Mental breakdown: antagonist face forever
My emotion has been a wreck since yesterday. Once again, for no particular reason.
Thankfully, I’m not the type to go berserk when I have a bad mood. But the worst thing is I can’t even lash it out properly on writing or drawing because I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT MAKES ME FEEL THIS HORRIBLE INSIDE AND OUT.
If I to describe this feeling, it is like there were a black lump filling my lungs and limb. And it gets stuck. Very suck huh? I know well that this “black lump” will magically disappear sometimes soon, but I’m not sure if it won’t do harm to my mentality if it keeps appearing here and there.
I think I need a counseling. Especially under hypnotism, like the one in SNSD’s reality show Dangerous Boys.
Today’s assignment for Basic Illustration class was cartoon-ized a friend’s face. Cartoon-ized, okay? Not manga-ed.
Nadia and Wiwin drew my face and there was a BIG difference between their cartoons of me. Wiwin’s version of me was… adorable. Yea. I know I’m actually not adorable but thanks Win. As for Nadia’s version, it was of me with literally evil faces.
And she insisted that my face did look like that (minus the hawk nose) most of the time.
And even the lecturer’s assistant. Agreed. With. Her.
WORLD, DOES MY FACE LOOK THAT EVIL TO YOU?!
I don’t trust mirrors anymore. Oh self-insecurity. Sobs.
I feel like crap to the point where I doubt tomorrow’s History of Design class can make me feel better, even if with all those body gags and dirty jokes brought to you by Pak Yan Yan.
Self, just let yourself literally cry already.
30 Days Song Meme:
Day 1 - Your Favorite Song
Day 2 - A Song You Wish Was About You
Day 3 - A Song That Makes You Happy
Day 4 - A Song That Makes You Sad
Day 5 - A Song That Reminds You of Someone
Day 6 - A Song That Reminds You of Somewhere
Day 7 - A Song That Reminds You of a Certain Event
Day 8 - A Song That You Know All the Words To
Day 9 - A Song That You Can Dance To
Day 10 - A Song That Makes You Fall Asleep
Day 11 - A Song from Your Favorite Band
Day 12 - A Song from a Band You Hate
Day 13 - A Song That Is a Guilty Pleasure
Day 14 - A Song That No One Would Expect You to Love
Day 15 - A Song That Describes You
Day 16 - A Song That You Used to Love But Now Hate
Day 17 - A Song That You Hear Often on the Radio
Day 18 - A Song That You Wish You Heard on the Radio
Day 19 - A Song from Your Favorite Album
Day 20 - A Song That You Listen to When You're Angry
Day 21 - A Song That You Listen to When You're Happy
Day 22 - A Song That You Listen to When You're Sad
Day 23 - A Song That You Want to Play at Your Wedding
Day 24 - A Song That You Want to Play at Your Funeral
Day 25 - A Song That Makes You Laugh
Day 26 - A Song That You Can Play on an Instrument
Day 27 - A Song That You Wish You Could Play
Day 28 - A Song That Makes You Feel Guilty
Day 29 - A Song from Your Childhood
Day 30 - Your Favorite Song at This Time Last Year
Day 21 - A Song That You Listen to When You’re Happy
Wow I almost forgot the answer thanks to this bad bad mood.
Tho I actually don’t have any particular song to listen to when I’m happy. I mostly listen to 2NE1’s songs and party hard in my brain.
30 Days Hey! Say! JUMP Meme:
Day 01 - Favorite Song
Day 02 - Favorite PV
Day 03 - Favorite PV making of
Day 04 - Favorite live performance of JUMP
Day 05 - Favorite live performance of BEST
Day 06 - Favorite live performance of 7
Day 07 - Worst costume
Day 08 - Favorite picture of my bias
Day 09 - Favorite picture of my OTP
Day 10 - Favorite picture of Yabu Kota
Day 11 - Favorite picture of Takaki Yuya
Day 12 - Favorite picture of Inoo Kei
Day 13 - Favorite picture of Yaotome Hikaru
Day 14 - Favorite picture of Arioka Daiki
Day 15 - Favorite picture of BEST
Day 16 - Favorite picture of Okamoto Keito
Day 17 - Favorite picture of Yamada Ryosuke
Day 18 - Favorite picture of Nakajima Yuto
Day 19 - Favorite picture of Chinen Yuri
Day 20 - Favorite picture of Morimoto Ryutaro
Day 21 - Favorite picture of 7
Day 22 - Member with the best face
Day 23 - Member with the best body
Day 24 - Member with the best voice
Day 25 - Member with the best dancing
Day 26 - Member with the best personality
Day 27 - Member who I think is overrated
Day 28 - Member who I think is underrated
Day 29 - What made me fall for JUMP
Day 30 - Why I still love them now
Day 21 - Favorite picture of 7
Ehehe~
You surely like your face from that angle, huh, Nakajima? /hi-five with Koyama