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so i get all ready to take a shower, and i hear, "ARE YOU GETTING IN THERE!?" .....ugh yeah! that's why i have a fucking towel wrapped around my body you idiot! these people i live with are fucking morons. like i'm supposed to just KNOW WHEN they need to take a shower. so i let the little fuck (brian of course) get in the shower before me so i didn't have to hear him rant and bitch about how he's gotta be somewhere and the world revolves around him, like i have NO WHERE TO BE! sometimes my mind just goes "!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" if that makes sense.
i haven't really updated. let's see... monday, me and freddy went to dave and busters. we played this boxing game (which i felt like i was going to die from the next day cause my body was so sore), and shot hoops (where he kicked my ass, but i did really good) and then played ski-ball (where i beat his score and last minute, he kicked my ass! motha focka) so, that was a really really really good night. we were just all happy and fun.
then, i think it was tuesday, he went out to eat with joann, and called me a billion times before he went to question, talk, re-question, be positive, reassure. i was like, "wtf is wrong with you!" and then he called me after and was like, "get ready i'm coming to get you." so i did... to sit in his car for a little over an hour and argue because he was so not himself. and was all depressed (which the convo wasn't that bad so i don't get what his problem was) and weird and going against every good thing he said to me monday. and sounding like his life is falling apart and he has all this stress and blah blah. and no matter what i said, it didn't matter cause he was off on another planet apparently. i HATE when he fucking talks to her cause she messes him up and he doesn't realize it. i know she pulls that i'm-so-fucking-nice card where she's, "only here for you, and this is about you and i'm mary fucking sunshine and blah blah blah". makes me sick. for real. got out of the car irritated.
wednesday? i dunno... thursday, st. patty's... DIDN'T DO SHIT! i felt soooo shitty. and my stomach hurt so i fell asleep. then i got a second wind and called ash to see if she wanted to have a beer, and didn't get through. and i didn't care to talk to anyone else. and freddy was playing ball til 2:30 or something. so i just went back to sleep.
yesterday, ash and i went to lunch at applebee's and had the most ANNOYING waitress who wouldn't shut her pie hole the whole time we were trying to eat. not to mention she (honestly) looked like shrek with purple eye make up. then i get a text from freddy "where are you?" and then i go back to work and we kept texting all day cause we were bored and because i love really high phone bills at the end of the month. ha! then we teased hatham about what color socks he had on. he kept telling us they were brown, but they were clearly black. i told him to let his wife dress him. hahah! then, amar walks by cindy and puts his arm around her and she's like, "you better stop touching me like that before you get me in trouble." and then he does it again, and she's like, "or i get YOU in trouble, or we get in some trouble together!" and he starts laughing and walks away and she turns to me and i'm like, "LET ME HELP YOU!" and then she high fived me and we started cracking up. then poor hatham got molested by like, all 5 of us girls. he came to show me vaca pics and joann drops her pen on the floor, then i threw mine, then zina throws the 3 phones she had in her hands, and we were all dying laughing, and he STILL bent over and picked them up! what a good guy! lol. he walked out and nancy was like, "damn we all need some sex." then, me and freddy are texting back and forth, and i send one back and i hear amar laughing. so then i text freddy with, "you better not be showing amar these." and he's like, "oh oooops." and then he later told me that amar knows. i love how he reams my ass, yet he's told nancy, gihad, amar, everyone!!!!!!!!!! lol.
so i went home and took a nap after work. fought with my mom for the purple blanket and told her to wake me up in an hour. then, out of a cold sleep i heard my phone ring, jumped and was out the door in 20 minutes. lol. went to see freddy, drove around and ended up out in birmingham. then jo calls while we're in the car and i have to listen to him talk to her and make myself want to vomit. then we started talking and i gave him the watch i bought him when i got all those nasty texts the other week. i just bought it cause it reminded me of him for some reason and i couldn't return it after the fact! and now we're on better terms so i figured what the hell am i going to do with it? i wouldn't give it to anyone else, and i bought it for him... so, i pulled it out and he got a little glimpse, but i turned the box so he couldn't see it right away, and he went to grab it, and i pulled it back and i was like, "are you sureeeee you want this?" and he then he looked at the box with this "oh my god" look on his face and i turned it around he he couldn't believe i just picked it up for no reason. it's the baddest kenneth cole watch i've ever seen. it's all metal, with mesh straps. it's so bad. he loved it. he kept telling me he couldn't take it and would pay me for it, until i kicked his ass in and told him it's nothing because... really, it wasn't. we ended up at java hut again. lol. drank some hot caramel cider SOOO GOOD! talked. drove back home and had more retarded talks. got infront of the house and had ANOTHER horrible talk and cry fest. i hate how emotional i am about him and jo and me and him. the whole 'jo' factor should be done and yet he's trying to make her happy still and he can't and in turn it's making me a fucking mess. he needs to just stop it all because he's going to be back at one if he doesn't and i dunno... i just get so irritated. and then i cried all over his shirt and prolly ruined it with my mascara. and it was an expensive shirt and i felt badddd.
i just woke up at 3, and i'm all messed up. no call from freddy. little ass. have to go babysit at 7 for beth and gary. i hope tonight is a better night with freddy... let's hope.
closing thought: i'm against pants too!
i haven't really updated. let's see... monday, me and freddy went to dave and busters. we played this boxing game (which i felt like i was going to die from the next day cause my body was so sore), and shot hoops (where he kicked my ass, but i did really good) and then played ski-ball (where i beat his score and last minute, he kicked my ass! motha focka) so, that was a really really really good night. we were just all happy and fun.
then, i think it was tuesday, he went out to eat with joann, and called me a billion times before he went to question, talk, re-question, be positive, reassure. i was like, "wtf is wrong with you!" and then he called me after and was like, "get ready i'm coming to get you." so i did... to sit in his car for a little over an hour and argue because he was so not himself. and was all depressed (which the convo wasn't that bad so i don't get what his problem was) and weird and going against every good thing he said to me monday. and sounding like his life is falling apart and he has all this stress and blah blah. and no matter what i said, it didn't matter cause he was off on another planet apparently. i HATE when he fucking talks to her cause she messes him up and he doesn't realize it. i know she pulls that i'm-so-fucking-nice card where she's, "only here for you, and this is about you and i'm mary fucking sunshine and blah blah blah". makes me sick. for real. got out of the car irritated.
wednesday? i dunno... thursday, st. patty's... DIDN'T DO SHIT! i felt soooo shitty. and my stomach hurt so i fell asleep. then i got a second wind and called ash to see if she wanted to have a beer, and didn't get through. and i didn't care to talk to anyone else. and freddy was playing ball til 2:30 or something. so i just went back to sleep.
yesterday, ash and i went to lunch at applebee's and had the most ANNOYING waitress who wouldn't shut her pie hole the whole time we were trying to eat. not to mention she (honestly) looked like shrek with purple eye make up. then i get a text from freddy "where are you?" and then i go back to work and we kept texting all day cause we were bored and because i love really high phone bills at the end of the month. ha! then we teased hatham about what color socks he had on. he kept telling us they were brown, but they were clearly black. i told him to let his wife dress him. hahah! then, amar walks by cindy and puts his arm around her and she's like, "you better stop touching me like that before you get me in trouble." and then he does it again, and she's like, "or i get YOU in trouble, or we get in some trouble together!" and he starts laughing and walks away and she turns to me and i'm like, "LET ME HELP YOU!" and then she high fived me and we started cracking up. then poor hatham got molested by like, all 5 of us girls. he came to show me vaca pics and joann drops her pen on the floor, then i threw mine, then zina throws the 3 phones she had in her hands, and we were all dying laughing, and he STILL bent over and picked them up! what a good guy! lol. he walked out and nancy was like, "damn we all need some sex." then, me and freddy are texting back and forth, and i send one back and i hear amar laughing. so then i text freddy with, "you better not be showing amar these." and he's like, "oh oooops." and then he later told me that amar knows. i love how he reams my ass, yet he's told nancy, gihad, amar, everyone!!!!!!!!!! lol.
so i went home and took a nap after work. fought with my mom for the purple blanket and told her to wake me up in an hour. then, out of a cold sleep i heard my phone ring, jumped and was out the door in 20 minutes. lol. went to see freddy, drove around and ended up out in birmingham. then jo calls while we're in the car and i have to listen to him talk to her and make myself want to vomit. then we started talking and i gave him the watch i bought him when i got all those nasty texts the other week. i just bought it cause it reminded me of him for some reason and i couldn't return it after the fact! and now we're on better terms so i figured what the hell am i going to do with it? i wouldn't give it to anyone else, and i bought it for him... so, i pulled it out and he got a little glimpse, but i turned the box so he couldn't see it right away, and he went to grab it, and i pulled it back and i was like, "are you sureeeee you want this?" and he then he looked at the box with this "oh my god" look on his face and i turned it around he he couldn't believe i just picked it up for no reason. it's the baddest kenneth cole watch i've ever seen. it's all metal, with mesh straps. it's so bad. he loved it. he kept telling me he couldn't take it and would pay me for it, until i kicked his ass in and told him it's nothing because... really, it wasn't. we ended up at java hut again. lol. drank some hot caramel cider SOOO GOOD! talked. drove back home and had more retarded talks. got infront of the house and had ANOTHER horrible talk and cry fest. i hate how emotional i am about him and jo and me and him. the whole 'jo' factor should be done and yet he's trying to make her happy still and he can't and in turn it's making me a fucking mess. he needs to just stop it all because he's going to be back at one if he doesn't and i dunno... i just get so irritated. and then i cried all over his shirt and prolly ruined it with my mascara. and it was an expensive shirt and i felt badddd.
i just woke up at 3, and i'm all messed up. no call from freddy. little ass. have to go babysit at 7 for beth and gary. i hope tonight is a better night with freddy... let's hope.
closing thought: i'm against pants too!