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What's left besides my new, insanely accessoriazble phone? I'm pathetic.
No one is here; Everyone is here. My parents, Jamie.
No one is here.
I feel like I've been sucked into this gaping hole that's forcing decisions out of me. Forcing these things that I don't want to come, that I don't want to deal with. Gah. Why is it that this dissapears when you are here, let alone with me, or even talking to me. I already know why, I just wish that feeling remained more prominently in your absence.
So then, I wouldn't feel like this all the time:
So lost, irresolute. Irrational. College, Summer Assignments, School, Summer Reading...everything. I don't want to deal with it. I think I'm becoming lazy. Just plain old lazy. But, I've been lazy before, and this wasn't it. I feel as though I've just disconnected with life sometimes.
Yeah, and in case you are wondering, I haven't thought of turning to weed to solve my problems, my newly acquired fancy. I am deeply apologetic for the person that assumed this before finishing this ridiculously self-inflicting entry.
I'm sick of trying.
or yearning, to be honest.
♥♥♥
No one is here; Everyone is here. My parents, Jamie.
No one is here.
I feel like I've been sucked into this gaping hole that's forcing decisions out of me. Forcing these things that I don't want to come, that I don't want to deal with. Gah. Why is it that this dissapears when you are here, let alone with me, or even talking to me. I already know why, I just wish that feeling remained more prominently in your absence.
So then, I wouldn't feel like this all the time:
So lost, irresolute. Irrational. College, Summer Assignments, School, Summer Reading...everything. I don't want to deal with it. I think I'm becoming lazy. Just plain old lazy. But, I've been lazy before, and this wasn't it. I feel as though I've just disconnected with life sometimes.
Yeah, and in case you are wondering, I haven't thought of turning to weed to solve my problems, my newly acquired fancy. I am deeply apologetic for the person that assumed this before finishing this ridiculously self-inflicting entry.
I'm sick of trying.
or yearning, to be honest.
♥♥♥