WHEN NIGHT FALLS ON ME I'LL NOT CLOSE MY EYES I'M TOO ALIVE AND YOU'RE TOO STRONG
These cycles, I hate them. Fuel up on caffeine to get me through the day. The artificial energy, it's never enough. Staying awake until my eyes barely stay open. This tiresome lifestyle. Hate it. This crying out and commitment and proimse. Then feeling as if I've fallen from grace. Flesh against Spirit, waging war, resistence, struggle, sinful over righteous. Sorry forgive me, I feel unworthy. But in the midst of my sin you love me anyway. Why, when over and over I fail you, displease you? Then confess and promise a change. I deceive myself and you know the emptiness of my promise. That even when it's said, it will never be kept. I need your strength to change. Never-ending stupid cycles. Make them stop. They suck...