Completed Stages Of The Moon
Now, everything is resolved. He chooses to leave. He can't accept the fact that he has to share his lover with someone else that he don't like at all. I don't mind that. But the fact it hurts me when he don't tell me directly. My dear BF took the courage to sms him and check up if he still wanna come back. I was tired. Really tired as it's consuming my mental and physical energy to worry about someone that don't really gives a damn about what you feel. Then comes Sunday night, I sms him saying that i felt he has someone to take care of him and wished him all the best. No replied. Monday morning, I text message him to ensure that he woke up and goes to work. He responded and stating that he's staying with his cousin and has no one to take care of him. I just replied ok and good bye. later that night, he sms saying that he has no phone credit to call out or sms. Asked if I could share RM5 of my phone credit to him. When he first brought this new phone number, I've already share RM5 to him. Then when he mention he ran out of credit again, I share another RM10 with him. I send an sms before sharing my final time of RM5 to him. As I've said to him in the text message, I share the phone credits was in hoping that he can contact me in time of need. Since I know he spend the credits on calling to other people. I advised him to use the public phone next time. He called shortly after that. I didn't answer. I didn't bother to answer. Nor I bother to reply his sms after that. The choices has been made. He choose to see the other part of me. Which, my BF scare most.
It's silly of me to go back and think about it. Like how I would have never suspect nor notice. He was always in the same certain area. I suspected it for quite some time. But never had the evidence to proves him guilty. So, I took my chances, letting him go as he like. I'll reconsider if he ever wanna return here. Talk about inconvinient. I admit it's not so convinient for me to go to work as well. But we, the people whom stayed here, have our way with public transport. A little sacrificial to get our asses to work. In return, our pay for the job we done. Maybe he used to be a prince. Can't take up the effort of switching buses and LRTs to get to the work destination.
I'm in my poverty stage again. My instant noodles is already fully stock up for this month. Go ahead. Laugh. It's a means of survival. And I bet some people don't have what it means to survive on 1 pack of instant noodles per day. For me, been there, done that. Even 1 loaf of bread is more filling than instant noodles, this, I can assure you. Life living expenses is hard nowadays, I know my boy wanted more. But I enjoy being in this way. My boy is the lazy type. He don't feel like doing all the hard work. What am I expecting anyway? He's a bottom after all. But despise all he had done. He manage to melt my Ice Wall and reach my heart. That's why I love him for what he is now. And what he will be come in the future. It's another day. Brand new sun will rises from the east again. Time to face new chalenge up ahead. This week, I have to deal with all the loneliness at home. My boy won't be coming back until Wednesday night. He's rather busy this week. And even in the weekends. Well, we have already planned to watch Harry Potter And the Half Blood Prince on the 1st weekend when it's in the cinema. I can't wait seriously.
It's silly of me to go back and think about it. Like how I would have never suspect nor notice. He was always in the same certain area. I suspected it for quite some time. But never had the evidence to proves him guilty. So, I took my chances, letting him go as he like. I'll reconsider if he ever wanna return here. Talk about inconvinient. I admit it's not so convinient for me to go to work as well. But we, the people whom stayed here, have our way with public transport. A little sacrificial to get our asses to work. In return, our pay for the job we done. Maybe he used to be a prince. Can't take up the effort of switching buses and LRTs to get to the work destination.
I'm in my poverty stage again. My instant noodles is already fully stock up for this month. Go ahead. Laugh. It's a means of survival. And I bet some people don't have what it means to survive on 1 pack of instant noodles per day. For me, been there, done that. Even 1 loaf of bread is more filling than instant noodles, this, I can assure you. Life living expenses is hard nowadays, I know my boy wanted more. But I enjoy being in this way. My boy is the lazy type. He don't feel like doing all the hard work. What am I expecting anyway? He's a bottom after all. But despise all he had done. He manage to melt my Ice Wall and reach my heart. That's why I love him for what he is now. And what he will be come in the future. It's another day. Brand new sun will rises from the east again. Time to face new chalenge up ahead. This week, I have to deal with all the loneliness at home. My boy won't be coming back until Wednesday night. He's rather busy this week. And even in the weekends. Well, we have already planned to watch Harry Potter And the Half Blood Prince on the 1st weekend when it's in the cinema. I can't wait seriously.