Hello....
I'm pretty sure no one really remembers me, or if they do, have no need for me as a friend...
Wait, that sounds pretty harsh, my bad. I mean to say is that I've been gone so long, I can understand if people have thought I've dropped off the face of the earth, or even just left LJ.
I haven't really, but I've kind of been afraid to come on, like I don't deserve it. To be honest, I don't even know why I'm writing at the moment, maybe because I think I shouldn't be a huge coward, and face up to the people I care about...
Any way, times have not been so easy for me at the moment, I don't want to dump a ton of pathetic drama on people, it's not fair nor is it even right, but at this time I can say that time isn't exactly on my side. I'm praying for a job, working hard to get one, but if I don't....Well then, I won't be in a house to post on the internet. I wouldn't be in a house really. I don't know where I'd be.
Today is the 6th right? Well, searching for months, still jobless, I have till the 31st to grab a job, and a new place of my own, before as I would say, the shit hits the fan, pardon the phrase. My best friend has been the kindest, her parents so dear, to allow me to stay in their home, but my stay is only so long, and me staying longer has become a lot of trouble.
That's seeming really drama filled...I'll stop. I just want people to know that I care about them, and I'm really sorry for seeming to ignore everyone, and hiding. I don't want any one to hate me, and I don't want to lose friends, but I can understand if it happens. I will try to log in more, and talk with people as I can, but please forgive me if...Well if my attitude is sort of on the serious side, well, the "time is of the essence" side.
I've never prayed as much as I've been doing lately...I just hope something good can happen...
Thank you all for your time, if you read, and know that my heart is still open for my friends, they are the most dear to me...For in the end, not matter where I've been or what happens, I've come to know them as a closer family than any other...
~Yoyo