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i didn't do too much this week. pretty much involved sleeping. playing pool. yadda yadda... the usual. oh, but i did drop major cash at the mall and FINALLY got my ugg boots!
but yesterday... daaaaaaaaaaamn. everyone went out for fadi's birthday to 29th n park in canada. they rented a booth and we all got rocked. i got irritated the moment i walked in the door and say joann all over freddy. i decided to play "catch up" and get shit faced hoping i wouldn't care. that didn't work. i was about 5 drinks in within the first 40 minutes. i wasn't catching a buzz... i don't know if it was because i was in such a shit mood. so then some shots came, and everyone downed them. i turn around and ehab is holding his. he's like, "here." i was like, "why didn't you do yours?" he's like, "just shut up and take it for me." lol. so i did. after that i caught a slight buzz. i was so irritated though, i felt like i was going to puke. nancy kept saying, "don't worry about it, blah blah. just don't do anything stupid, have fun." so i grabbed ehab and took him out on the floor. we were dancing for awhile. and then he whispers, "nadine... don't tell anyone... but i'm in love with your boobs!" and i pulled away and he was just laughing and it was the funniest thing. i don't know if it was just a really funny drunk moment or not. then he tells me something about how we have to hang some other time cause pretty soon him and cindy, freddy and joann were leaving. and he said something about them going because of "joann and freddy", almost as if implying something. buzz kill number 2. so i get back to the booth, and this guy norris grabs me and starts talking about how he seen me at global the other week and how he was talking to freddy about me (if he only knew, right?) and telling him to hook him up with me and this and that. i was half listening because i was pretty uninterested because i was drunk, and i don't know... i really don't care about that shit. then he's telling me how beautiful i am, and he wasn't "just saying it". ugh... then, i look over and i see freddy pretty much fucking joann on the dance floor. that's when i looked at nancy and said, "i'm about to get a new job." and she's like, "no nadine!" and cindy grabs my hand to go out to dance, and i'm walking past freddy and her, with cindy's hand dragging me past them, and i got behind him next to his ear and said, "i hope she's worth it." and he just looked at me... i couldn't even tell you what was going through my mind at that moment. so then i get back to the booth and i'm getting totally rocked and joann's sitting there saying, "you should talk to norris, he's really interested in you." and i'm like, "huh, so?" she's like, "he's a nice guy, blah blah blah." and i was like, "i don't care." i was being my normal, i-don't-give-a-fuck drunk. but it coulda been worse, i coulda been like, "oh, i'm sure he's a nice guy. but freddys even nicer, i mean... he's so nice that he can spread his nice-ness around to two girls at once!" ha. so then she disappears, and freddy's like, "can i talk to you?" so he takes me to the side of the bar and i can't honestly remember the conversation. but it pretty much involved me saying, "i can't believe you're doing this to me. how could you do that in front of my face." and him telling me that i started it by freaking ehab. PLEASE! he knows it's not like that, but nice excuse right? and then i was just like, "you need to decide, right now. what you want. because you're fucking it up with me and you." and he looked me dead in the eye and actually said, "i don't know." i felt like saying, "so the times you told me before that you wanted to be with me, you lied to me?" but instead i said, "i'll choose for you." and walked away from him. i was so irritated. i walked back to the booth and filled 3/4 of my glass with vodka and a little orange juice. did about 3 of those and dropped a glass on the floor... so i decided to make another drink and sit my ass on the couch. i lost any good feeling i had. sitting there miserable with half of my drink on me, my head swimming, and joann's up my ass asking me "what's wrong?" a couple more drinks and i prolly woulda told her. then i go to the bathroom, and i come back and i'm standing next to the booth and all of a sudden i hear nancy start screaming, "YOU LIAR! I'M SICK OF YOU AND YOUR BITCH!" and then she threw two drinks at freddy and joann. i was in shock! especially since she was coaching me all night! so nancy bolts off, joann is flipping out (could you imagine being 25 and having a 19 year old put you in check?) and saying she's leaving and then (at the perfect moment) this guy grabs me and pulls me out on the floor. i still have no idea who he knew that was with us... or if he even told me his name. so after about ten songs (i was on a roll) "dirty" comes on. so i made some excuse to get a drink because i wanted to grab freddy. so i walked up to him sitting on the couch and said, "it's my song, wanna come dance with me... if it's alright with your girl that is." being a sarcastic drunk fuck that i am. so he's like, "yeah." and grabs my hand. so we get really far in and he's up against the window and telling me that he's sorry he hurt me and some shit, i don't really remember. and then he's telling me that he has to tell joann about the situation that we have feelings for eachother and blah blah. and to call him later that night when i got back to nancy's. at this time, i have no clue what happened to joann because she's nowhere to be found. so we're dancing for awhile, and he takes me to go buy a drink. and he's all like, "you look so hot tonight too." and i was like, "i kinda did that on purpose. what? am i supposed to be going out looking ugly?" (i totally had to make sure i looked better than joann, not that it's hard, because honestly, if any guy saw this girl he would prolly laugh at how stupid freddy actually is. she's pretty but... chubby. with no personality. she's one of those. "hey... yeah" smiley girls). next thing i'm back in the booth and i see the birthday girl (her birthday was the same night as fadi's) sitting down trashed. she looked like she lost her happy buzz too, so i grabbed her and dragged her on the floor. fed her some more drinks and danced away a few songs. i was going to make another trip to the bathroom when nancy was like, "don't go in there, joann's throwing up." that didn't really stop me. i walked all the way there thinking in my head, "oh, little princess got drunk... i hope she's puking up a lung." so i went in there, and i come back, and i notice freddy's gone. nancy said joann got kicked out of the club. so me, cindy, fadi, jenny, and this other girl are dancing and this canadian dude asks if he can dance with me. so i'm freaking the shit out of him and he's like, "that's all you american girls got?" i felt like saying, "i don't know what your canadian girls do, but i'm not about to get naked for you." then he buys me a drink and sits next to me on the couch. and he's making good conversation until he's like, "so have you ever kissed a canadian guy before?" i didn't want to say "no" or "yes" because i didn't want him to kiss me so i just switched the subject. i told him that we were leaving. and then we're standing by the front door deciding who's going to pull up the cars when i see the dude walking down the steps and he comes up and corners me and starts taking to me again, and he's got me up against the wall. he's like, "come on, one kiss... i'm leaving." and i was like, "no gotta go." and threw him off of me and ran out the door with cindy. he was really cute... but ew. creep. the rest of the night consisted of calling freddy, arguing with freddy, getting irritated, and hanging up on him for good at 5 in the morning.
woke up this morning and came home. didn't do shit all day. talked to freddy for a bit, and got punked out for venting to cindy last night. how did i know that one would bite me in the ass! started having some MUCH NEEDED conversation and his phone died and it's STILL NOT ON. i'm so irritated. and i'm hungry! why is my life such a soap opera!
closing thought: i'm going to church this sunday!
but yesterday... daaaaaaaaaaamn. everyone went out for fadi's birthday to 29th n park in canada. they rented a booth and we all got rocked. i got irritated the moment i walked in the door and say joann all over freddy. i decided to play "catch up" and get shit faced hoping i wouldn't care. that didn't work. i was about 5 drinks in within the first 40 minutes. i wasn't catching a buzz... i don't know if it was because i was in such a shit mood. so then some shots came, and everyone downed them. i turn around and ehab is holding his. he's like, "here." i was like, "why didn't you do yours?" he's like, "just shut up and take it for me." lol. so i did. after that i caught a slight buzz. i was so irritated though, i felt like i was going to puke. nancy kept saying, "don't worry about it, blah blah. just don't do anything stupid, have fun." so i grabbed ehab and took him out on the floor. we were dancing for awhile. and then he whispers, "nadine... don't tell anyone... but i'm in love with your boobs!" and i pulled away and he was just laughing and it was the funniest thing. i don't know if it was just a really funny drunk moment or not. then he tells me something about how we have to hang some other time cause pretty soon him and cindy, freddy and joann were leaving. and he said something about them going because of "joann and freddy", almost as if implying something. buzz kill number 2. so i get back to the booth, and this guy norris grabs me and starts talking about how he seen me at global the other week and how he was talking to freddy about me (if he only knew, right?) and telling him to hook him up with me and this and that. i was half listening because i was pretty uninterested because i was drunk, and i don't know... i really don't care about that shit. then he's telling me how beautiful i am, and he wasn't "just saying it". ugh... then, i look over and i see freddy pretty much fucking joann on the dance floor. that's when i looked at nancy and said, "i'm about to get a new job." and she's like, "no nadine!" and cindy grabs my hand to go out to dance, and i'm walking past freddy and her, with cindy's hand dragging me past them, and i got behind him next to his ear and said, "i hope she's worth it." and he just looked at me... i couldn't even tell you what was going through my mind at that moment. so then i get back to the booth and i'm getting totally rocked and joann's sitting there saying, "you should talk to norris, he's really interested in you." and i'm like, "huh, so?" she's like, "he's a nice guy, blah blah blah." and i was like, "i don't care." i was being my normal, i-don't-give-a-fuck drunk. but it coulda been worse, i coulda been like, "oh, i'm sure he's a nice guy. but freddys even nicer, i mean... he's so nice that he can spread his nice-ness around to two girls at once!" ha. so then she disappears, and freddy's like, "can i talk to you?" so he takes me to the side of the bar and i can't honestly remember the conversation. but it pretty much involved me saying, "i can't believe you're doing this to me. how could you do that in front of my face." and him telling me that i started it by freaking ehab. PLEASE! he knows it's not like that, but nice excuse right? and then i was just like, "you need to decide, right now. what you want. because you're fucking it up with me and you." and he looked me dead in the eye and actually said, "i don't know." i felt like saying, "so the times you told me before that you wanted to be with me, you lied to me?" but instead i said, "i'll choose for you." and walked away from him. i was so irritated. i walked back to the booth and filled 3/4 of my glass with vodka and a little orange juice. did about 3 of those and dropped a glass on the floor... so i decided to make another drink and sit my ass on the couch. i lost any good feeling i had. sitting there miserable with half of my drink on me, my head swimming, and joann's up my ass asking me "what's wrong?" a couple more drinks and i prolly woulda told her. then i go to the bathroom, and i come back and i'm standing next to the booth and all of a sudden i hear nancy start screaming, "YOU LIAR! I'M SICK OF YOU AND YOUR BITCH!" and then she threw two drinks at freddy and joann. i was in shock! especially since she was coaching me all night! so nancy bolts off, joann is flipping out (could you imagine being 25 and having a 19 year old put you in check?) and saying she's leaving and then (at the perfect moment) this guy grabs me and pulls me out on the floor. i still have no idea who he knew that was with us... or if he even told me his name. so after about ten songs (i was on a roll) "dirty" comes on. so i made some excuse to get a drink because i wanted to grab freddy. so i walked up to him sitting on the couch and said, "it's my song, wanna come dance with me... if it's alright with your girl that is." being a sarcastic drunk fuck that i am. so he's like, "yeah." and grabs my hand. so we get really far in and he's up against the window and telling me that he's sorry he hurt me and some shit, i don't really remember. and then he's telling me that he has to tell joann about the situation that we have feelings for eachother and blah blah. and to call him later that night when i got back to nancy's. at this time, i have no clue what happened to joann because she's nowhere to be found. so we're dancing for awhile, and he takes me to go buy a drink. and he's all like, "you look so hot tonight too." and i was like, "i kinda did that on purpose. what? am i supposed to be going out looking ugly?" (i totally had to make sure i looked better than joann, not that it's hard, because honestly, if any guy saw this girl he would prolly laugh at how stupid freddy actually is. she's pretty but... chubby. with no personality. she's one of those. "hey... yeah" smiley girls). next thing i'm back in the booth and i see the birthday girl (her birthday was the same night as fadi's) sitting down trashed. she looked like she lost her happy buzz too, so i grabbed her and dragged her on the floor. fed her some more drinks and danced away a few songs. i was going to make another trip to the bathroom when nancy was like, "don't go in there, joann's throwing up." that didn't really stop me. i walked all the way there thinking in my head, "oh, little princess got drunk... i hope she's puking up a lung." so i went in there, and i come back, and i notice freddy's gone. nancy said joann got kicked out of the club. so me, cindy, fadi, jenny, and this other girl are dancing and this canadian dude asks if he can dance with me. so i'm freaking the shit out of him and he's like, "that's all you american girls got?" i felt like saying, "i don't know what your canadian girls do, but i'm not about to get naked for you." then he buys me a drink and sits next to me on the couch. and he's making good conversation until he's like, "so have you ever kissed a canadian guy before?" i didn't want to say "no" or "yes" because i didn't want him to kiss me so i just switched the subject. i told him that we were leaving. and then we're standing by the front door deciding who's going to pull up the cars when i see the dude walking down the steps and he comes up and corners me and starts taking to me again, and he's got me up against the wall. he's like, "come on, one kiss... i'm leaving." and i was like, "no gotta go." and threw him off of me and ran out the door with cindy. he was really cute... but ew. creep. the rest of the night consisted of calling freddy, arguing with freddy, getting irritated, and hanging up on him for good at 5 in the morning.
woke up this morning and came home. didn't do shit all day. talked to freddy for a bit, and got punked out for venting to cindy last night. how did i know that one would bite me in the ass! started having some MUCH NEEDED conversation and his phone died and it's STILL NOT ON. i'm so irritated. and i'm hungry! why is my life such a soap opera!
closing thought: i'm going to church this sunday!