You are not alone. You are loved.
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Hello to my friends and family. I want to be open now. Yesterday, I felt jittery so I needed to go home early from work. I wasn’t feeling ok. My immediate superiors were very understanding of my situation so I would like to be thankful for them. I called my dad right after taking a rest. He understands my situation as well so he fetched me as soon as he received my call.
Maybe, my dad was right. I’m still in denial that I have a mental health disorder. Sometimes, I forget to take my medicines. Often times, I neglect them. I know I have to take my medicines but sometimes, I tend to not take them. My doctor also prohibits me to stay up late but I don’t follow the advice of my doctor. My dad is scared of me having a relapse so he makes sure that I follow my doctor’s advice everytime. I am also scared of having a relapse but I am not taking care of myself properly.
This started in 2009. I was first diagnosed with Psychosis by doctors in the US. Came 2010, my psychiatrist here in the Philippines diagnosed me with Schizophrenia. Until recently, I’ve been struggling with Bipolar disorder. I also had depression along the way. My family is very understanding of my situation. But, I don’t want to go back to depression again since my family is also affected. If I really don’t want to go back there again, I have to take care of myself properly. My friends are also very understanding of my situation.
We have a stigma here in the Philippines that if you’re visiting a psychiatrist, you’re immediately a crazy person. But, please, if you don’t feel ok anymore, please visit a psychiatrist. I’m sure they’ll be a huge help. It’s ok not to be ok.
To anyone who is also suffering from mental health disorders, please know that your family and friends are right behind you. You are not alone. You are loved and please do take care of yourself always.
Lots of love,
Ysabel Andrei