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i do not understand ken's line of thinking, at all. like i said, i was going over to bino's today and when i asked if i could he got all pissed off for some reason, even though he gave me his permission. i said i'd have my phone and my keys, which means he doesn't have to be forced to care where i am and if i can get back into the house alright or not. and i thought he'd be glad because then i'm gone all day and he doesn't have to deal with me.
i'm making myself coffee and he say's all suddenly, "i'm going to take you down to the community service building and see if we can't get you a job." except i can't because i have two sessions of summer school, which is going to take all summer to finish, i wouldn't have time for a job because i'd be working my ass off at trying to rebuild my credits anyways.
and since mum and ken think school is such a problem for me; i'm wondering why they want me to add on the stress of getting a job as well as trying to graduate next year. i don't understand what they want from me. it's not like i ever ask for anything that costs a lot of money, and when i want something, i wait until a holiday to ask for it or save up for it myself.
i just keep repeating, "one more year, one more year, one more year..." like a mantra in my head to keep myself sane. one more year and i'm out of here. i seriously plan on moving out next summer, whether to vancouver, washington or manoa, hawai'i; i have to get out of here as soon as possible, for mental health sake.