shes a brick...
Well .. I've been a little sad at some points lately because:
-my phone never rings anymore. megan, danny, andrea, brock, blake. never. besides the other night I was thinking about it and it rang and it was KATY! then it rang again like .. a few minutes later and it was Brett. but the whole time I was waiting for Danny to call when he got off work. And each time it rang, it wasn't him.
-nothing has been happening anymore. no Glanders, no mall, no Megan.
-Brock has been pissing me off like .. crazy. And its stupid cause hes my "best friend" And I just wantt to punch him.
-cheerleading next year is going to be GAY.
-people saying things to me that really do hurt and make me feel like shit. .....and they doooon't even know. no matter how many times I say it.
-I'm back to being friendless, and no time for 'friends' anyways
-people making me feel like mad crazy poo for little meaningless things that get blown out of proportion
-losing the JV Invite
-softball bus rides not being like the best one ever the other week
.....well, its just kinda sad.
I want to go to Warped. Just the sound of the live music, and all the weird crazy people will make me happy and it'll just feel good. But .. you know .. Jackie doesn't feel like going. The Bled is going to be there. I don't care if its only one band and if I've seen them before, they still have my heart. Last year I didn't have anybody to see besides one band and Jackie got to see her favorite and I didn't complain one bit .. so she needs to suck it up. And hell naw am I going to Detroit. No sir-eee.
Few more weeks of school. And to be honest, I'm dreading it.
This summer I will be friendless.
3 songs that have made the biggest difference in your life
-1. The Killers "Mr.Brightside
-2. Brand New "Me vs Maradona vs Elvis"
-3. Usher "Burn"
3 most favorite songs ever
-1. Brand New "Me vs Maradona vs Elvis"
-2. The Bled "Porcelain Hearts and Hammers for Teeth"
-3. Jimmy Eat World "If You Don't, Don't"
most favortie artists
(no special order besides 1-5)
-1. Brand New
-2. The Bled
-3. Jimmy Eat World
-4. The Early November
-5. Death Cab for Cutie
-6. Bright Eyes
-7. Northstar
-8. I Can Make a Mess Like Nobody's Business
-9. The Postal Service
-10. Thursday
The most favorite lyric ever...
-Brand New "Seventy Times 7"
-"is that what you call a getaway, tell me what you got away with cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish, I've seen more guts in 11 year old kids. have another drink and drive yourself home. I hope theres ice on all the roads and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes through the windsheild."
"I love you" upbeat song"I love you" slow song
-The Early November "Open Eyes"
-"its so much fun, to be in love, cause I'm in love with you"
"I hate you" song
-Jimmt Eat World "Your House"
-"if you still care at all, don't go tell me now. if you love me at all, don't call. you ripped my heart right out, you ripped my heart right out."
"Its falling apart.." song
-The Early November "Sunday Drive"
-"and I will take a step back, and I'll let you ahead. and I will take a step away and see if, you come back. because there's no more trying to make this alright, theres no more trying, theres no more trying tonight. we will never be the same."
"The song you never wanted to be about you...but happened anyways
-Silverstein "Giving Up"
-"I use to make the light shine for you, the sun has left my sky. velvet walls surround my sorrows, I've sacrificed my pride. giving up on me, you're giving up on me. I've laid myself to sleep tonight. I know you've played out everything in your mind. and now you throw it all away. a shattered memory that you would stay, through thick and thin with me. you're giving up on me. and when you feel the pain, I'm wishing I could stay. how can I say I love you back? you never made me happy. you've laid yourself to sleep. I never said this wouldn't hurt. you gave up everything. I never said I'd give it back. I know you'll never change. I won't be good enough for you. I know you'll make it through, I'll never be around to see. you're giving up on me.
"I'm sorry, I love you too, but I have to go" song
-The Cure "The End of the World"
-"go if you want to I never tried to stop you now theres a reason for all of this your feeling whoa its not my call you couldn't ever love me more you couldn't love me more me I don't show much its not that hard to hide you see in the moment I can't remember how to be all you wanted I couldn't ever love you more."
"You're happy, even though things aren't going right" song
-I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business "So I Decided to Give Myself A Reason"
-"tonight I'm gonna take a test to grow up. so I'm sorry for the things that I've done to everyone. its not your face I can't tell. but I try to be this way, its on my own."
"Things are great, and I am happy!" song
-Rise Against "Swing Life Away"
-"we live on front porches and swing life away. we get just fine here on minimum wage. if love is a labor I'll slave till the end. I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand."
"It was one crazy night, but I fell in love" song
-Alkaline Trio "Sorry About That"
-"and we passed out in eachothers arms, both admitting we'd never felt better, never felt so warm. but awoke in eachothers eyes, without wearing a stich of clothing, we were both deeply in disguise."
"I hate myself" song
-Jimmy Eat World "My Sundown"
-"I see it around me, I see it in everything. I could be so much more than this. I said my goodbyes this is my sundown. I'm gonna be so much more than this."
"Christmas" song
-Jimmy Eat World "12.23.95"
"Am I not good enough?" song
-From Autumn to Ashes "Autumns Monologue"
-"oh why can't I be what you need. a new improved version of me. but I'm nothing so good, no I'm nothing. just bones a lonely ghost burning down song. of violence of love and of sorrow, I beg for just one more tomarrow. where you hold me down, fold me in. deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins."
"Fighting" song
-The Get Up Kids "Wish You Were Here"
-"would you stay for one night, if I didnt come home. the end of a big fight, doesnt matter anymore. the point in my mid-life. situations stands, but hours passed like years. wish you were here.
"The best lyric for me"
-The Postal Service "Clark Gable"
-"I've been waiting since birth to find a love that would look and sound like a movie. I want so badly to believe that there is truth that love is real. And I want life in every word to the extent that its absurd."
"Don't go..." song
-The Early November "Come Back"
-"come back please don't leave me now I'll be all that you need in life because I can't live without you and I know all that you need I can give you everything when you're so scared you'll forget about me."
"I forgot about you" song"
-Taking Back Sunday "Your Own Disaster"
-and I wish you weren't the wait cause theres some things I'd like to say to you and I don't think that you know what you've been missing."
"Feeling a little sad" song
-Blink182 "Down"
-my phone never rings anymore. megan, danny, andrea, brock, blake. never. besides the other night I was thinking about it and it rang and it was KATY! then it rang again like .. a few minutes later and it was Brett. but the whole time I was waiting for Danny to call when he got off work. And each time it rang, it wasn't him.
-nothing has been happening anymore. no Glanders, no mall, no Megan.
-Brock has been pissing me off like .. crazy. And its stupid cause hes my "best friend" And I just wantt to punch him.
-cheerleading next year is going to be GAY.
-people saying things to me that really do hurt and make me feel like shit. .....and they doooon't even know. no matter how many times I say it.
-I'm back to being friendless, and no time for 'friends' anyways
-people making me feel like mad crazy poo for little meaningless things that get blown out of proportion
-losing the JV Invite
-softball bus rides not being like the best one ever the other week
.....well, its just kinda sad.
I want to go to Warped. Just the sound of the live music, and all the weird crazy people will make me happy and it'll just feel good. But .. you know .. Jackie doesn't feel like going. The Bled is going to be there. I don't care if its only one band and if I've seen them before, they still have my heart. Last year I didn't have anybody to see besides one band and Jackie got to see her favorite and I didn't complain one bit .. so she needs to suck it up. And hell naw am I going to Detroit. No sir-eee.
Few more weeks of school. And to be honest, I'm dreading it.
This summer I will be friendless.
3 songs that have made the biggest difference in your life
-1. The Killers "Mr.Brightside
-2. Brand New "Me vs Maradona vs Elvis"
-3. Usher "Burn"
3 most favorite songs ever
-1. Brand New "Me vs Maradona vs Elvis"
-2. The Bled "Porcelain Hearts and Hammers for Teeth"
-3. Jimmy Eat World "If You Don't, Don't"
most favortie artists
(no special order besides 1-5)
-1. Brand New
-2. The Bled
-3. Jimmy Eat World
-4. The Early November
-5. Death Cab for Cutie
-6. Bright Eyes
-7. Northstar
-8. I Can Make a Mess Like Nobody's Business
-9. The Postal Service
-10. Thursday
The most favorite lyric ever...
-Brand New "Seventy Times 7"
-"is that what you call a getaway, tell me what you got away with cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish, I've seen more guts in 11 year old kids. have another drink and drive yourself home. I hope theres ice on all the roads and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes through the windsheild."
"I love you" upbeat song"I love you" slow song
-The Early November "Open Eyes"
-"its so much fun, to be in love, cause I'm in love with you"
"I hate you" song
-Jimmt Eat World "Your House"
-"if you still care at all, don't go tell me now. if you love me at all, don't call. you ripped my heart right out, you ripped my heart right out."
"Its falling apart.." song
-The Early November "Sunday Drive"
-"and I will take a step back, and I'll let you ahead. and I will take a step away and see if, you come back. because there's no more trying to make this alright, theres no more trying, theres no more trying tonight. we will never be the same."
"The song you never wanted to be about you...but happened anyways
-Silverstein "Giving Up"
-"I use to make the light shine for you, the sun has left my sky. velvet walls surround my sorrows, I've sacrificed my pride. giving up on me, you're giving up on me. I've laid myself to sleep tonight. I know you've played out everything in your mind. and now you throw it all away. a shattered memory that you would stay, through thick and thin with me. you're giving up on me. and when you feel the pain, I'm wishing I could stay. how can I say I love you back? you never made me happy. you've laid yourself to sleep. I never said this wouldn't hurt. you gave up everything. I never said I'd give it back. I know you'll never change. I won't be good enough for you. I know you'll make it through, I'll never be around to see. you're giving up on me.
"I'm sorry, I love you too, but I have to go" song
-The Cure "The End of the World"
-"go if you want to I never tried to stop you now theres a reason for all of this your feeling whoa its not my call you couldn't ever love me more you couldn't love me more me I don't show much its not that hard to hide you see in the moment I can't remember how to be all you wanted I couldn't ever love you more."
"You're happy, even though things aren't going right" song
-I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business "So I Decided to Give Myself A Reason"
-"tonight I'm gonna take a test to grow up. so I'm sorry for the things that I've done to everyone. its not your face I can't tell. but I try to be this way, its on my own."
"Things are great, and I am happy!" song
-Rise Against "Swing Life Away"
-"we live on front porches and swing life away. we get just fine here on minimum wage. if love is a labor I'll slave till the end. I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand."
"It was one crazy night, but I fell in love" song
-Alkaline Trio "Sorry About That"
-"and we passed out in eachothers arms, both admitting we'd never felt better, never felt so warm. but awoke in eachothers eyes, without wearing a stich of clothing, we were both deeply in disguise."
"I hate myself" song
-Jimmy Eat World "My Sundown"
-"I see it around me, I see it in everything. I could be so much more than this. I said my goodbyes this is my sundown. I'm gonna be so much more than this."
"Christmas" song
-Jimmy Eat World "12.23.95"
"Am I not good enough?" song
-From Autumn to Ashes "Autumns Monologue"
-"oh why can't I be what you need. a new improved version of me. but I'm nothing so good, no I'm nothing. just bones a lonely ghost burning down song. of violence of love and of sorrow, I beg for just one more tomarrow. where you hold me down, fold me in. deep, deep, deep in the heart of your sins."
"Fighting" song
-The Get Up Kids "Wish You Were Here"
-"would you stay for one night, if I didnt come home. the end of a big fight, doesnt matter anymore. the point in my mid-life. situations stands, but hours passed like years. wish you were here.
"The best lyric for me"
-The Postal Service "Clark Gable"
-"I've been waiting since birth to find a love that would look and sound like a movie. I want so badly to believe that there is truth that love is real. And I want life in every word to the extent that its absurd."
"Don't go..." song
-The Early November "Come Back"
-"come back please don't leave me now I'll be all that you need in life because I can't live without you and I know all that you need I can give you everything when you're so scared you'll forget about me."
"I forgot about you" song"
-Taking Back Sunday "Your Own Disaster"
-and I wish you weren't the wait cause theres some things I'd like to say to you and I don't think that you know what you've been missing."
"Feeling a little sad" song
-Blink182 "Down"