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I am feeling awfully weird and sad today. I don't know if it's the weather, or stress, or maybe I am overtired. I've been having a tricky time falling asleep lately. I get like that every now and then. I lie down, put my head on my pillow, and then my mind races. I think about a million things all at once. I try to wish my day planner into my hands as I lay there. I try to make mental notes to remind myself to write these things down when I wake up. And then I forget them once the morning comes. I know I had things I wanted to remember and write down, and I stare at my planner and nothing comes.
I don't feel on-point lately. I am off with a lot of things. My pictures have been awful, I haven't been working out at all, I seem to spend alot of time running around and doing what really? I seem to be spending a lot of my time talking about things. About the house hunting, about the fears over affording a home, about moving in with my parents, about how those things are making me feel, about my mental state and it's relative health in general. Everyone seems to be listening and offering advice, and I listen, but then I get all frazzled and lost again. Today would have been a good day to be home and working out my sad depression-y issues rather than be sitting here at this desk at work, avoiding the stack of things I need to be working on.
The weather has warmed up a little bit today, I think I will force myself to go for a good, long, long run. I am thinking at least an hour. Just being outside. Whether I run 5 miles, or walk 3, I don't care. I just have to be out and let the cold air clear my head.
I don't feel on-point lately. I am off with a lot of things. My pictures have been awful, I haven't been working out at all, I seem to spend alot of time running around and doing what really? I seem to be spending a lot of my time talking about things. About the house hunting, about the fears over affording a home, about moving in with my parents, about how those things are making me feel, about my mental state and it's relative health in general. Everyone seems to be listening and offering advice, and I listen, but then I get all frazzled and lost again. Today would have been a good day to be home and working out my sad depression-y issues rather than be sitting here at this desk at work, avoiding the stack of things I need to be working on.
The weather has warmed up a little bit today, I think I will force myself to go for a good, long, long run. I am thinking at least an hour. Just being outside. Whether I run 5 miles, or walk 3, I don't care. I just have to be out and let the cold air clear my head.