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Apr 30, 2004 22:17

My friends just came by [around 9:40] and wanted me to go out with them then spend the night. I declined :[ they caught me off gaurd, my hair all pulled back and front teeth out. Now I REALLLLLY wish I would've went, I can't find her cell number though. GRR ;\

Today at work. Wow. Okay, so there is this girl that all the workers call her the "Dikey Bitch" because supposdly she is a lesbian and she is a big bitch. She's worked at other Taco bells, but she was just hired at this one, so she like. Thinks she is, I don't know, THE SHIT or something. So "on top" of it all, but she isn't really. She is just another one of the team members. Everyone hates her/or is creeped out by her. I didn't know her so I had no say on how I liked her, but now I know. SHE IS SO CREEPY? Yeah. Danny told me they are trying to get her fired. She yelled out orders the whole time she was there [I came in at 5 she left at 7] and she was just really WEIRD, like she was making a taco and it said no sour cream, but she put it on there, and then noticed it said "no sour cream" so she's like "OOPS! Sir, do you mind if your taco has sour cream on it?" I mean. Hi. Make another taco. NO BIG DEAL. The guy was just like "uh...sure" and then she did that with this burrito that had lettuce in it. You aren't suppose to or even ALLOWED to do that. JUST THROW THE MESSED UP TACO OR BURRITO OR WHATEVER, AWAY. You don't *ASK* the customer if it's OKAY if they have cheese on their taco when they orderd specifically "no cheese". And then [I swear I'm not trying to talk bad about her, this is just how my day went] I was washing the dishes and she kept asking ME to like, go get some more sour cream, or make some gorditas, or get more tomatoes.

I was CLEANING the DISHES with DIRTY wet HANDS, she kept going past me and rubbing my side or shoulder and saying "you are doing really good, really, so well" :\ She was just, I don't know. Being too nice? And then finally she wanted me to get some tacos, so I just told her I really had to stop messing with the food because I was doing the dishes. It was annoying washing my hands/doing stuff/going back to the dishes, etc. She was like "Just don't wash your hands, it's fine!"
NO IT'S NOT. ASDJFKskdlfDJAK. When she left everyone started complaining about her :\ I ...well I do have a problem with her. She is creepy, touchy, bossy, and bitchy. It's not because she is a lesbian, but does she have to...touch and FLIRT with all the girls? I don't knoow....

After she left it was REALLY busy, the manager came and got mad because there were people waiting for over 20 minutes for their tacos and crap, so on one side of the line [the "line" is the table row thinger where we make the food and wrap it etc] there were like, three girls doing the drive through, and on the other, the manager and myself. A LOT of people were waiting for their food, so we worked really fast, she told me to call out the number, and apologise for the wait. I called number so and so, and gave this guy his tacos, I was like "I'm really sorry for the wait" and he was all mean looking and said "what is with you guys tonight!" Like it wasn't even a question. Just a IM SO ANGRY ILL SAY THIS IN A QUESTION FORM type thing. And then he stormed off. I mean, what is with us TONIGHT? Does he go there regulary? How sick. And we were BUSY. Friday night OKAY. Yes, dinner hour, it will be full. And holy crap it's just taco's D;
The rest of the people were pretty cool about it though, they smiled and said "Oh it's fine!" and some even said "Have a good night!" back, so it was pretty cool. The manager asked if I could work over time but I reeeally did not want to, and my dad was going to pick me up at the end of my shift anyways, so I couldn't. I'm glad though, I still need to get work shoes [which I am going out to buy tomorrow] and I was wearing my stupid wal-mart bought boots and they HURT.

After work I came home, weighed myself, binged, binged, and ate again? I'm really disgusting. I was 117 this morning then 120 after the binge. Well then I binged again. So I won't check my weight. I'm fasting tomorrow as well, and I will report here with a huge confession of all that I ate if I eat. But I won't, because I don't want to be embarassed D; so that works. My dad's being a real jerk as well. He always bothers me "what did you eat today" and crap, then he goes and takes his fat-ass trailer trash girlfriend out to dinner. Hmmmmmmmm maybe if you acted like you cared for once, and asked me to dinner with you, I'd go? He got mad at me last night because I only ate "half" [it was more than half] a house salad, and some steamed vegtables. I had to return the vegtables, I asked for no butter or lemon crap on it, and it most defidently had butter on it. I'm such a sick nut case! My dad and therapist [who I am not going to see anymore] think I am anorexic, which I am not anymore, and want me to get in a hospital. If only my dad knew how much I EAT! and how much I HATE it. I am a compulsive overeater who gets saved from massive over night weight gains with pills and exercise. I seriously had 8 bowls of cereal and lots of peanut butter, toast and m&ms tonight. And I'm not really full? God, I am going to be HUGE some day. I only have days like this when I eat breakfast in the morning though. I had 30 extra minutes before school so I thought I'd have a bowl [1 cup=50 calories] of my puffed wheat. If I eat breakfast I am so hungry throughout the rest of the day that I just have "one small bite" of something after school and it leads to a whole buffet. BUT if I don't eat breakfast, or lunch then I most likely won't eat dinner, or just have a few vegtables, I like that a lot more then eating a lot at night, I can feel my arms jiggle as I type this :\ pathetic. Well I've a doctor appointment next week, they want to weigh me and crap but I don't want to be...I don't trust any other scales besides my own. I shouldn't even trust these. My dial says I weigh a pound more than my digital. I am going to go ballistic if the doctors scale says 5 pounds more or something. Which I know it will. Then I'll feel like a failure because I gained weight since my last weigh-in. I am going to shut up about this now. No one wants to hear a fat girl whine about her own faults anyways. It's annoying [I hear it from my friend all the time who eats pizza, candy bars, and regular soda every day at lunch]

Colby was happily telling my father how she is enrolling her child in to first grade for next year and how her new job lasts 3 months then she might get "promoted". My dad looked at me then her and shook his head at her and she stopped. I wish he'd stop with these secrets and just TELL me if she is going to be living with us any longer. She was a bitch again to my sister and I after school. She was watching this horse race on tv [?!] and my sister wanted to watch Lord Of the Rings with me. Well the big TV has a DVD player and the video was a DVD, so my sister asked colby if she could watch that in my dads room so we could watch our video. She stared at my sister for like 10 seconds and then she mumbled "I have to be somewhere anyways" and grabbed her ciggerats and slammed the door. I hate her. My dad PROMISED she would be gone by my birthday, and defidently by my senior year next year. If she is talking about half her job lasting three months, she is obviously going to still be here, her and her little brat. I told my dad if she is still here by my birthday that I am moving out. And I will. This hurts a lot. It's like he doesn't really care about my feelings, or even love me enough to get rid of her. He obviously doesn't like her that much if he has been telling my sister and I for over a year that she will be gone soon. Now I am going to shut up about this.

Camp is this summer. I don't want to go.

Okay the end.

Bye

xoxoxo
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