no one ever comments anymore, its like you dont care. waaaaaaaaa
WOA. life has been so incredibly weird lately. i think it just doesnt like me. i vonder vye. do you kno? cuz if u do itd' be really helpfull right now. ok, first there was this huge thing with a certain someone on monday, and i thought then and there that life as i had known it had come to a screeching halt, leaving me on the edge of a cliff, ready to fall into darkness and never come out again, or should my fall not be broken, ide be gone from this wirlpool of depression and agony, finally relieved of my pain. but thats not how it worked, and i guess theres a reason for that, and that reason is good, because i wouldnt be happy without you!
and the weird part has been the aftermath. i want so badly to hate her. but i dont hate her at all. im not mad at all. and this is so weird to me because i feel like im supposed to be. instead im hurt and jealous and sad and i cant describe it even, it just weird. and i cant stand seeing you guys together. i get so sick, and its unlike anything ever. theres fire in my chest and water in my eyes, and its just so intense. i dont want to tell you not to hang out with her, cause i kindof like her, and i dont want you to hang out with her only if im not around. but the thought of you guys looking at eachother or talking together is the worst feeling. so what do i do? what do i say? nothing at all or everything?
just know, you are my inhale and exhale, the smell of sweet perfume, my favorite song, my quench of thirst, a lust of color, my stress ball, my everything. and while your what keeps me crying, your the one thats drying the tears away. and i could never let you go.
goodnight darling.