One-shot: Midnight Melodies { ReitaxRuki }
Title: Midnight Melodies
Author: yujira
Pairing: ReitaxRuki
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: I don't own anything but my imagination. *le sigh*
Summary:The tears that gathered in his orbs turned the world blurry and even darker. But he didn't need to see. Didn't need to carefully listen. It wasn't himself who was playing this broken melody. It were unspoken wishes his heart bled every night, forming the words that would not escape his sewed lips into fragile notes.
Comments: Wayy too Early birthday present for bloodwolfgirl :3 I hope... you like it... I love you... unf. >//>;;
Alright, first of all... I have a small request :3 If it doesn't bother you too much. Please, before starting to read, open a new tab with ---> this link <--- and it'll bring you to an album of a pianist called Ludovico Einaudi. Scroll down to the 12th song called '' The Planets'' and press play... and then you can start reading x'D It would mean a lot to me, since in my head, Ruki is playing this exact song... it'll give a nice atmosphere. <3 Sooo...
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The tears that gathered in his orbs turned the world blurry and even darker. But he didn't need to see. Didn't need to carefully listen. It wasn't himself who was playing this broken melody. It were unspoken wishes his heart bled every night, forming the words that would not escape his sewed lips into fragile notes. The brunette closed his eyes and lowered his head a little. No matter how much his hands began to hurt, how much his tired body screamed for sleep. He couldn't let go until the last drop of hidden emotions had seeped through his fingertips into the keys of the piano. And the fact that Reita was around hadn't helped a bit, like he had hoped to.
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Reita stood in the door way of Ruki's bed room, watching the back of his friend, the melody filling his ears and engulfing him like a sheet of loneliness. In a way, the melody seemed fragmentary yet complete. There was a fragility and insecurity filling the spaces between the notes, setting a feeling of fear and helplessness inside Reita's heart he couldn't fully grasp yet alone voice out. It felt like Ruki was spilling the feelings that were usually hidden inside the greatest depths of his soul onto the keyboard, inspiring such vulnerability into the lifeless object. The blond knew that he probably wasn't supposed to hear this, that Ruki might get mad when taking notice of the elder's presence. But he couldn't help it. Maybe there was an invisible string connecting him to the vocalist, because it sure felt like something was tugging him to get closer and closer. When he was hovering just above the short figure, his shadow casted over the white keys that had been illuminated with light from the full moon, making Ruki's play stop abruptly, ending the tune with a painful sound to both of their ears as he was taken by surprise. His hands slipped from the piano to rest on his lap, his head turned to look at the bassist, the silvery light tracing the outline of his face and hair that was rid of cosmetics and hair spray, brown bangs falling into his eyes which were filled with unshed tears.
''I...''
''I thought you were asleep.''
Reita blinked, inwardly sighing in relief because there was no anger to find in the younger's tone, still, he didn't quite sound like himself.
''I was. But... your playing woke me up. I probably wasn't supposed to hear this... I'm sorry. I was just so caught up in it that I couldn't stop myself.''
Ruki couldn't help but let a small smile form on his rosy lips at the sincere uncomfortableness Reita was showing by keeping his gaze on the dark floor while caressing the back of his neck with one hand. He rose from the seat, tugging on a blond strand of the bassist's fringe to gain his attention again before he turned his back to him, walking towards the window and leaning his crossed forearms onto the window sill.
''I guess it's ok for you to have heard it. I'm glad it wasn't anyone else, really...''
''So...''
''I haven't been getting much sleep lately. I don't know what's wrong with me but... I just can't come to rest.''
''Well, we've been noticing it. You've been a lot grumpier these past weeks.''
Not responding to the bassist's remark, Ruki only huffed disapprovingly before continuing to speak, gaze lost on the moon that was partially hidden by a cloud now.
''Well, how do you expect me to be, after weeks of sleepless nights? Sometimes, I play the piano until it's time for me to get ready for practice. And it's always the same notes that I play... night after night.''
Reita frowned as Ruki's voice died down to a mere whisper towards the end. Taking a few silent steps, he took position beside the brunette, looking into Ruki's eyes while said vocalist didn't detach his gaze from the enlightened sky.
''But why... ''
''I don't... don't understand myself. It doesn't feel like it's me, playing. It feels like someone, something, is pushing my back, leading me to the piano, taking my hands, moving them to glide over the keys. I never think when I play those notes, I simply play. The next morning, I cannot even remember them and yet, once everything is swallowed by darkness, the notes are back to fill the apartment's silence.''
''...There was such sadness accompanying the tune, you know.''
''H-huh?''
''It did pull at my heartstrings. It felt like you were showing something that you keep hidden during the day, when spending time with us... There was a new, a vulnerable Takanori in front of me. You looked so sad when our eyes met. As if your heart was cryi-''
''That's not true.''
''... Is it really?''
Reita's hand reached out to erase the single tear that was sliding down Ruki's slightly pink cheeks but before he could come in contact with the soft skin, the vocalist stepped back from the window sill, turning his back to Reita yet again while quickly wiping the liquid away with the back of his hand.
''Maybe I shouldn't have asked for you to stay over night.''
''Maybe that wish only confirmed that you're tired of being lonely.''
Maybe that's why you've come along.
''Well, may~be you're being delusional.''
''And I think that maybe, you thought that my presence would calm you and make it able for you to sleep.''
To show me it's not always bad.
The blond knew he was right because of the way Ruki's trembling shoulders were suddenly tensing, wounding his arms around his small torso as if trying to hoist up another wall between him and his bandmate.
''What are you afraid of? Of the loss of control? Of being hurt and left alone again? Because-''
But I'm scared to.
''Out.'' Let go.
''Make me.''
A shaky sigh reached the brunette's lips and escaped into the dark living room. At the sound of footsteps nearing, his knees suddenly gave out, making him slide to the floor, still hugging himself.
I cannot take the pain again.
''Please just... you're only making it wors-''
And Ruki forgot to breathe when there was Reita front pressed against the back of his, his chin resting on the vocalist's shoulder, bleached streaks tickling the tender skin of his neck and collarbone. Reita added a second pair of arms to wound around Ruki, taking the smaller cold hands into his own.
''The way you look at me. I want you so much. The way you lean into me and toy with my hair whenever we hug. I need you so much. The way I'm the only one who gets to hold your hands to calm you down when nervosity is eating you away before a live. I want you so much. The way you want me next to you, whether it's during a meeting, a drive in the car and countless of other things. I need you so much. Maybe you didn't notice... but I sure did.''
The brunette was unchained from both pairs of arms, Reita didn't let go of him but put his warm palms on top of Ruki's frantic heartbeat that hit his ribs with full force. The vocalist tried to relax yet hide the different sensations he felt, the warmth of Reita's body and the even hotter breath against his neck making all nerve endings tingle.
''Open your heart Ruki. And listen to your wishes. What is it that you want?''
''Reita, you don't... all of you. You don't know me. Don't know about the mess inside-''
''We know the Ruki who always stays to his beliefs, walking this dream with us, no matter the circumstances or criticism. The one who you're not allowed to disturb when he's working on new lyrics, unless you want to get stabbed. The one who'll choose one of us as his victim every weekend to go shopping and hold this sea of bags. The one who'll always make you feel comfortable and special when visiting him.''
Reita's lips moved to press a chaste kiss on Ruki's flushed cheek, satisfied with the gasp for breath he earned as a response. He then traced the younger's jawline for a few moments before continuing to speak.
''Even if Ruki's lyrics are about heartbreak and abortive relationships. But I will prove you wrong. I know that Takanori does want to believe that true love exists out there. That it'll find him someday. And maybe it did already...''
Suddenly they were both on their feet again, the elder simply lifting the other with him and Ruki turned around to finally meet the the blond's gaze. A full smile was adorning his face, yet he took two steps backwards to create a comfortable distance for him again. But Reita didn't feel offended in the slightest. He knew Ruki well enough to know what he was trying so say.
I'm really happy but...
It's okay.
''I'm tired Aki.''
''Just forget about taking the couch again.''
With that he took a hold of Ruki's arm and led him to his bed room. The two lied down, Reita covering them both with the white blanket and Ruki moved closer to the bassist but without letting their bodies touch. The blond's arm reached out to brush a few wisps of brown hair out of the other's face, smiling softly when Ruki suddenly grabbed his hand to place it between his cheek and the pillow he was lying on. Both of his hand were lightly holding his wrist while a shy smile found its way to his features again.
''This is okay... right?''
Reita almost snorted at the pure innocence radiating from the short man and he nodded, humming contentedly.
''Whatever you're comfortable with. But you should go to sleep now.''
Believe in me, my love.
''Hnnn. Good night then.''
''Good night.''
But as Ruki's eyes closed and hours of peaceful sleeping passed, their distance didn't grow but was erased as Reita stayed awake to watch the sleeping Ruki inch closer and closer until he had his arm wrapped around Reita's hip, face resting against the clothed chest to which the other gladly responded by kissing the top of his head and moving his own arm to circle around the vocalist's shoulders.
END
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.A/N: Eh first of all. I'm sorry but I couldn't find the song with an embed code and I didn't want to link you to YT since, well you never know if a song might be blocked in other countries than yours -__-. Sooo... huh... I know this is too early and all... but I really don't know how I'll feel in two weeks so since my mood has been kind of okay, I wanted to make something for you.♥ Before I fall into an angst mood and write CD again >___>;; and when that image of Ruki playing the piano in the middle of the night popped into my head, I just had to try to make something with it... though yeah, I've read so many threads with people telling Ruki can play a bit piano, others saying nooo he doesn't, well fuck it, in my fiction he does and that's it. xD And the song doesn't sound über pro or anything... so it fits him imo. Also this turned out to be very innocent huh? But Ruki's insecure and I didn't want them to just start making out...
Anyway... hun your excitement and comforting words in your message (and the tumblr post! *squeals*) made me really happy and also encouraged me to finish this. I just hope it's decent enough. Just know that I love you VERY VERY MUCH and am super glad to have met you here. <33 I actually wanted to do something real fluffy... but I should just give up on that I guess. xDD Be sure to receive some huge vent later because I guess I really need to just let everything out that's inside me. Even if I'm still a bit afraid, I think I won't be able to move on if I keep shutting it away. I'm happy you're willing to listen to anything, no matter how stupid it might be. So thank you. Really. Hope I can finally get into a more cheerful mood again... and maybe finally catch up with all my fav stories and comments and replies. Oh man, I'm embarrassed at how lethargic I'm being. >///>
Unf and I'm still so freaking jealous of your birth date. =.= While mine is 4 days before U-sama's and just ONE FUCKIN' DAY after Reno ( the two slut shorts gods lol <33) you get to share with Takeru ;^; And my mom with Kamijo... I mean... OTL lol whatever. Lucky bitches. (¬_¬).
Ah! And I used a few lyrics of Jem's ' Falling For You ' in this story. So yeah, I own them just as much as Ruki's and Reita's asses >__>.
This got too long. I'm sorry. Comments are ♥ as always. Thanks for reading. *hands a cookie* past 3 am... *goes to sleep*
Author: yujira
Pairing: ReitaxRuki
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: I don't own anything but my imagination. *le sigh*
Summary:The tears that gathered in his orbs turned the world blurry and even darker. But he didn't need to see. Didn't need to carefully listen. It wasn't himself who was playing this broken melody. It were unspoken wishes his heart bled every night, forming the words that would not escape his sewed lips into fragile notes.
Comments: Wayy too Early birthday present for bloodwolfgirl :3 I hope... you like it... I love you... unf. >//>;;
Alright, first of all... I have a small request :3 If it doesn't bother you too much. Please, before starting to read, open a new tab with ---> this link <--- and it'll bring you to an album of a pianist called Ludovico Einaudi. Scroll down to the 12th song called '' The Planets'' and press play... and then you can start reading x'D It would mean a lot to me, since in my head, Ruki is playing this exact song... it'll give a nice atmosphere. <3 Sooo...
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The tears that gathered in his orbs turned the world blurry and even darker. But he didn't need to see. Didn't need to carefully listen. It wasn't himself who was playing this broken melody. It were unspoken wishes his heart bled every night, forming the words that would not escape his sewed lips into fragile notes. The brunette closed his eyes and lowered his head a little. No matter how much his hands began to hurt, how much his tired body screamed for sleep. He couldn't let go until the last drop of hidden emotions had seeped through his fingertips into the keys of the piano. And the fact that Reita was around hadn't helped a bit, like he had hoped to.
.
.
.
Reita stood in the door way of Ruki's bed room, watching the back of his friend, the melody filling his ears and engulfing him like a sheet of loneliness. In a way, the melody seemed fragmentary yet complete. There was a fragility and insecurity filling the spaces between the notes, setting a feeling of fear and helplessness inside Reita's heart he couldn't fully grasp yet alone voice out. It felt like Ruki was spilling the feelings that were usually hidden inside the greatest depths of his soul onto the keyboard, inspiring such vulnerability into the lifeless object. The blond knew that he probably wasn't supposed to hear this, that Ruki might get mad when taking notice of the elder's presence. But he couldn't help it. Maybe there was an invisible string connecting him to the vocalist, because it sure felt like something was tugging him to get closer and closer. When he was hovering just above the short figure, his shadow casted over the white keys that had been illuminated with light from the full moon, making Ruki's play stop abruptly, ending the tune with a painful sound to both of their ears as he was taken by surprise. His hands slipped from the piano to rest on his lap, his head turned to look at the bassist, the silvery light tracing the outline of his face and hair that was rid of cosmetics and hair spray, brown bangs falling into his eyes which were filled with unshed tears.
''I...''
''I thought you were asleep.''
Reita blinked, inwardly sighing in relief because there was no anger to find in the younger's tone, still, he didn't quite sound like himself.
''I was. But... your playing woke me up. I probably wasn't supposed to hear this... I'm sorry. I was just so caught up in it that I couldn't stop myself.''
Ruki couldn't help but let a small smile form on his rosy lips at the sincere uncomfortableness Reita was showing by keeping his gaze on the dark floor while caressing the back of his neck with one hand. He rose from the seat, tugging on a blond strand of the bassist's fringe to gain his attention again before he turned his back to him, walking towards the window and leaning his crossed forearms onto the window sill.
''I guess it's ok for you to have heard it. I'm glad it wasn't anyone else, really...''
''So...''
''I haven't been getting much sleep lately. I don't know what's wrong with me but... I just can't come to rest.''
''Well, we've been noticing it. You've been a lot grumpier these past weeks.''
Not responding to the bassist's remark, Ruki only huffed disapprovingly before continuing to speak, gaze lost on the moon that was partially hidden by a cloud now.
''Well, how do you expect me to be, after weeks of sleepless nights? Sometimes, I play the piano until it's time for me to get ready for practice. And it's always the same notes that I play... night after night.''
Reita frowned as Ruki's voice died down to a mere whisper towards the end. Taking a few silent steps, he took position beside the brunette, looking into Ruki's eyes while said vocalist didn't detach his gaze from the enlightened sky.
''But why... ''
''I don't... don't understand myself. It doesn't feel like it's me, playing. It feels like someone, something, is pushing my back, leading me to the piano, taking my hands, moving them to glide over the keys. I never think when I play those notes, I simply play. The next morning, I cannot even remember them and yet, once everything is swallowed by darkness, the notes are back to fill the apartment's silence.''
''...There was such sadness accompanying the tune, you know.''
''H-huh?''
''It did pull at my heartstrings. It felt like you were showing something that you keep hidden during the day, when spending time with us... There was a new, a vulnerable Takanori in front of me. You looked so sad when our eyes met. As if your heart was cryi-''
''That's not true.''
''... Is it really?''
Reita's hand reached out to erase the single tear that was sliding down Ruki's slightly pink cheeks but before he could come in contact with the soft skin, the vocalist stepped back from the window sill, turning his back to Reita yet again while quickly wiping the liquid away with the back of his hand.
''Maybe I shouldn't have asked for you to stay over night.''
''Maybe that wish only confirmed that you're tired of being lonely.''
Maybe that's why you've come along.
''Well, may~be you're being delusional.''
''And I think that maybe, you thought that my presence would calm you and make it able for you to sleep.''
To show me it's not always bad.
The blond knew he was right because of the way Ruki's trembling shoulders were suddenly tensing, wounding his arms around his small torso as if trying to hoist up another wall between him and his bandmate.
''What are you afraid of? Of the loss of control? Of being hurt and left alone again? Because-''
But I'm scared to.
''Out.'' Let go.
''Make me.''
A shaky sigh reached the brunette's lips and escaped into the dark living room. At the sound of footsteps nearing, his knees suddenly gave out, making him slide to the floor, still hugging himself.
I cannot take the pain again.
''Please just... you're only making it wors-''
And Ruki forgot to breathe when there was Reita front pressed against the back of his, his chin resting on the vocalist's shoulder, bleached streaks tickling the tender skin of his neck and collarbone. Reita added a second pair of arms to wound around Ruki, taking the smaller cold hands into his own.
''The way you look at me. I want you so much. The way you lean into me and toy with my hair whenever we hug. I need you so much. The way I'm the only one who gets to hold your hands to calm you down when nervosity is eating you away before a live. I want you so much. The way you want me next to you, whether it's during a meeting, a drive in the car and countless of other things. I need you so much. Maybe you didn't notice... but I sure did.''
The brunette was unchained from both pairs of arms, Reita didn't let go of him but put his warm palms on top of Ruki's frantic heartbeat that hit his ribs with full force. The vocalist tried to relax yet hide the different sensations he felt, the warmth of Reita's body and the even hotter breath against his neck making all nerve endings tingle.
''Open your heart Ruki. And listen to your wishes. What is it that you want?''
''Reita, you don't... all of you. You don't know me. Don't know about the mess inside-''
''We know the Ruki who always stays to his beliefs, walking this dream with us, no matter the circumstances or criticism. The one who you're not allowed to disturb when he's working on new lyrics, unless you want to get stabbed. The one who'll choose one of us as his victim every weekend to go shopping and hold this sea of bags. The one who'll always make you feel comfortable and special when visiting him.''
Reita's lips moved to press a chaste kiss on Ruki's flushed cheek, satisfied with the gasp for breath he earned as a response. He then traced the younger's jawline for a few moments before continuing to speak.
''Even if Ruki's lyrics are about heartbreak and abortive relationships. But I will prove you wrong. I know that Takanori does want to believe that true love exists out there. That it'll find him someday. And maybe it did already...''
Suddenly they were both on their feet again, the elder simply lifting the other with him and Ruki turned around to finally meet the the blond's gaze. A full smile was adorning his face, yet he took two steps backwards to create a comfortable distance for him again. But Reita didn't feel offended in the slightest. He knew Ruki well enough to know what he was trying so say.
I'm really happy but...
It's okay.
''I'm tired Aki.''
''Just forget about taking the couch again.''
With that he took a hold of Ruki's arm and led him to his bed room. The two lied down, Reita covering them both with the white blanket and Ruki moved closer to the bassist but without letting their bodies touch. The blond's arm reached out to brush a few wisps of brown hair out of the other's face, smiling softly when Ruki suddenly grabbed his hand to place it between his cheek and the pillow he was lying on. Both of his hand were lightly holding his wrist while a shy smile found its way to his features again.
''This is okay... right?''
Reita almost snorted at the pure innocence radiating from the short man and he nodded, humming contentedly.
''Whatever you're comfortable with. But you should go to sleep now.''
Believe in me, my love.
''Hnnn. Good night then.''
''Good night.''
But as Ruki's eyes closed and hours of peaceful sleeping passed, their distance didn't grow but was erased as Reita stayed awake to watch the sleeping Ruki inch closer and closer until he had his arm wrapped around Reita's hip, face resting against the clothed chest to which the other gladly responded by kissing the top of his head and moving his own arm to circle around the vocalist's shoulders.
END
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.A/N: Eh first of all. I'm sorry but I couldn't find the song with an embed code and I didn't want to link you to YT since, well you never know if a song might be blocked in other countries than yours -__-. Sooo... huh... I know this is too early and all... but I really don't know how I'll feel in two weeks so since my mood has been kind of okay, I wanted to make something for you.♥ Before I fall into an angst mood and write CD again >___>;; and when that image of Ruki playing the piano in the middle of the night popped into my head, I just had to try to make something with it... though yeah, I've read so many threads with people telling Ruki can play a bit piano, others saying nooo he doesn't, well fuck it, in my fiction he does and that's it. xD And the song doesn't sound über pro or anything... so it fits him imo. Also this turned out to be very innocent huh? But Ruki's insecure and I didn't want them to just start making out...
Anyway... hun your excitement and comforting words in your message (and the tumblr post! *squeals*) made me really happy and also encouraged me to finish this. I just hope it's decent enough. Just know that I love you VERY VERY MUCH and am super glad to have met you here. <33 I actually wanted to do something real fluffy... but I should just give up on that I guess. xDD Be sure to receive some huge vent later because I guess I really need to just let everything out that's inside me. Even if I'm still a bit afraid, I think I won't be able to move on if I keep shutting it away. I'm happy you're willing to listen to anything, no matter how stupid it might be. So thank you. Really. Hope I can finally get into a more cheerful mood again... and maybe finally catch up with all my fav stories and comments and replies. Oh man, I'm embarrassed at how lethargic I'm being. >///>
Unf and I'm still so freaking jealous of your birth date. =.= While mine is 4 days before U-sama's and just ONE FUCKIN' DAY after Reno ( the two slut shorts gods lol <33) you get to share with Takeru ;^; And my mom with Kamijo... I mean... OTL lol whatever. Lucky bitches. (¬_¬).
Ah! And I used a few lyrics of Jem's ' Falling For You ' in this story. So yeah, I own them just as much as Ruki's and Reita's asses >__>.
This got too long. I'm sorry. Comments are ♥ as always. Thanks for reading. *hands a cookie* past 3 am... *goes to sleep*