i feel like shit
i feel like shit. i kno i say that alot, but i do. im really confused. it seems like things beetween me and karson are getting worse. last night i actually cried. i cried for what seems like an eternity, and i couldnt get him out of my head. i love him so much, u cant imagine, but im so unhappy. i dont feel special anymore, i feel like he doesnt care, not really. its like all he cares about is making out with me and slapping my ass, and maybe im wrong, but thats what it feels like.i want to be held and loved and i want to feel special again. and i havent acted like me the past couple of days because of it. what the fuck is wrong with me? evrything is so messed up and i wish i could believe him when he sais he loves me. i wish he did. its not right anymore. im dying inside and everything i liked about myself has been fading away lately, and im not trying to blame it all on him cus i love him, but i dont kno. i just dont kno.