Baby...
So my twin sister is expecting, unexpectedly, of course, and this bothers me for a few reasons.
#1: It's my twin sister to whom I employ my every fiber of love and trust. And pretty soon, she's going to have an entire life that's separate from me or my love and trust. She will be responsible for an entire life, which, needless to say, is enough of a responsibility without having to worry about how her love and trust is employed elsewhere.
#2: I went to the doctor the other day for strep throat, and one of my classmates from high school was there, working, as a nurse, and SHE was pregnant and married, too. Then, I went to Walgreens to get my RX, and ANOTHER one of my high school classmates was there, and SHE was pregnant. Apparently, I'm the only person from my class who isn't married/going to be married/pregnant/trying to get pregnant. This shouldn't bother me, and it doesn't REALLY bother me, but combined with other named annoyances regarding the subject, it's enough to make this list.
#3: I'm envious. I want babies, too. And if I can't have babies, then I want my sisters to let me see their babies whenever I want, which is ridiculous and stupid, but true.
#4: I know it's my choice to be where I am in life, but I kind of feel like I'm being left behind. Where others may wish they were in my position without obligation or tie-downs, and I enjoy being where I am, I wish, with equal contentment, that I would be where they are.
I don't know, I guess I have mixed feelings about it. Ultimately I hope they're happy and that the baby likes me.
I'm at work and my back really hurts from this stupid chair.
#1: It's my twin sister to whom I employ my every fiber of love and trust. And pretty soon, she's going to have an entire life that's separate from me or my love and trust. She will be responsible for an entire life, which, needless to say, is enough of a responsibility without having to worry about how her love and trust is employed elsewhere.
#2: I went to the doctor the other day for strep throat, and one of my classmates from high school was there, working, as a nurse, and SHE was pregnant and married, too. Then, I went to Walgreens to get my RX, and ANOTHER one of my high school classmates was there, and SHE was pregnant. Apparently, I'm the only person from my class who isn't married/going to be married/pregnant/trying to get pregnant. This shouldn't bother me, and it doesn't REALLY bother me, but combined with other named annoyances regarding the subject, it's enough to make this list.
#3: I'm envious. I want babies, too. And if I can't have babies, then I want my sisters to let me see their babies whenever I want, which is ridiculous and stupid, but true.
#4: I know it's my choice to be where I am in life, but I kind of feel like I'm being left behind. Where others may wish they were in my position without obligation or tie-downs, and I enjoy being where I am, I wish, with equal contentment, that I would be where they are.
I don't know, I guess I have mixed feelings about it. Ultimately I hope they're happy and that the baby likes me.
I'm at work and my back really hurts from this stupid chair.