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I've been happy for the past 4 days, which is saying something. then something put a halt on my happiness...i started thinking about someone again, and as the feelings were rushing over me, i realized that I missed him more than ever....i started questioning myself and wondering if i would ever be able to get together with him....I need to call him, but I'm scared to death of talking to him over the phone for some reason...I don't know why....the sooner I call, the sooner i may be able to start something...i wish i could see him in person because I have no problem talking to him in person...i could always send him something, but the only thing I lack is a stamp....and i don't feel like going through the questioning of why I need to make an extra stop at the post office out of the blue just to get a stamp......another thing that bothers me (has nothing to do with the above person) is why people can't just come out and say that they don't want to hang out. I've been telling this great friend of mine that we have to get together because it's my last year here and he says that it could possibly happen depending on what he's got going on....now I know perfectly well, that he's not really doing anything at the current time, that he doesn't have anything going on....it feels like getting punched in the stomach and having the wind knocked out of you.....that all's you want to do is hang out with a great friend, spend some time with them while you still can, and they say "it depends on what i'm doing" when you know perfectly well, they're not doing anything
it hurts, it really fucking hurts, the one friend I can rely on, that I look up to like a big brother that I never had, and he turns his back on you and gives you the cold shoulder (and by the way, the first part of that statement is true, I do look up to him). He tells me that my younger brother only wants an older sibling to look up to and to do whatever I can to spend just a little time with him every now and then....well, what about me? I look up to him like a big brother and he could care less it seems. thanks a bunch =/
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it hurts, it really fucking hurts, the one friend I can rely on, that I look up to like a big brother that I never had, and he turns his back on you and gives you the cold shoulder (and by the way, the first part of that statement is true, I do look up to him). He tells me that my younger brother only wants an older sibling to look up to and to do whatever I can to spend just a little time with him every now and then....well, what about me? I look up to him like a big brother and he could care less it seems. thanks a bunch =/
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