im a fake im a fake im a fakkkkkke

[ytegrlwitahotas]

ah, so after getting all situated in my house (for over a month now, but finally) i found my scale, which i thought someone hid. Any how, now i see why they hid it, if they did, geez its fucking disgusting. mainly because i was walking in my rock and republics today, and felt nasty, like my fat was hanging out of my jeans. which honestly should be a crime considering how beautiful the jeans are. just disgusting, any how, the results are in, and i gained ten pounds, well eleven, but i give myself a courtesy pound since its night time.

ok, so the problems are
a. i eat like shit
b. i never exercise at all
c. i drink soda and alcohol wayyyy too much

so i decided to write out the fix it plan, so its more concrete.

a. no soda, juice, or alcohol
b. tennis twice a week
c. running once a week
d. salad one meal every other day

once i lose 5 pounds, i will allow alcohol, but the rest will stay until im toned down and not disturbing to myself.

part of me would rather just take pills, honestly so much easier, but i know that isnt the right way to do anything, and if i do get skinny it will just come back when i get off them, but its frustrating to be disgusted with yourself, and just not feel confident about your body.

any ways, im leaving this public because i think everyone is concerned with their weight, but hopefully people dont take it the wrong way and i think im nuts