Something is better to leave behind
Title: Something is better to leave behind
Author Yu_Kai1
Rating: PG (I don't know T-T)
Pairing: Onew/Key, Minho/Key
Summary: Every life has its parts and some of them is better to leave behind, even if we don't want to.
Every life has its parts. Some of them we forget easily, some of them are in our memories forever. And I am no exception. I didn’t know what I’m expecting from my life at all. Not till I met you.
I was lonely nineteen years old guy, every day seemed same to me. You were like an angel who came from heaven to me. No really, I felt like my life have that shining sparkle again. Three years with you were like never ending dream. Waking up next to you gave me strenght to live, get through the day and come home, just to see your comforting smile. That stupid mask I had to wear every day was gone right after I was with you. Nobody else couldn’t do the things you did with me. You know, I miss you. I really do. Sometimes I’m just standing in my bedroom with closed eyes, trying to remember how I was when you were here. I feel so close to you for a moment, just like it was before. And then I’m pushed back to rality, where I’m standing here alone, cold air around me. Where are your warm arms which never let me be so cold? When did that part of my life I loved the most ended? No, I should be asking.. Why?
--------flashback--------
,,I don’t love you anymore..“ I stared blankly on the TV screen. I knew exactly what you will say, but I didn’t know it will hurt so much. My eyes were full of tears. All I could do was a broken smile.
,,I know.“ I couldn’t look at you. If I did, I wouldn’t be able to let you go. You stayed beside me, holding a bag with your things. Were you really leaving me? I hated the pain in my chest that didn’t want to go away. I wanted to say Stay. Why I didn’t? Why were the tears going down my cheeks like that? I wasn’t crying, but I couldn’t stop those tears. And then I heard a quiet click. My heart just left with you and I knew that no one can ever gave it back to me. It was you, I’ll never forget that love we shared.
---------end of flashback--------
Nothing can stay for ever and I moved on. I met this guy named Minho and after three moths we started dating. It wasn’t that kind of love I had with you, but it was love strong enough to make me feel again. I could be happy again. I knew that Minho had someone he loved just like me and we both knew that we have to go on.
Another year had passed by. I started to live with Minho, when one day I found this white envelope among the bills that came every month. Inside of it was a wedding announcement. My Jinki was getting married. All those memories of you were back and I felt my lips formed a little smile. Minho sat beside me and looked at the piece of paper I was holding.
,,Hey, my old friend is getting married next week. Will you go with me?“ I don‘t know why I wanted to go. Maybe to show him that I’m happy, to show him that I have got over him. I didn’t know how and I was standing in a beautiful castle garden, wedding altar was standing in the middle of a half circle of flowers on front of me. Everything looked so beautiful. A dream wedding you always wanted. Minho was holding my hand, knowing who Jinki really was. He wasn’t asking, but I told him. I saw Jinki standing there with some people. My eyes met his for a while. He looked a little suprised when he saw me. I smiled, he smiled back. We didn’t talk for the rest of the evening. His wife was a beautiful woman. She thought that I was Jinki’s friend and she greeted me warmly when the wedding ceremony ended. Then Minho had to leave, he got a call from work. He wanted to drive me home, but I wanted to stay. I wanted to look around, because this garden was really something amazing.
And here I am, sitting on the bench, thinking about life and watching a swarm of fireflies. I heard foot steps before you showed in front of me, sitting next to me.
,,Hi.“ My eyes looked at you and then went back to that beautiful sight before me. Fireflies were now flying all around us. It was wonderful.
,,Hi.“ There was a silence once again. I couldn’t take that heavy atmosphere, so I stood up and did a few steps forward. I looked at my hand. There was one lonely firefly sitting on it.
,,Your wife is really beautiful.“ I said without thinking. I heard you smile.
,,Yeah, isn’t she?“ I actually didn’t understand what we were doing. Not till you hugged me from the back and whispered something.
,,Let me just.. let me hold you again. Just for a while.“ I stopped breathing. I found myself turning around and putting my hands around your neck. We stayed like this for about five minutes. We held each other so tight that it almost hurt, but none of us didn’t care. When we finally broke the hug, I felt my heart breaking again. I wanted you back so badly. So badly that it wasn’t possible anymore. I brushed you cheek with my fingers, knowing that I can’t cry. You were happy, so I was. You wanted this and I knew that there is no other way than leave you behind already. I knew it, but still I didn’t want to.
,,I still love you, Kibum.“ You said more like a joke than something you meant. But I felt you did.
,,I know Jinki, I know.“ I was stroking your hair, just like I did years ago. I closed your eyes with my hand, stepping closer to you. My lips met yours once again and we knew that this is the last time. Last kiss is always the most beautiful, isn’t it?
,,Don’t forget me, okey?“ I whispered to your ear. When you opened up your eyes, I was gone. I came back home, laid on my bed and fell asleep. When I woke up in the morning, Minho was lying beside me, holding my hand. I smiled. Some things is better to leave behind. Jinki and I knew it more that anybody else. I let myself lay to Minho‘s embrace and fell asleep again.
Author Yu_Kai1
Rating: PG (I don't know T-T)
Pairing: Onew/Key, Minho/Key
Summary: Every life has its parts and some of them is better to leave behind, even if we don't want to.
Every life has its parts. Some of them we forget easily, some of them are in our memories forever. And I am no exception. I didn’t know what I’m expecting from my life at all. Not till I met you.
I was lonely nineteen years old guy, every day seemed same to me. You were like an angel who came from heaven to me. No really, I felt like my life have that shining sparkle again. Three years with you were like never ending dream. Waking up next to you gave me strenght to live, get through the day and come home, just to see your comforting smile. That stupid mask I had to wear every day was gone right after I was with you. Nobody else couldn’t do the things you did with me. You know, I miss you. I really do. Sometimes I’m just standing in my bedroom with closed eyes, trying to remember how I was when you were here. I feel so close to you for a moment, just like it was before. And then I’m pushed back to rality, where I’m standing here alone, cold air around me. Where are your warm arms which never let me be so cold? When did that part of my life I loved the most ended? No, I should be asking.. Why?
--------flashback--------
,,I don’t love you anymore..“ I stared blankly on the TV screen. I knew exactly what you will say, but I didn’t know it will hurt so much. My eyes were full of tears. All I could do was a broken smile.
,,I know.“ I couldn’t look at you. If I did, I wouldn’t be able to let you go. You stayed beside me, holding a bag with your things. Were you really leaving me? I hated the pain in my chest that didn’t want to go away. I wanted to say Stay. Why I didn’t? Why were the tears going down my cheeks like that? I wasn’t crying, but I couldn’t stop those tears. And then I heard a quiet click. My heart just left with you and I knew that no one can ever gave it back to me. It was you, I’ll never forget that love we shared.
---------end of flashback--------
Nothing can stay for ever and I moved on. I met this guy named Minho and after three moths we started dating. It wasn’t that kind of love I had with you, but it was love strong enough to make me feel again. I could be happy again. I knew that Minho had someone he loved just like me and we both knew that we have to go on.
Another year had passed by. I started to live with Minho, when one day I found this white envelope among the bills that came every month. Inside of it was a wedding announcement. My Jinki was getting married. All those memories of you were back and I felt my lips formed a little smile. Minho sat beside me and looked at the piece of paper I was holding.
,,Hey, my old friend is getting married next week. Will you go with me?“ I don‘t know why I wanted to go. Maybe to show him that I’m happy, to show him that I have got over him. I didn’t know how and I was standing in a beautiful castle garden, wedding altar was standing in the middle of a half circle of flowers on front of me. Everything looked so beautiful. A dream wedding you always wanted. Minho was holding my hand, knowing who Jinki really was. He wasn’t asking, but I told him. I saw Jinki standing there with some people. My eyes met his for a while. He looked a little suprised when he saw me. I smiled, he smiled back. We didn’t talk for the rest of the evening. His wife was a beautiful woman. She thought that I was Jinki’s friend and she greeted me warmly when the wedding ceremony ended. Then Minho had to leave, he got a call from work. He wanted to drive me home, but I wanted to stay. I wanted to look around, because this garden was really something amazing.
And here I am, sitting on the bench, thinking about life and watching a swarm of fireflies. I heard foot steps before you showed in front of me, sitting next to me.
,,Hi.“ My eyes looked at you and then went back to that beautiful sight before me. Fireflies were now flying all around us. It was wonderful.
,,Hi.“ There was a silence once again. I couldn’t take that heavy atmosphere, so I stood up and did a few steps forward. I looked at my hand. There was one lonely firefly sitting on it.
,,Your wife is really beautiful.“ I said without thinking. I heard you smile.
,,Yeah, isn’t she?“ I actually didn’t understand what we were doing. Not till you hugged me from the back and whispered something.
,,Let me just.. let me hold you again. Just for a while.“ I stopped breathing. I found myself turning around and putting my hands around your neck. We stayed like this for about five minutes. We held each other so tight that it almost hurt, but none of us didn’t care. When we finally broke the hug, I felt my heart breaking again. I wanted you back so badly. So badly that it wasn’t possible anymore. I brushed you cheek with my fingers, knowing that I can’t cry. You were happy, so I was. You wanted this and I knew that there is no other way than leave you behind already. I knew it, but still I didn’t want to.
,,I still love you, Kibum.“ You said more like a joke than something you meant. But I felt you did.
,,I know Jinki, I know.“ I was stroking your hair, just like I did years ago. I closed your eyes with my hand, stepping closer to you. My lips met yours once again and we knew that this is the last time. Last kiss is always the most beautiful, isn’t it?
,,Don’t forget me, okey?“ I whispered to your ear. When you opened up your eyes, I was gone. I came back home, laid on my bed and fell asleep. When I woke up in the morning, Minho was lying beside me, holding my hand. I smiled. Some things is better to leave behind. Jinki and I knew it more that anybody else. I let myself lay to Minho‘s embrace and fell asleep again.