i love my new camera
so i've said goodbye to anne and chelsea. although neither of them were my real good friends, it was still sad. i can't imagine how difficult it will be when i say goodbye to some of the closer people. i will probably cry so much. lately i have been so emotional. i am not sure why. its not mad emotional, its just like eveyrthing makes me cry. happy, sad, cute, whatever, im crying. its strange. maybe its new people in my life, maybe it was that wedding, or maybe its just the realization thats its okay to cry.
for a long time i had a hard time crying. like i would be really upset and want to cry but i couldnt. then one day it got easier. and now its like too easy. i can cry on command! haha not really but seriously i do it a lot more and i like that i cry. my mom called me a baby for crying so much so easily a few weeks ago and i was offended. i think crying is important.
i've had some thoughts about when my friends leave. thoughts about what i will miss most about each one of them. all in all the suckiest part is that the people who are leaving are the ones who hold me up when im down and who will meet me anywhere anytime for a chat, lunch, a good cry or laugh, or just because. i love eveyrone who is staying here but i think the ones who are leaving are some of the better people i've met in my time in morgantown which makes things more difficult.
my brother is very homesick so he is coming to visit in a week or so. i am excited for him to come but i am sad too. i hope he is not too sad when he finally arrives. i wish he lived closer so we didnt have to miss each other so much. he is the best guy i have ever known. in comparison to my dad he is a superstar. i cannot imagine marrying a better man. my brother will be the greatest husband, dad, uncle, grandpa, and employee in the world. he is amazing. one of you ladies should marry him lol.
well i have a long day coming up here. but i will write more soon. the more people i say goodbye to the more emotion i will pour into this journal. gotta let it out somehow.
loves for all of you
for a long time i had a hard time crying. like i would be really upset and want to cry but i couldnt. then one day it got easier. and now its like too easy. i can cry on command! haha not really but seriously i do it a lot more and i like that i cry. my mom called me a baby for crying so much so easily a few weeks ago and i was offended. i think crying is important.
i've had some thoughts about when my friends leave. thoughts about what i will miss most about each one of them. all in all the suckiest part is that the people who are leaving are the ones who hold me up when im down and who will meet me anywhere anytime for a chat, lunch, a good cry or laugh, or just because. i love eveyrone who is staying here but i think the ones who are leaving are some of the better people i've met in my time in morgantown which makes things more difficult.
my brother is very homesick so he is coming to visit in a week or so. i am excited for him to come but i am sad too. i hope he is not too sad when he finally arrives. i wish he lived closer so we didnt have to miss each other so much. he is the best guy i have ever known. in comparison to my dad he is a superstar. i cannot imagine marrying a better man. my brother will be the greatest husband, dad, uncle, grandpa, and employee in the world. he is amazing. one of you ladies should marry him lol.
well i have a long day coming up here. but i will write more soon. the more people i say goodbye to the more emotion i will pour into this journal. gotta let it out somehow.
loves for all of you