you don't know the words.

[yr_housewife]

I want to get a tiny little notebook and become a really organized person. I am pretty organized as is but I've started to become fake organized, meaning that things all look clean and tidy but secretly they are in shambles.

It's starting to get cold out which feels kind of gloomy. Well, it's not gloomy. It's sort of beautiful. I guess I just know that this winter will be gloomy. I know for years all I did was complain about how it was always too hot & I just wanted to live somewhere that was cooler. Florida weather was oh so terrible, but now I could really just settle for a climate of 82 degrees year round & not missing everyone I've ever met.

This doesn't really mean anything. I think I am only typing this out because I had to kind of put it in front of myself. I'm trying to get over this overwhelming feeling of "you are unhappy right now, you are unhappy right now, you are unhappy right now." I don't even know why I feel so bad. I'd probably feel better in the morning, if I could ever fall asleep.

My mind is still racing. I should really start writing more (again) because it makes me feel better most of the time, even when all I do is complain.