I live.
Yes.
It is me.
I know you missed me.
Right.
My name is Amanda Gonzalez. Over the summer I was severly depressed. I was dealing with the end of of a horrible relationship with the world's most selfish man. I had been on several interviews (15) and rejected from all of them. I was becoming a silent burden to my brother and future sister-in-law (they got engaged). I began working at Target and I could quietly see myself there for a very long time. I stopped applying to places knowing I wasn't going to get it anyway. I cried myself to sleep almost every night.
Then, I got a phone call from Shannon Cunningham, letting me know of a position in Norwich teaching general music.
I went on the interview, knowing full well nothing would come of it. Well, not even an hour later from that interview I was called, and offered the job. It was a thursday. I quit Target the next day. That night (Friday) I researched apartments, Saturday I looked at a few places and bought an apartment that evening. Sunday I moved in, and that Monday I began two days of professional development. I began teaching that Wednesday.
All of that happened in a blink of an eye. Now it's a month later, and I'm so happy I think I could burst. For the first time in my life I feel like I am in the right place at the right time. I don't think I thank God enough and owe him a long talking to. I was born to teach. I love every second of it. I have lots of gray hairs already, but I can deal.
My apartment is amazing. I look at my bedroom windows and see the Marina. Boats were always coming and going. The apartment and all the responsibilities are mine. I pay bills (Unhappily) and I still can't believe it.
Things are great. Teaching is teaching me alot. Some kids are great, the rest are assholes. But I love them. I love how they drive me insane and then hug me on the way out. They know it, and I know it. But I love them already.
It's lonely, but not in a terrible way. I miss my parents of course, I always do. I miss seeing my brother and Amanda too. They are getting married this summer. It's unbelievable. But I made a wonderful friend named Megan. She is new as well and like me, an instrumentalist who can't believe she has to teach chorus. We are so alike it's scary. Again, I would never have met her if it weren't for Norwich. I'm so blessed.
I'm also grateful to those who supported me through that summer. It's still a time I can't fully look back on and not shudder. It was a really rough time for me. But like all things..it has passed. And I made it, which I never thought I would.
A few things...
I'm over you. Forgive that moment of weakness it should have never happened. I don't need you and I never did. And I definitely don't need someone as pathetic as you in my life. Thank you for the happier times. But God forgive your sad soul and your cold foul heart. I won't.
I have a crush on someone. I can't deny it. And I didn't think I could feel again. But I can...Nothing will come of this, I am too focused on my career, but it makes me feel alive, and I didn't think I could feel that again.
So yes. I'm happy. And I'm so thankful.
And I will try not to disappear...for awhile.
It is me.
I know you missed me.
Right.
My name is Amanda Gonzalez. Over the summer I was severly depressed. I was dealing with the end of of a horrible relationship with the world's most selfish man. I had been on several interviews (15) and rejected from all of them. I was becoming a silent burden to my brother and future sister-in-law (they got engaged). I began working at Target and I could quietly see myself there for a very long time. I stopped applying to places knowing I wasn't going to get it anyway. I cried myself to sleep almost every night.
Then, I got a phone call from Shannon Cunningham, letting me know of a position in Norwich teaching general music.
I went on the interview, knowing full well nothing would come of it. Well, not even an hour later from that interview I was called, and offered the job. It was a thursday. I quit Target the next day. That night (Friday) I researched apartments, Saturday I looked at a few places and bought an apartment that evening. Sunday I moved in, and that Monday I began two days of professional development. I began teaching that Wednesday.
All of that happened in a blink of an eye. Now it's a month later, and I'm so happy I think I could burst. For the first time in my life I feel like I am in the right place at the right time. I don't think I thank God enough and owe him a long talking to. I was born to teach. I love every second of it. I have lots of gray hairs already, but I can deal.
My apartment is amazing. I look at my bedroom windows and see the Marina. Boats were always coming and going. The apartment and all the responsibilities are mine. I pay bills (Unhappily) and I still can't believe it.
Things are great. Teaching is teaching me alot. Some kids are great, the rest are assholes. But I love them. I love how they drive me insane and then hug me on the way out. They know it, and I know it. But I love them already.
It's lonely, but not in a terrible way. I miss my parents of course, I always do. I miss seeing my brother and Amanda too. They are getting married this summer. It's unbelievable. But I made a wonderful friend named Megan. She is new as well and like me, an instrumentalist who can't believe she has to teach chorus. We are so alike it's scary. Again, I would never have met her if it weren't for Norwich. I'm so blessed.
I'm also grateful to those who supported me through that summer. It's still a time I can't fully look back on and not shudder. It was a really rough time for me. But like all things..it has passed. And I made it, which I never thought I would.
A few things...
I'm over you. Forgive that moment of weakness it should have never happened. I don't need you and I never did. And I definitely don't need someone as pathetic as you in my life. Thank you for the happier times. But God forgive your sad soul and your cold foul heart. I won't.
I have a crush on someone. I can't deny it. And I didn't think I could feel again. But I can...Nothing will come of this, I am too focused on my career, but it makes me feel alive, and I didn't think I could feel that again.
So yes. I'm happy. And I'm so thankful.
And I will try not to disappear...for awhile.