Almost Friday yet??
Yes it is, yea..
I have been making file folders for work. fun... but, painful. It's 4pm, almost time to go so I stopped making them for today.
Everything is the same in my life. Rick wants a bike now. The Dr thinks that if Rick rode around, by himself that he could clear his head and mabye that would help him in the confidence area. But she doesn't know him as I do. Yea we can buy the bike. To have him ride it twice mabye 3 times. He will give excuses for why he can't ride. It hurts his legs, ect. We have a tread mill at home and he only gets on it when I do. Otherwise he has no plans to try to loose weight, he weighs 195 now. He lost alot before but, he gained it all back and more...
I saw him on the internet, or Explorer where you don't have to log on.. and those prono pop ups, popped up. He made the angry reply I don't know why these are popping up. I told him because he is not on AOL, there is a block on his AOL on those things. He wasn't on AOL and I found out.
It just makes me so mad that he thinks he can slip it by me. Or try the, "I don't know why.." thing.
He sees the Therpist tomorrow. I can't go, again. But I plan on writting a few things down I want discussed. I don't know WHY I do this it won't help.
My Dr put me on depression medication. I start it this Sat. I want to find out what it will do to me before I take them at work.. The smile is plastered on my face but I am breaking down inside. I am getting to the point where I don't care anymore. About anything.. I am trying to get back to the quilting or art or something. But how do you be creative when you can't get enough strenght up to get off the couch?
I just read all the time... I try to escape.
doesn't work
I have been making file folders for work. fun... but, painful. It's 4pm, almost time to go so I stopped making them for today.
Everything is the same in my life. Rick wants a bike now. The Dr thinks that if Rick rode around, by himself that he could clear his head and mabye that would help him in the confidence area. But she doesn't know him as I do. Yea we can buy the bike. To have him ride it twice mabye 3 times. He will give excuses for why he can't ride. It hurts his legs, ect. We have a tread mill at home and he only gets on it when I do. Otherwise he has no plans to try to loose weight, he weighs 195 now. He lost alot before but, he gained it all back and more...
I saw him on the internet, or Explorer where you don't have to log on.. and those prono pop ups, popped up. He made the angry reply I don't know why these are popping up. I told him because he is not on AOL, there is a block on his AOL on those things. He wasn't on AOL and I found out.
It just makes me so mad that he thinks he can slip it by me. Or try the, "I don't know why.." thing.
He sees the Therpist tomorrow. I can't go, again. But I plan on writting a few things down I want discussed. I don't know WHY I do this it won't help.
My Dr put me on depression medication. I start it this Sat. I want to find out what it will do to me before I take them at work.. The smile is plastered on my face but I am breaking down inside. I am getting to the point where I don't care anymore. About anything.. I am trying to get back to the quilting or art or something. But how do you be creative when you can't get enough strenght up to get off the couch?
I just read all the time... I try to escape.
doesn't work