my room, a worried expression clear on his face. Just like me, he was attempting a cheery smile, but we were both failing at that.
“Are you feeling okay?” he asked and sat down on the edge of the bed. He was only inches away from me, yet it felt as if the whole world was keeping us apart.
I bowed my head, supposedly nodding, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t tell him that yes, I was feeling perfectly fine. I couldn’t tell him that yes, I was feeling much better with him by my side. I couldn’t tell him, simply because I would be lying.
“Ji Yong?” he called softly.
My lips twitched as I faked a smile. Sooner than I knew it, tears were streaming down my face again. Sooner than I could accept it, my heart was aching again. Sooner than I could let go, I was missing him again.
I heard Seung Ri gulp. I knew he was uncomfortable with how I was acting; with my tears; with the fact that even though I had him, I was still thinking of Young Bae.
I couldn’t thank Seung Ri enough for being my source of refuge when Young Bae disappeared. I couldn’t thank him enough for caring for me despite my heartaches. I couldn’t thank him enough for loving me, when he knew that the one I would willingly die for left ahead of me.
He was too kind-too thoughtful that I couldn’t bear to listen to my own thoughts. Young Bae had gone, and he had taken me under his wings. My world crashed upon me, and he raised me back up to the sky. I was losing my grip, but he would never let me go.
Who was I to depend on him? Who was I to deserve his care and affection? Who was I to say that I loved him, when my heart was still beating for someone else?
He crawled over to me and allowed me to rest my head on his lap.
“Seung Ri.”
“Ji Yong.”
“You know that I can’t love you as much as I did for Young Bae, right?”
“I know that very well.”
“Aren’t you… angry?”
“I love you too much to be angry. And I know that one day, as long as I wait, you’ll come to love me that same way.”
I stayed silent and closed my eyes. I tried to calm my heart and let the tears flow. I believed in Seung Ri’s words, but I knew it could never happen.
Comparisons are easily done once you’ve had a taste of perfection.
AN: I finally got to writing the requests. I'm so sorry it's late! Anyway, this is for xxdinojuliexx who requested for a GDYBaeRi fic, prompted by Katy Perry's Thinking of You.
I know it's really short, but I hope you liked it!