Updating
You know i'm finally updating because i knew find myself an hour before i need to go to sleep. Everything has been so hectic these last couple of weeks. i always want to update my journal but i end up having somthing else to do, its a bit embarresing really. I'm still on livejournal after these couple of years because i've been in LJ for longer than my profile says. Since now there really isn't nothing to do i seem to want to find the time to update this finally.
I've made some revelations, i've been thinking alot about how everything changed school as the main reason really. Stockdale from preschool to 4th grade, Columbia elementary 6th to 5th, Fruitvale Jr. High 2 years and Liberty Highschool hopfully for the remaining 4, 3 years i have before i am legally an adult and head for college.
Going to a public school after being in a private for all my life, i was really excited. To tell truth, i don't really think i was all the Christian either, just followed with the motions. When i went to a public i got blocked from my old private school for 4 years, only hereing this and that from one of my friends whom i still keep in touch. Now i'm in highschool, the people whose names i will always remember while i was in SCS are all coming back to me and i find myself being reminded of all those times at school that i spent and how much i knew then and now i barely know them now even though i can probably reconize them 20 years from now. I'm not going to try and read this over, no use i just feel like rambling.
So far, this year has been the year i cried and reminiced the most which i kinda sad seeing how younge i am and shouldn't even being doing this until a little later but it just happens. Crap i reread this sentence, oh well. I've been noticing more woman and men now in my school and i may be exploring my opinions more than i did in Jr. High. I'm trying not to get too ahead of myself because i do not need a relationship at this moment of schooling. I can't help but wonder though, What it would be like to be with that blonde girl where i find everything beautiful about her but i wonder if i could ever be in a relationship with her can i make her happy, or if guys i find attractive will be worth being with finacially in the end because i refuse to take one of those highschool sweetheart blunges.
I decided that whoever, if i ever get into a relationship, they are probably not where i live. Though it wouldn't hurt to date a little so i wouldn't be a complete stranger to socializing. What extremely funny though it that there is this guy Kyle, who i have been liking on and off since 7th grade and have been a little afraid to talk to him because he doesn't give attention to me when i try to get it. Meaning when i try to say hi he complely misses it.
Today of all days, i was late into the lunch lines because i needed to get some information in my History class, at this point i am pretty much not caring and just wanted to get some food in the line and not waiting there for the rest of the lunch period. I go up to Kyle, give him a 5 and ask him if he can get my a chicken sandwich, he got it, gave me my change which was short 75cents i grabbed my sandwich thanked him and walked into the cafiteria laughing to myself that i am such a complete idiot for being shy for so fucking long. Which i still am around him damit, well kinda. Good god i really hate it but my heart was racing after school after he looked me in the eye for such a brief moment. *sighs* did i mention i hate this, i don't fucking need this. I'm not even stopping myself which is probly why i'm so mad.
Well anyway, A new month and a new list of manga that are comming out and i need to get to. Damit i still have so much manga to update on heres the unupdated version:
YGO #3-10
Legal Drug #1,2,4
YGO millenium duelist #1
Full Moon #1-3
Death Note #1
Saiyuki #all
Rurouni Kenshin #20
Samurai Champloo #1
and lets not get started on the rest of my Wish list. Damit it doesn't even conclude the doujinshi and stuff i need that i can't buy right now. Zakura says tha i kill people'ce friend's list because i don't LJ cut, need to learn that sometime. even though i probably already know it.
I went Trick or Treating Monday XD I painted my face and hopfully i can show the pictures once i get them. But i didn't scare any little kids, but i did scare one adult, which is pretty good to my standards.
We have a Marching Competition this Saturday and a Football game on Friday, i would say and complain more but now i'm getting sick of this entry so.
Nite NIte.
I've made some revelations, i've been thinking alot about how everything changed school as the main reason really. Stockdale from preschool to 4th grade, Columbia elementary 6th to 5th, Fruitvale Jr. High 2 years and Liberty Highschool hopfully for the remaining 4, 3 years i have before i am legally an adult and head for college.
Going to a public school after being in a private for all my life, i was really excited. To tell truth, i don't really think i was all the Christian either, just followed with the motions. When i went to a public i got blocked from my old private school for 4 years, only hereing this and that from one of my friends whom i still keep in touch. Now i'm in highschool, the people whose names i will always remember while i was in SCS are all coming back to me and i find myself being reminded of all those times at school that i spent and how much i knew then and now i barely know them now even though i can probably reconize them 20 years from now. I'm not going to try and read this over, no use i just feel like rambling.
So far, this year has been the year i cried and reminiced the most which i kinda sad seeing how younge i am and shouldn't even being doing this until a little later but it just happens. Crap i reread this sentence, oh well. I've been noticing more woman and men now in my school and i may be exploring my opinions more than i did in Jr. High. I'm trying not to get too ahead of myself because i do not need a relationship at this moment of schooling. I can't help but wonder though, What it would be like to be with that blonde girl where i find everything beautiful about her but i wonder if i could ever be in a relationship with her can i make her happy, or if guys i find attractive will be worth being with finacially in the end because i refuse to take one of those highschool sweetheart blunges.
I decided that whoever, if i ever get into a relationship, they are probably not where i live. Though it wouldn't hurt to date a little so i wouldn't be a complete stranger to socializing. What extremely funny though it that there is this guy Kyle, who i have been liking on and off since 7th grade and have been a little afraid to talk to him because he doesn't give attention to me when i try to get it. Meaning when i try to say hi he complely misses it.
Today of all days, i was late into the lunch lines because i needed to get some information in my History class, at this point i am pretty much not caring and just wanted to get some food in the line and not waiting there for the rest of the lunch period. I go up to Kyle, give him a 5 and ask him if he can get my a chicken sandwich, he got it, gave me my change which was short 75cents i grabbed my sandwich thanked him and walked into the cafiteria laughing to myself that i am such a complete idiot for being shy for so fucking long. Which i still am around him damit, well kinda. Good god i really hate it but my heart was racing after school after he looked me in the eye for such a brief moment. *sighs* did i mention i hate this, i don't fucking need this. I'm not even stopping myself which is probly why i'm so mad.
Well anyway, A new month and a new list of manga that are comming out and i need to get to. Damit i still have so much manga to update on heres the unupdated version:
YGO #3-10
Legal Drug #1,2,4
YGO millenium duelist #1
Full Moon #1-3
Death Note #1
Saiyuki #all
Rurouni Kenshin #20
Samurai Champloo #1
and lets not get started on the rest of my Wish list. Damit it doesn't even conclude the doujinshi and stuff i need that i can't buy right now. Zakura says tha i kill people'ce friend's list because i don't LJ cut, need to learn that sometime. even though i probably already know it.
I went Trick or Treating Monday XD I painted my face and hopfully i can show the pictures once i get them. But i didn't scare any little kids, but i did scare one adult, which is pretty good to my standards.
We have a Marching Competition this Saturday and a Football game on Friday, i would say and complain more but now i'm getting sick of this entry so.
Nite NIte.